disconnecting my blog to FB (and Merry Xmas post!)

Decided to throw down the axe today... FB is just too public to allow fresh live streams go to it with every update that I post up.

Was figuring why I had posted so much less, and thus have came to the conclusion that FB had a thing to do with it. (you can actually sync your blog to notes by putting your blog address there) Don't wanna go into details but the fact that it did made me feel insecure posting stuffs up.

Will start updating again, hopefully by doing the above will encourage me to blog more.

Btw, it's 25th December 2010. Year coming to an end soon. Merry Christmas everyone!!

^too many times we forget that Christmas is about Jesus and nothing else. Happy B'day Jesus, thank you for coming into this world and making such a big change outta it. =) ^

yo peeps i've been missing again xD

Ok ok... i'll try post more often now..

Been on a new job, and guess I didn't had the mood or know what to type.

So latest update is I just got a job at Laureate (which I figure better to announce later since I'm neeeww...)

Laureate is an MNC company, having universities and colleges all around the world. Started with a few people having owned this tuition company which was huge in the US, and grown to such a big capital that they went and invest in buying universities instead... now they have many many institutions all around the world... all making alot of $$. (Education is prized and needed everywhere, especially when it's good tertiary education?). So the end of it was that the Laureate business overtook the tuition business (which was a different name) and ultimately became the core of the company.

(oh wow the wikipedia version of it is sad zz... hope will improve soon: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Laureate_Education)

Currently my job is to support the internal staff globally on whatever IT issues that they have. The part I don't like that much is that we had to process many of the new hires tickets... and they can be like WHOA, THAT MANY? no choice bro... someone have to do it =D *put a smiling face and clean it up* We did brought this up and it's in the process of being automated or made easier... soon, and hopefully...

We're a team of 4 currently, including my manager. So since it's less than a year we're all pioneers and starters of it. Basically me and Tan does most of the ticketing while Luke and Kelvin will be full time with the execs in Inti (the Laureate regional office is based there, our office is not.. our's is somewhere along the shops opposite Asia Cafe).

Yeah, and I got a blackberry for the first time being on the job.. isn't that awesome or wat?

Our company is still "codename" IGT.. which will change soon, hopefully (too)... coz telling ppl u are from IGT is like, "what's IGT?" "what do they do?" yada-yada *yawn*

And hopefully we get parking claims, and our own medical card too, so we can see docs without first needing to pay it... NOT convenient, uh-huuh...

So u see... i'm very careful about what I type above.. ALWAYS be very careful bout what you type in regards to your company, OK? stay outta trouble from legal, HR, your manager and all sorts... ppl can spy when u least know it. Anyhow, u're still working there right? Who pays the bill? Your current company right? So that's why I always ask ppl to STFU and work... if don't like no need to make a big fuss and noise bout it, be wise and prepare to leave silently.

this is the global site:

http://www.laureate.net/

as you can see, this is the amount of institutions they own:

http://www.laureate.net/en/OurNetwork.aspx

"There's a bright future working here... " - always heard that from somewhere... so I'll hang on for the time being and see where this brings me. =)

Good luck and all the best in your careers too =)

Feed not updated to facebook

posting this and hopefully it pushes the last 2 posts to Facebook.

Updatess...

Roy Tan migrated to KL (previously he's in Malacca).. and life started changing wahaha...

went out to drinks, shopping, movies and stuff with da dude. He was my roomate last time in Sunway College... and darn have we change through these 3 years haha... still adjusting and fitting with each other. Yet, like what old sayings said, "old friends, tho apart, will still be close coz of the memories together.. even if they'd change they'll still be good friends."

His profile:

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1180481421

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On another hand...

Met someone that I loved... someone that might be real this time. Let's hope so. I wanna disclose more but I feel it's more suitable to do so at a later time. (not as simple as it seems)

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Gonna start new job next month, around 18th... can't wait!!!


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I had a new car few mths back, and I shall officially announce it... guess what car is it? Hehe =P

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Since mum moved up to KL to live, life has been changing for me.. need to adapt to the less privacy that I once had... yet many things are easier for me now with her helping me in housework chores. I love you mum!! thank u for all u do!! (tho she might not hear this coz she's not IT savvy... xD )

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New comp = alot of games being completed @@

just completed a few in my lists, considered it a feat:
1. Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2
2. Transformers: War on Cybertron
3. Age of Wonders 2: Shadow Magic

And now, officially hooked to:
League of Legends (a dota like game, played online, DC-free, free of W3 engine with many heroes, runes, summoner powers to combine with)

http://www.leagueoflegends.com/

My username: MarkXKiller (US server, add me if you're playing too)

Screenshot:

http://riot-web-static.s3.amazonaws.com/media/screens/19.JPG

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Less wastage of money please... Need to have a better budget.

petrol price increase, dammit!! ARGGhhhh like I dont have enough expenditure to bog me down already >.<""""

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End ... phew that was a swift chain of updates! LOL

Time to leave

I know,

my blog has been dead.

And today you're gonna see a few posts coming from me. All with loads of stuffs which has been happening.

Firstly, the bomb of all news. I am officially leaving Dell. Not coz I chose to, but coz Dell thinks I'm not good enough for it. Can't blame tho, with my lack of experience in Global support, the reason that they hire me was coz they thought I could made it... and plus the support is really critical.

Not much calls actually in my current helpdesk, but once a call comes in for SaaS (Software as a Service), it will blow your mind off, well, if you are unlucky enough to get some really rare/explosive stuff.

And I admit, I am not good enough. I did bring it up... and I did say that given more time I definitely could prove myself. But that was not accepted, I was pressured, and thus, I had to make way for something new in my life. A change of job. I would like to reveal more, but Dell's policy of not allowing anything (posts, facebook etc) that is to undermined its name and brand is something to think of. They could bring you to court.

So.. I will state this. That I've learnt a lot from it. That I've not wasted all of my time. I did grew from it. Yet all i wish was not for me to leave in this way. What to do, sometimes things are just way out of our control. I will learn not to do the same mistakes that I did there (which I didn't realized they were mistakes till it came back at me like a boomerang).

A few key things I've learnt:
1. Never ever trust anyone at work, no matter how close you are (unless you know the person personally outside of work, preferably before you joined the company).

2. Dealing with Western Cultures (a training that I went, was taught by Andrew, a Canadian currently residing in Malaysia for 8 years already)... which shed light on the difference of Malaysia culture and cultures in the US and Europe. What we could do about it and how we could improved.

3. Effective Communication Skills (a course that I thought i knew darn well, due to previously working in Maxis and HP going through the same lesson before... but no.. this is way more deep and detailed and emphasizes on how you talk, your tone, facial expression, to the point of detecting lies and body language.) One important quote I learnt from the trainer: "You do not need to speak loud, but, do speak out, and speak UP... that is when people will listen to what you've said." (Tone, the way you speak, the way you emphasize on the words, is important.)

4. Passion Driven Mindset - this is where we were taught on how to ignite passion in everything that we do. So that we would not grow bored, and know how to manage things in order to succeed. One important story I've learn: "If you were force to eat a live toad, when will you eat it? You have to do it everyday, lest you will be killed by the village chef if you do not do so." Answer: "As early in the morning, once you woke up, you have to do it." Coz it's the best time to do something, that is this hard. When you finish the hardest part of the day, the other chores will seem easier, and it will not bug u down as much as not doing it and have that thought floating in your head. Always start with the toughest chores/tasks, and finishing it with easier things to do near the end of the day.

5. Say good things, and good things only, whenever you are in your company. Never whine, never complain. Coz those things can be used by your colleagues as a weapon to your manager/boss. No matter how you feel, when ppl ask you "How are you feeling working here?" say... "It's good, it's great, i'm proud to be here, this is THE BEST JOB EVAH" Yea, that is the best answer. Really...

6. Double check everything with your boss/manager if you are not sure. If you feel uneasy with a decision, escalate to get confirmation. Before you end up burning your own ass in the oven with your boss the next day.

7. Get the job started fast, swift, and perfect even in the beginning of the job. Never procrastinate, as this could become a reason for them not wanting to confirm you later on. "So far I am not convince with your performance" After the 3rd month is the last thing you wanna hear when you are "begging" for that confirmation.

8. Do not, EVER, sign for a job unless you really UNDERSTAND what the job REQUIRES of you. ASK, ASK plenty about how the job is gonna be, what are they expecting of you, what they want out of you, how's the environment like, how's your own team gonna be like and how they treat newbies, how the US team reacts to working with us Asians. (those salary, bonus, benefits questions are secondary if you can't even survive in it once you start???)

That's all for this post. Guess I've shared a lot of valuable experience here. Use it, coz it's usable anywhere you work. That is what I plan to do, all the lessons I've learnt here, will never be wasted.

Lastly, a short comic to ask yourself before you agree to that job offer:

TO WORK YOUR ASS OFF......

ARE YOU READY FOR THE JOB??

thanks..

Thanks for all that have celebrated and remembered my birthday (ok tho i know FB has that b'day reminder thing.. yet being this close and wishing me, I really appreciate it)

Thanks to mum for getting me a new spec, lovin' it! been using the previous for 3 years already..

Thanks to Didie, Alex, Mahen and their GFs for going out yest for that movie and awesome dinner! (tho i admit i picked the wrong movie la.. Nanny McPhee was for kids! xD )

I was shocked to see that huge choc cake coming when the TGI Fridays crew came and sing the bday song... a secret recipe choc fudge cake... awesomely big and we only manage to finish half of it xD Super full b'day dinner. The medium-rare steak (best cooking way I feel to eat a steak) was very good, the rest had steaks too or some burger/caesar salad.

Enjoyed it alot with you guys... can actually sit down once more, chat and bincang like some old time friends. Hard to find such colleagues that can click with you so much!

Went to clubbing at Laundry after that. Dinesh joined us (another close ex BAT colleague) and we had parteh!! DJ Fuss was good.. but i sorta felt drowsy and had to excuse myself after that.. (we really ordered a lot of classic cocktails like Long Island and Borneo Knock Out) The music near the end was really too much for me to take (we were sitting near the stage and it was REAL LOUD. Went out twice just to sit by myself to get some peace...

If I weren't working on that day things would be more enjoyable.. half the energy went to work adi.. but still thanks alot buddies! hope for a next outing soon...

And thanks all for the wish at FB and SMS... Hope to keep in touch and may we be friends till the end! :D

boy girl relationship

Ok here goes.. my so called "analysis" and "hypothesis" on the whole dating landscape in the new century...

I might be wrong.. or right.. in this end it's the readers' call too.. but here are my findings after observing and going through so many...

Dating or a relationship is no longer simple. The definition of simple is when you ask about your parents, auntie, uncle's relationship and found out that, it was just asking one out, getting to know each other, and soon enough they tie the knot.

But these days, many other factors come into play.

First, you have to understand that woman know has access to education as well, one that was considered rare and expensive for either gender, thus man always had more opportunity to go for it. And those times even men are lowly educated. Thus explains why most people just jumped into the mud and get employed without much...

These days, for those after those born after the year 1960s, most have a degree. It was emphasized starting that time that a degree is needed to secure a job and to increase one's value. The difference? totally different for those after that time, very apparent after the 1970s born people...

The affect spiraled to the dating/relationship scene, and as it continues to ripple the effects... u can see now how complicated the "scene" has become.

Another fact is internet explosion... never look down at what this small giant can do... coz it seems so harmless that it's accessible via the pc and mobile.. yet with it knowledge and wisdom and all other human sharing can be found in it. Woman can leverage on what guys know simply by searching and reading. Thus closing the difference in both where nowadays both genders are called to be "equal".

Woman no longer care bout how rich a guy is, how stable he is, how much of material things he has. Yet it is still important, but only to a point. The main thing now is personality/character. Why I said so? Notice why there are guys that still can't find someone while on the other hand, someone with lower achievements yet with a strong "woman-pleasing" character, usually gets the upper hand. (this might offend some ppl for being generalizing, yet know that things are debatable... be open to what I write or don't read at all.) So what's woman-pleasing? It is when a guy is said to be able to understand a woman well, and able to show characteristics that pleases a woman..so much so he doesn't need to do much to get them to like him. Wanna know more.. the only way is to bump into such a guy.. hear 10 girls agree to it, and see for urself why he's special.

Man can no longer just employ his hunting skills as to what he practices eons ago... now they need to focus on sharpening the most important asset... communications & actions. This will ultimately formed his character and personality too. Thoughts will play a role too as with thoughts comes the rest. Habits will make him become who is he if he continues to dwell in them too long. The final product is the "packaged" product of what makes the guy a guy...

So guys, think that you have your wallets full? A credit card, a house? will suffice? No more... This is the new era. The era where women is confident about themselves, have a stable job, a degree and they can stand with their two feet even when they have no men around them... coz all they need is their bunch of friends to help them out and pull them together again. Or they can simply bring their wallets out and go shopping till they drop. (woman now has larger savings than guys too, yet they'd nvr tell a guy how much they have)

So you ask, so how? i'm single now and I can't seem to find anybody, is like it keeps failing and nothing works... There comes another factor which is the age too. As long u have that skill-sets filled to a certain point, you can rest assure with that "not giving up" attitude one day u'll find the right someone. You will understand it when you talk to 2 different age groups of girls, one at 20s-25s and those that are 27s-30s. One age group are not anticipating marriage while the other knows that they need to be there soon...

Girls might get offended by the whole writing, yet I am only typing what I observe, as everyone notices different thing and has a different viewpoint, and above is mine.

For guys, buck up and start honing all the good stuffs u can about urself.. or be prepared to live it out alone and not having anyone at your side.

For ladies, sigh... Is hard to change them.. let them choose to be who they are.. We as men can only advise, yet the ultimate part is when they decided enough is enough and to do the right thing.

That's all from my end.. feel free to blast me and i'll see what I can do to reply..

~end~

back to serious updating

feeling that my blog is kinda left out... so i'm gonna start update whatever i feel like it without caring what the world thinks.. had enuff of trying to please ppl.

this is MY PERSONAL SPACE and others will not have a chance to say whatever they feel like it as YOU CAN READ IT but WATEVER COMMENTS THAT IS NOT NEEDED i might just as well SHOVE it back to your face, thank u very much.

sorry lost it thr.. just ranting to feel better :)

it's May 2010, so damn fast... mid of the year and I'm stuck here, at this moment in life where many things are happening.

new company, new environment, new job, new people, new friends, everything has just started from ground Zero the day I came here. And I hope all will goes well and for me to keep proving myself here. My capabilities, strengths and any that I can offer to the team and organization.

as back to personal life, I sort of feel drained recently by stuffs that has been going on, some that has left deep impacts in my life. Will not hold too high hopes in things anymore as you might just fall greater from a taller height. Gonna do things in low profile and silent mode, till it is the absolute safe and secure time to reveal it. People can just be destructive with words and comments even when at times they think they are helping. So better rely on self and go through those alone... Stand up and work things out like a man.

Gonna be 25 soon officially... Feeling so old.. like 25? omg when did I reach such an age.. =.=""

Miss many of my friends back in BAT... yet I know I have to hold on and do my best in this job, till the final moment.

A poem

Dunno why I suddenly had the inspiration to write this.. but here goes:

Life isn't about judging one another, about comparing who's greater.
It ain't about fighting, wars and killing each other...
It's the little things in life people forget about,
The love, the kindness, the sharing, the friendship.

Most ppl think about these days, rather..
Are money, job, reputation and self.

How long more would you wanna live that life?
Or rather would you have the satisfaction out of the life which you live in..
The life where you would feel happy and joyful,
Where even if you have less than others you would still be happy?

The life where people would look up to you,
Respect you, and admire you for who you are..
They thank you for being around them, even as a friend..
They thank you for helping them...
For making their lives more meaningful,
For making yourself meaningful to them,
...when all around them are many that choose to be ignorant, selfish, and proud.

And now, I choose to be that person,
to be daring to be different...
Coz I know there's only one life,
And there's no turning back once it's used up.

I choose the best in life..
And now the question is,
Would you?

Posted it under my profile's bio in Facebook... :)

Wanna write this down here as a remembrance.. it just sounds perfect! :D

Desiderata - A poem for all of us

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.


Max Ehrmann, Desiderata

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Glossary (in case u need to know & too lazy to search the words):
(ctrl+f to lookup the words easier)

desiderata: Something desired as a necessity
vexations: The act of annoying, irritating
feign: Make a pretence of
cynical: Believing the worst of human nature and motives
aridity: The quality of yielding nothing of value
disenchantment: Freeing from false belief or illusions
perennial: Recurring again and again
imaginings: Things that are imagined; thoughts or dreams
sham: Something that is a counterfeit; not what it seems to be
drudgery: A labourer who is obliged to do menial work

A poem for everyone out there :)

Bleach 266 opening - Arrancar Arc is back!! woohoo!

Damn good opening, really brings back the Bleach feeel:

Enjoy Bleach fans!! Non bleach fans u shud watch it too will blow ur mind off! XD

Helpdesk Stuffs for dummies

Good for those working in the help desk line:

part 1:
http://www.intranetjournal.com/articles/200609/ij_09_25_06c.html

part 2:
http://www.intranetjournal.com/articles/200610/ij_10_17_06a.html

part 3:
http://www.intranetjournal.com/articles/200610/ij_10_24_06a.html

more about the writer:
http://www.paulchinonline.com/portfolio/portfolio.shtml

Paul Chin is an IT consultant and a freelance writer. Previously, Paul worked as an intranet and content management specialist in the aerospace and competitive intelligence industries.

The end of one, the beginning of another

she decide to call it off, the whole thing.

ask me to walk my way and stop contacting her, that there is no more chance for us.

sad...

well have to face the fact and walk a new beginning.

"Dear Lord, I don't know what's gonna happen in future, when everything seems so vague. That there is no clear picture for me to look forward to.

Sometimes I don't know what's real anymore. It's like I got hit by a car and couldn't understand why it hit me.

I just ask for the grace that I will continue to do your will, and not give up with life. Even if the toughest challenges were to happen I am happy that you are always there with me.

You are the person I trust most, through thick and thin you have been with me, and to you this incident is so tiny it is insignificant, and that I should not lose heart because of it.

Yes Lord, plenty of fishes in the seas, as men said, and you've already determined who is the person I'm to spend my life with, thus I do not need to worry bout it. To let you handle such a matter and to make best use of my life is what you will for me.

You've always taught me to be strong, to continue living the faith, and to be a good person. Yet sometimes I failed and my focus went elsewhere due to the loneliness that is creeping in, the stress in the world, and the human weaknesses of mine. I ask for pardon and strength to continue this journey.

Spending eternal life with you, dear God, which is where my ultimate focus should be. Rather than trivial matters on earth that I should stop bothering so much about. As you've said in the Word that life on earth is just a drop of water compared to eternal life which is the Ocean.

Help me be free of bondage, of things that are clinging deep in my heart now, so that I can start anew, to turn over a new leaf.

Help me to go more often to church, and to CG, as I'm losing sight of you more and more due to not attending so often as I did in the past.

Thank you Jesus, thank you God.

Amen."

Be strong and preservere

I have to be strong and persevere...
I've made my share of mistakes,
I've said the wrong things when I ain't suppose to,
I am confused, yet I have to stay clear.
Forgive, and move forward.
Don't rush, and don't force.
Let the person decide for herself,
as it is not my business to interfere.
I shall try,
and keep trying...
As I know if I don't,
I shall regret for the rest of my life.
Don't give up,
when you know it's not right to do so.
Life is a lesson,
We all learn as we go through.
All I wanna say right now,
is that I'm sorry for the mistakes I've done,
and to tell you,
that I still love you.
Please don't push me away,
till it is till the very last,
and that the answers have been revealed.
As now we are still in the Pandora's Box,
answers have to be unlocked,
questions need to be answered,
and the future needs to be seen.
The storm is still here,
but be calm,
and think sanely,
rationally, and maturely.
And things will pass smoothly.
As it is said,
"This too shall pass."
Newer and better things are ahead of us...
Things that shall be proven and lasts.

at Kuantan for Ching Ming 清明节

Currently at home, Kuantan.

Missed the slow pace and relaxing life here... Distance between two places being not more than 5-10 minutes apart. Cheap and good food, and less crowded anywhere you go to... miss the opportunity of visiting the beach (Teluk Chempedak) as I assisted my mum settling her bills and chores this time.

Visited my dad's mortuary, did the Ching Ming 清明节 of prayers for him. Went with mum and 3rd sis and spent the morning there today. Although I'm a Catholic, yet it is okay to perform the rite if needed to (have consulted the priest on this). Hold the joss sticks, burn hell money etc... 2nd sis was not around as she has given birth to a daughter and is under maternity leave.

We do this every year since my grandparents time, but it's only the 5th year for honoring dad.

Dad passed away at age 54, and I still remembered I was completing final year at college at 2004 that time. The experience was a great change to our family, affected mum, all my sisters and me. It shook us as we didn't expect him to leave us so soon. He has did his fill of mistakes, but yet we still appreciate him for taking care and bringing us up.

Mum then had to take the position of dad and assist us to continue on our lives. Yet without dad's presence it's a big difference to us. Thus I have told others to love and appreciate their loved ones when they are still around (no matter how bad they are), rather than wait till the moment that they leave us, then it's too late.

Going back to KL tomorrow...

Thoughts - how it affect us?

have you ever thought, what is the right manner of speaking your thoughts?

is there a right or wrong? Or very precise yes, no, um-ahh?

Answer is, we have guidelines in our lives, just that with different backgrounds that we went through we became who we are. Or sometimes, we just choose to be like that, because we chose to... such explains why they are so many gangsters, robbers, killers, prostitutes etc.. becoz they have chosen such a path, no one was able to stop them, or it could be that we tried but failed to bring them to the light.

Thoughts, once provoke, will slowly shape itself into 2 things, words and actions. It is said that thoughts is the foundation to all things that we do... and thus it is important to take care of that part in our lives, as bad thoughts = bad words and actions. Negative thoughts, silly thoughts, nonsense thoughts, lustful thoughts, ignorant thoughts, etc will each shape itself to become a reality somehow or rather. It will be apparent on what others see in us, or simply when our actions prove what it is we're actually thinking inside.

2 parts taken from the bible:

Colossians 3:1-2

1

¹ If then you were raised with Christ, seek what is above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God.

2

Think of what is above, not of what is on earth.

Romans 12:1-3

1

^{1 2} I urge you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God, your spiritual worship.

2

Do not conform yourselves to this age but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and pleasing and perfect.

3

For by the grace given to me I tell everyone among you not to think of himself more highly than one ought to think, but to think soberly, each according to the measure of faith that God has apportioned

For even the bible states what we ought to be thinking as it will ultimately affect us as a whole in the end. Fix your thoughts right, then everything will move its place as it should.

A quote:

"Change your thoughts and you change your world."

Norman Vincent Peale
US clergyman (1898 - 1993)

The book "Secret" also teaches bout how powerful the human thought process is till it can make the seemingly impossible thing happen, to actually happen.... by first having a thought, repeating it all the time in your head and working on it, till it happens one day as how you see it...

I highly recommend the book/movie if you are able to get it:

http://www.thesecret.tv/

Thus, ask yourself as to why an interviewer would want certain candidates, yet reject some although they have exceptional skills? Is because of who they chose to be, their character-wise and personality will just make things difficult... That is why tough questions are thrown during an interview to see who you really are inside. For for a company, skills can be trained, but human character is hard to mold and change. But truly, if you have the belief that you can, you can be an entirely different person in due time. It could take a long time to change, but it's worth it, if you are able to improve yourself for the better.

People around you who'd want to see you be a better person, would definitely advice you on areas you can work on. Trust your own judgement on where you can improve on based on their feedback, and keep moving forward till you improve. There is no looking back... for life is only so short, not to be wasted in the past.

:)

countdown to receiving new monitor - 9 days

placed the order, paid, and now all I can do is wait...

expected time to reach home: 9 days, 31st March 2010.

*wishing it can be earlier... once get will take lots of pics of the whole rig and let u peeps see see*

*planning to fix neon lights inside, imma afraid it would be a little too dull without lights @@*

~patience mode on... + extra patience ~

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Drink till KO-ed

Organized an event for my team's team building for the quarter... It was at Redbox IOI Mall. The place was cool, new location barely a year, buffet was the best among all Redbox I've been so far, nice staff service.

Had lots of singing and got tapao-ed once again for drinking over my limit. Let me count what I had: few cups of whisky+coke, tequila shots, beer @@

Haih dunno why I can so easily KO-ed in any drinking sessions... I actually vomited 5 times during this one. Last one I went through this was last year during a supervisor's exit from my previous company, it was during a farewell at a club. Haha... my ex colleagues all know my limit after some time and even take the cups off me when they see my condition reaching my limit.

Went and did some search and found this @@

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alcohol_flush_reaction

Got so serious?? well anyway I rarely drink...even if I do I have to control myself. Yet, I can't imagine a life without any alcohol :S That would be weird.

Signs when I should stop drinking:

-start to feel my inside getting filled up.. like lots of gas after drinking alot of Soda.

-face getting too red for too long (yes I will be so red till nicknamed as "Tomatoman" lol... followed my mum's genes I guess, all my 3 sisters, mum and me have that symptom, we get real red even after a bit of alcohol.)

-lacking focus

-getting uncomfortable

-final warning sign is when I feel like wanna puke.. I should really stop after that.

The singing part for yest event was good tho... haha first time I sang till I did not wanna sing anymore... got tired!! due to the fact that the whole thing was from 6pm till 3am?! LOL...

Kudos to everyone for making it happen yesterday! Cheers~~

sad, tired, and depressed.

It's not easy to confess these feelings... but deep inside I know I can feel them.

It's not due to my current job or anything. I admit it's better than my previous, and yes like any other jobs, things always have its own pros and cons. Another thing is, when you're new, there's always a learning curve. Learning everything from scratch again. Thus explains why people hate changing jobs, it just sucks especially when they are almost similar.

Other recent happenings have made me feel that way, somewhere deep inside of me, I know I can't ignore it.

But I have to live on each day, and not give up the walk of life.

As in scripture Philippians 3:12-14 (taken from: http://www.vatican.va/archive/ENG0839/__P10H.HTM)

12

⁸ It is not that I have already taken hold of it or have already attained perfect maturity, ⁹ but I continue my pursuit in hope that I may possess it, since I have indeed been taken possession of by Christ (Jesus).

13

Brothers, I for my part do not consider myself to have taken possession. Just one thing: forgetting what lies behind but straining forward to what lies ahead,

14

I continue my pursuit toward the goal, the prize of God's upward calling, in Christ Jesus.

Yes, press on and do not give up. We're all sure there are better things ahead, is just the pressure, the sadness, and the bad experiences of life holding us back.

I have to keep running the good race till I've attain my goal, the race till the end.

Adam Lambert - Whatdaya want from me

Whatdaya want from me
by Adam Lambert

Hey,
Slow it down.
Whataya want from me,
Whataya want from me?
Yeah,
Im afraid.
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me?
There might have been a time when I would give myself away
Oh, once upon a time I didnt give a damn
But now,
Here we are
So, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just dont give up
Im working it out
Please dont give in
I wont let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, its plain to see
That baby youre beautiful
And theres nothing wrong with you
Its me
Im a freak
But thanks for loving me
Cause youre doing it perfectly
Yeah there might have been a time when I would let you slip away
I wouldnt even try but I think you could save my life

Just dont give up
Im working it out
Please dont give in
I wont let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

(Just dont give up on me)
(I wont let you down)
No, I wont let you down
So, just dont give up
Im working it out
Please dont give in
I wont let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, Whataya want from me
Just dont give up
Im working it out
Please dont give in
I wont let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

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How I'm feeling recently... time to let go...even if it means friendship.

Why wanna worry so much? =)

Have you ever wonder why we worry? why we keep thinking stuffs over and over again... why can't we just let things be at times?

Recently a friend of mine is going through that... I tried all my effort and strength to help her but it seems not to be working... I wonder what else can I do? Answer: nothing, I can only continue to console her till she wakes up and be strong. (prayer also needs the receiver to help themselves, if not God won't help them).

Worries, is something that we put the burden on ourselves. Let's say we worry how are the results gonna be? how is that car loan gonna get settled? Am I gonna get that increment or not? Is the job I really wanting coming my way?

Ans for 1: you've already sat for the exam, it is too late now but to await the results.

Ans for 2: It's all about the management babeh... no $$ management then sorry, u need to ask help from someone. Live according to how you earn.

Ans for 3: Work smart and hard and proof yourself, nothing else to say =D (if company sucks here, move on)

Ans for 4: Sometimes the job you want, is really like destiny. As long you try your best applying for the jobs you are keen on, the rest is really up to God to decide what's best for you =) That's how my eldest sis advice me before: "if it's really yours, it will be yours." (applies to your life partner and such things as a job)

See.. all the above don't need to worry. But people still insist want to worry, want to think? Why wanna make things so complicated? why wanna burden those who care and love for you? Just because you worry for things that are actually simple, and coz you don't know the outcome of it?

Taken from the Bible, Matthew 6:24-34, as below:

24 'No one can be the slave of two masters: he will either hate the first and love the second, or be attached to the first and despise the second. You cannot be the slave both of God and of money.

25 'That is why I am telling you not to worry about your life and what you are to eat, nor about your body and what you are to wear. Surely life is more than food, and the body more than clothing!

26 Look at the birds in the sky. They do not sow or reap or gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they are?

27 Can any of you, however much you worry, add one single cubit to your span of life?

28 And why worry about clothing? Think of the flowers growing in the fields; they never have to work or spin;

29 yet I assure you that not even Solomon in all his royal robes was clothed like one of these.

30 Now if that is how God clothes the wild flowers growing in the field which are there today and thrown into the furnace tomorrow, will he not much more look after you, you who have so little faith?

31 So do not worry; do not say, "What are we to eat? What are we to drink? What are we to wear?"

32 It is the gentiles who set their hearts on all these things. Your heavenly Father knows you need them all.

33 Set your hearts on his kingdom first, and on God's saving justice, and all these other things will be given you as well.

34 So do not worry about tomorrow: tomorrow will take care of itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.'

(taken from: http://www.catholic.org/bible/book.php?id=47&bible_chapter=6)

The above has a significant meaning in my life, as there was once in my down time in life, I have worried a lot, till it affected my health. That was before I converted to Christianity. And yes I was stunned when I first read and meditate on it, as it is very significant and important in our lives: Jesus' commandment for us not to worry. As I'm sure the Son of God knows better about heaven, earth and life then anyone else if he has been with the Father since the beginning of creation.

So don't worry, chill, relax and live the one and only life you are having now. Make the best use of it, for God, and for the better of others and yourself too ;)

going out @ the weekends - 2 movies!!

suddenly woke up.. decided to update my blog a bit.

was busy for the past 2 days spending time with roy... my ex roomate in college last time :) We had crazy memories together while at college and we used to go movies, eat lunch, shop at the malls with other roomates as well, and pitting each other while watching the football leagues (I was with Chealsea while he's a supporter of Arsenal). Was closely knitted till Roy went back to Malacca to work. Haha after the 2 days of traffic jam here and there sitting in my car... he is thinking twice about really migrating here to work XD will leave that up to him as there are pros and cons.... since he said working at Malacca is getting boring.... and he needs some life. LOL. He'll get lots of it if he really make up his mind migrating here =P and lots of TRAFFIC JAM too XD

went to malls, watch movies, chat at starbucks, update each other, gossips wahahaha...

met his fren Rachel on Sunday.. she had a cool tan o.O nice fren of Roy's. We watched a total of two movies altogether in 2 days time, Solomon Kane and Invictus.

My advice, avoid Solomon Kane if you are not a fan of Van-Helsing-like movies, as it is one of them focusing on the hero alot. Can get pretty boring fast... but he was a good actor and the story is so-so... above the usual B grade movie.

As for Invictus, it is a must watch. Very inspiring movie about the politician Nelson Mendela. Ex president for South Africa, it shows how he fought apartheid, racism, bringing up the nation, and uniting all of them via 1 game... Rugby. Matt Damon was a star in this movie too bringing it up with his superb act as the national Rugby team's captain. Clint Eastwood is the director here and I heard he's been making good movies... so far this is my first watching his directed film o.O It is based on a true story on events of 1995 when South Africa won the Rugby world cup against all odds including beating the top team All Blacks of New Zealand.

One trustable site that made me decide to go ahead with this movie:

http://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/invictus/

(it had a high score of fresh 77%, which is usually true)

At first I didn't want to watch it at all seeing that it had alot to do with politics, and I'm not interested in the game of Rugby?? lol lol... but Roy made me watch it saying it's nice and so on.. good critics... so at last I just went with him. He asked me in the end, "so, is it nice? I didn't lie rite?" and I answered, "Yea, it's damn good.". I felt it's really inspiring and has a deep moral storyline in it, applicable for all of us living our lives these days. =)

For those planning to watch... you'll enjoy it.

K back to bed now till 6.15am ahhaa... gnite buddies ;)

It's officially over

I've tried my best... but couldn't save it from ruins...

http://bbhershey.wordpress.com/

just so disappointed with the whole thing.

She didn't give us a chance.

The things she said to me:
- you are a good guy, we have many things in common, but we aren't compatible
- there is alot to teach u bout relationships, and I can't go through that anymore
- some things you say and did unconsciously, coz it's u, I don't wanna change who you are.
- you are not the man I want, I want someone that's sociable, have many friends etc
- you are selfish at times, like when I wanted to go elsewhere, you've decided it... i've just followed and kept quiet to make u happy (she didn't mention them to me at that very moment, she said she gave me hints, so ok I did not take those "hints" seriously enough)
- you're self conscious, u always care how ppl look at you (sometimes I'm shy at places so I prefer to be some place else, is that wrong??)
- you always talk bout money and material stuffs, about ur achievements (I'm planning financially and not bout money!! I dont care bout them!! even if u have a million bucks doesnt mean I'll love u for it!! I spoke of my achievements and what I went thru becoz u are a fresh grad, I'm trying to help you by sharing my experiences and that u'll learn from it!!)
- I couldn't breathe when I'm with u... sometimes I wanted to talk but I end up letting u say it all... (my bad, then I told her I'm changing give me time, the next phone calls after that I did let her talk all she want first before I say something!!)

I'm speechless... guys and gals, tell me... is this all my fault?? She said it as if it's just me....

Things I have to say bout her:
- you always think you're right...
- you're stubborn at times, just refuse to listen!!
- you gave up so easily on us, when at first you say everything was well.
- we just know each other 1 week or more... give us time to know each other deeper!
- you just ignored me at times after that incident, u couldnt stand strong and face a new beginning... u still went back into that box of yours, refusing to break free and live free. Free of your thoughts, your nightmares, your worries.
- you say alot guys keep bugging you, friends advice u to break off and such... but do you know their real intentions? that they might be jealous of it and want it for themselves? that they might just want to advice to make u happy? cant u make ur own decisions on some things? You say friends and families helped u alot but will they be there forever till you're old??
- you said I didn't give u more space... too rush... fine we are taking things slow now and suddenly u wrote hurtly stuffs again and post it once more... just ending it abruptly again. What is wrong with you??

Done.. my rant is over... need this burden off my chest and hope you all get a clearer picture of what have happened. =.=

-End of a sad story of one that gave up too fast-

A poem to share:

When things go wrong
and sometimes they will
when the road you are struggling in
Is a twisted hill

When you need help
and the debts are high,
you want to smile
But you have to sigh

When care is pressing
you down a bit
rest if you must
But never quit

Life is hard
during its twists and turns
as everyone of us
Sometimes learns

And many a failure
will turn about
when we might have won
Had we stuck it out

Never give up
though the pace seems slow
you just may succeed
With another blow

You never can tell
how close you are
it may be near
and still seem so far

Stick to the fight
when at your hardest hit
its when things seem worse
That you must never quit

http://www.poems.md/inspirational-poems/never-quit-1726.html

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Fall for you - Secondhand Serenade

For that someone special... =)

I know we've been through a lot these few days and I'm also sorry for some of the things I've said... hope we can let past be past and start a new beginning...

This song explains it all...

disappointed once more...

I'm so tired of relationships... the one that had just started went into the ashes abruptly..

I wanted to keep this to myself but just couldn't contain it.

once more it makes me lost trust of love.. that such a thing might not even exist anymore.

I'm just so tired and disappointed and fed up of what had just happened recently.

Time to let go and renew my life once more. Saying is easier than done after going through all that hurt and disappointment in my heart.

I treasure the person that was with me, but always it happens no matter how much I gave and did for the relationship it just doesn't work. I've had enough of this.. it's just so hard to bear anymore...

21022010 - the day it started

It is an important date, 21/02/2010

The day I started my relationship with Sara Yeap Theng Theng.

Hope it all goes well, as I'm truly in love with this girl. She is everything I hoped for, someone whom I can share my thoughts and feelings with, to talk with, to have things in common with, to meet each other and have the time of our lives together with...

I look forward to love her more each day, and I hope this relationship will lasts... even if it's meant to the very end I'll welcome it...

Love you dear... you are everything to me.

Sincerely,

Your dear, David.

CNY after reunion dinner episode

After reunion dinner, saturday...

Felt pain at my adominal, somewhat like the muscles there pulling. It was a buffet style dinner western+chinese due to the fact we booked late and most chinese restaurants are full.

Activities that I did for for the day that could have caused that:

1. went to gym, did some sit ups that could have caused that (accidently burned my right hand with steam as well while in the sauna room)

2. Washed and waxed my car..

After which I was exhausted.

That night, I slept early (has some dizziness) and woke up to a bad fever. Had to put ice packs on my forehead and take two panadols to calm things down (don't ever make a habit to see a doc if you can self cure... antibiotics and those pills are no good for the body in the long run).

Woke up feeling better the next day. But that evening was called to another family dinner and the food, although not buffet style, was ALOT once more (was a typical chinese restaurant serving dishes). Did not call for extra rice, just finish up what I can but it was painful at the same spot. I was worried. Starting thinking it could be my stomach gonna burst or something, or having some internal injury inside.

But anyway, I didn't cough out blood or had any weird incidences when I visited the loo. Things were still normal just that pain each time I ate too much (god is trying to tell me to eat less here? lol)

CNY, can't help it, it's about the food too.. lots and lots of it. Well it's good too so that I wouldn't put on too much weight this festive season =P

I hope the pain subsides soon and my pitiful stomach returns to normal... ='(

Hope all of you don't go through the same "sick" episodes like me and have a blasting new year!! hint: don't do anything ridiculously tiring on chinese new year's eve.. not worth to get sick during CNY!!

Welcoming the Year of the Tiger 2010

woohoo, got my 3 days leave approved on top of my monday and tuesday public holiday!! (good to be new :D )

Total 1 week absent from work, AWESOME!! I LOVE MY COMPANY!! XD

Anyway, some new posters to welcome the Year of the Tiger:

^Tiger Beer's new logo that was launch beginning of this year, nice....^

Enjoy your coming holidays and have a great time!! :D

to explain in advance and for the year 2010...

for those of you who know where I am working now...

just a short note on why i'm not updating anything about it. Due to the fact that I'm not allowed to.

Will explain that further if we have the chance to meet one day :)

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So back to some real updates... been busy... busy with my new job, busy with life, busy with the new year? lol...

Soon it's gonna be Chinese New Year and the mood is already in the air. Cars after cars jamming up during off work hours, going to the mall for some serious shopping for CNY stuffs and grabbing whatever "new" things that they want as if they are free =P

The coming weeks are gonna be really busy and busy... till Chinese New Year is over, PHew!! Wishing for that but better to enjoy it first... :D

This year is gonna be the year of the Tiger, once the Chinese lunar year strikes at 1st Jan (Chinese lunar calendar). And already in January (western calendar) we can feel an air of improvement of things compared to last year (which I want to avoid talking about).... Hopefully it remains as strong as the Tiger character and continues to bring all the goodness along with it. ^_^

Made alot of new friends from all around me, from office, MSN, people's friends etc... and I feel alot of changes coming up pretty soon. Looking forward to the rest of the year ahead.

Oh, and yes, everyone needs to have their new year resolution, mine would be:

1. to lose more pounds (go to gym more often)

2. to talk wiser this year

3. self improvement, and be more mature.

4. to have more new friends ^^

5. to go out more often and meet people (and FB less)

6. to spend less, and to spend on only what's necessary, to save more, and hopefully learn how to roll and make more money out of what I have.

7. to drive less fast, to be more cautious at the roads (my close friends will know why XD )

8. to be continued? haha

Yup, that's all for my updates now. :D

Hope you have a great, great year ahead!! Happy 2010!!

Jason Derulo - Whatcha Say

I don't usually fancy hip hop/rap-pop songs and post them to my blog... but this time this song caught me.. dunno why it kept playing in my head for no reason haha...

The girl's voice is really sexy, haha something new in a song I guess? Having the main singer's voice shaded by her's. I find it artistic. =)