going back to my home...

i don't really call kl my home...

first start, the people, many of them just sucks...

2nd, my family is staying for 20 years in kuantan...

3rd, i came to kl for the reason that i need to work and earn a living, as there are virtually zero IT jobs in kuantan...

4th, kl is full of pollution, the very air we breathe, the water we drink... everything smells and taste diffrent, ESPECIALLY the FRESHNESS OF THE FOODS...

5th, i am brought up for 20 years in kuantan, i know every corner, turn and road in it... (except those outside my area of exploration but somehow i manage to find the way even if first time...)

6th, there are many other things in kl i hate... not just people... 

7th, there is always plenty of time in kuantan as everything is so near!

8th, my true friends are in kuantan... we've been together for around 8 years and still sticking out for each other.

9th, my mum is in kuantan (ok u are asking why i put this the 9th? haha i love her man, the number doesn't count)

10th, during cny kuantan is da place... not kl. i know no shit about celebrating cny in kl, dunno wat to do!!

11th, there is much history of me in kuantan... so much + and - that have happen... which helped shaped who i am today....

12th, the beach rules... Teluk Chempedak pawns all other beaches in Penang, KL, Port Dickson, you name it every beach on the west coast (except Langkawi and the other islands)

13th, kuantan culture is so much more different then kl... ppl dont treat each other like enemies or competition... they are friendly... they dont have that "kl look" or dress like a "typical kl-ian", they don't give u more stress simply by talking to them... they value friendship... work culture is treating each other nice and not scolding and throw bamboo (seldom unless explode)... 

14th, kuantan has almost everything, u name it malls, cybercafes, 7-11, every major fastfood including the less major such as starbucks, dunkin donuts.... gsc cinemas....

15th, u will love and understand the beauty of kuantan once u live there for a few years. A malay guy once told me when i was working as customer care in Maxis kuantan, that he went the whole malaysia (other states) to survey, only to find kuantan the place he love most. As he migrated from kl with his whole family to settle in a less "crazy" place (that is KL). Whoa! this made me proud when i first heard him say that about kuantan!

nyway, tomorrow i'm heading back to kuantan. pray for my safe journey and i wish all of you a very very happy chinese new year! =) 

movies....

Sunday and in the office...

dunno what to update in my blog. Sigh.

Few things in my mind now:

1. watch IP man... it's a damn good movie. Really. Best kung fu show since bruce lee acted...

More pics taken from http://www.ipman-movie.com/main_en.html

(you can use the above as wallpaper as they are 1280x1080 in size... ^^ )

2. waiting for the next installment of Red Cliff 2 (one of the best movies about romance of the 3 kingdoms in ancient China last time):

Red Cliff 2 ....... o.O


Red Cliff 1 was kinda mind blowing... I bet 2nd will be even better...

**Gonna post my remaining transformers pics in facebook soon... stay tune XD **

off day...

Off day today... 

yest was bad news... total 165 cases logged... -.-

had to reach 400 by end of tis month... possible? *yawn*

every month is same old story, need to log till 400 then you get spared from "lecture" in the board room aka meeting... 

will try my best lah... can't promise anything. This month's call volume was crazy anyway... non stop in the morning and evening followup all the big cases. 

Helpdesk.... sigh. No wonder so many ppl look down on it. 

What to do... you ought to start somewhere... IT is lidat... (unless you lucky and start at a good position... these days rare... too many of them >.< )

Tony Roma's Sunway Pyramid

Had dinner with a friend to celebrate her belated birthday at Tony Roma today....

The food was pretty expensive but it was good... the menu they had:

I had rib eye steak... it was good, but just barely enough. The management says that the supplier for the beef has slack as it was a new supplier and that the previous had given more portion for raw beef... The waitress talked alot... like ALOT... till it made me uncomfortable =.=... well at least she likes her enthusiasm... yet for me i find the waitress abit too overboard. (c'mon i'm eating here... i don't need a waitress to keep coming to me to keep me entertained... zzz)

Anyhow, I am happy that she had a great dinner. =) As I did not had the time to get her presents and it was already pretty last minute... 

Gonna send her to work near Times Square tomorrow... she do not have transport and I don't want her to get the risk of anything happening by taking public transportation THE FIRST TIME.. >.<>

She is a great friend... and I guess for best is to keep that going... (won't explain how I feel inside of me... ) 

Happy belated Birthday...

-end-

(the reason why i keep ppl's name in disclosure is due to privacy and confidentiality concerns... just playing safe here... ^^ )

forgiving...

i reconciled myself with her yesterday... 

i figure i was in a bad mood, and she forgave me... 

i believe one should always seek for reconciliation.. rather then vangeance or unforgiveness. It will only bear much fruit of suffering, and pain.

helping a friend...

I went to evelyn's condo yesterday night, to assist her in finishing her exam paper template for the resit students. One of the lecturer in her company left (due to low pay) and she had to fill the void. So in a short notice the principle there gave her the task to redo the exam paper for the failed students (the lecturer that left is the teacher).

She didn't had a laptop, thus I went there and helped her out. Typed for her the whole exam paper (which involves beautician machines etc, steaming, facial paradic etc duno wth am I typing @@ )... we manage to wrap it up at 12 am. Suggested some questions that can be created for the subjective and we took some questions from past papers as well.

She is a beautician at Clara. Got to know her sometime from Roy (which ditched me for some stupid reason and due to jealousy with me going out with her...which is absolutely stupid coz we had been friends for 3 years and he just end it up like that in the name of ego).

She can only quit from the company this August (quitting earlier would involve a high penalty). And she is underpaid. Sigh, companies nowadays, trying to save cost? Thus explains the lack of manpower and she needing to fill in the other person's role.

Hope she can get a good job soon.. will be praying for her.

So people, value the good jobs you have. And those looking for jobs, don't simply sign for one without studying whether is it worth it? as once you are down the floor there is only more commitment... is the pay worth it? The environment? The politics? The people there? The things you learn and do?

You'll only regret much once you get the wrong job. Don't let companies fooled you, they are damn smart asses, especially those that are not making a huge profit in the market. They'll only slice more of what they can from you yet adding you more work.

Life... is never easy once you start working. Zzz...

Letting go fully...

Finally, I have made up my mind to let it go fully...

I feel that there is no point being one sided, loving someone and having the other person ignores you. For me, to experience such a treatment will leave me to ignore the person, once I reached my limit. I have did that few times recently, after knowing a girl, tried my best to ask her out and got ignored. Or in some ways she treated and talked to me like shit... I will proceed to do the same. I have preferences, and will always stick to it.

I have always remembered myself as being a guy, and a guy doesn't need to worry of whether half of the girls in this world rejects him, as there will always be those that will accept him. I believe when the time is right to meet that special someone, there is no need to search... as it will come naturally.

I had enough of being treated like as if I'm not important, being a spare tire, or being ignored. I dislike being treated this way. Girls that take things for granted to continually hurt a guy's feeling (as they thought we are like men of steel, one that doesn't get hurt). I would appreaciate if they could be considerate of our feelings, rather then keep throwing things at us.

Thus, I would be leaving this one behind, as I have mentioned, I will go far away and just dissapear...

Once more... I am single. And will be happy with it. =)

Hope...

my latest facebook status:

David is hopeful... had a great day today... thanks to futsal, food and my colleagues!! xD

wow.. facebook is bcoming an absolute must in our everyday lives.. i guess the creator is happily going to the bank everyday ahahha...

I'd say.. it revolutionized what a social portal is... =)

I was sad... and I guess most of my colleagues and close friends knew about it... my blog and facebook explained it much...

But, we have to move on in life... to me life is too short to waste one time being stucked at the word "unhappy"... i believe we ought to be happy, to live to the full and to make use of every time we have...

Such as with the one I "liked"... I know I did mistakes... and I'm sorry. Yet I learnt from it, and there is no point dwelling in the negative past for long. (I confess i still have feelings for her and I  sense she does too... ). And now to treat each other like friends... to be with her as a friend and supporting her is most important...

Time to move on with hope... hope for days that is to come, the year 2009 brings aplenty I feel... and many good things will happen in this year it seems...

Thanks ppl... you know who you are... for supporting me, for being good friends. My heart is filled with gratitude and thanks alot for all the advice and encouragement. You all helped me and built me up... =)

Girls being young...

I never understand how the younger girls think... what they perceived they are... their ideals... I feel like giving up on them. Had enough... I am done trying to understand them anymore...

Crushed... broken... 

I let myself hurt without even knowing what am I hurt by... 

The thoughts that swayed from one extreme to the other... 

The change that comes to them swiftly... 

The immaturity of thinking.

A poem to them:

Young girls think alot...

About themselves, 

Their dreams...

The hansome men they wished to have...

Are they able to reach that goal?

Each of them will try,

To find that perfect guy...

Not knowing that many,

Have fallen to the wrong ones,

Cheated, used and manipulated.

As age grows in them...

They start to see the truth,

Or will they ever see the truth?

The movies, the dramas,

That influenced the way they perceived love,

relationships, and life.

All mixed up with reality like a blender mixing all the juice...

They do not know that when it strikes them one day...

As they age and lost their beauty,

As they slowly get older and when there are less choices...

Finally will they see?

They go along their way...

Hurting the men around them...

Trying out and dumping them like used items.

Is that what love is supposed to be?

Love was once sincere,

pure, honest, and straight from the heart. 

There was no need to look at the outer appearance into the most discreet details...

the hair, the looks, the body all must be perfect?

It all started from our age,

and things continued to get more wrong...

people start giving up hope on love,

settling down at a later age...

What is wrong with our society?

Can't they see the truth?

The reality of things...

That looks and all that charm is all deceiving...

Can't they look at a person at their inner most?

Their character? what makes them them?

I surrender.. surrender myself once more to the abyss of loneliness...

of singlehood...

of being left without a relationship...

as I pray that the world will change...

that people will change their ways...

their whole outlook on life...

A sad ending. An ending that wasn't meant to be. 

-End-

Ming Wan grown up...(pics taken 11/10/08)

abit late to post this...

a fren ask and i sort of remembered about this...

Ming Wan is bigger now... so cute... ^_^

it's been a long time

it's been a long time since i've updated my blog... sorry dear readers >.<

and it's been a long time since i can say that i fell in love... 

love is something that comes when you know it is, it's not when u know a girl and say "oh i love her...". It goes deeper then that... when you know her and continues to keep wanting to know her. It's about two person sharing the common ground and the chemistry that builds up both.

and you couldn't love someone who doesn't love you back... 

yet... it came so fast suddenly... this feeling that i almost thought would not come back. 

It's been 2 years since i was last in a relationship... and that one traumatized me the most. (sorry if the reader is the person, just felt i need to write wat's inside of me). After which I went on a solo mission, living my single life till today...

I love her.. and I hope she'll accept me too. 

A poem:

Life is too short to live without love,

one should keep trying till he finds her...

don't give up...

Remind yourself that that someone special is waiting for you,

give it a try...

and if you failed,

Learn to get up.

Find out what's wrong about you,

and improve yourself further. 

If you aren't the problem,

never stop finding...

The searching is worth it in the end.

God have placed one for each of us...

As long we don't give up,

one day we'll find the person we love.

=)

updateesss

Updates since my last update in da blog:

1. car is fixed... finally. Took me a week. From then on I made up my mind firmly to drive slower and safer... resolution came true after a traumatized experience at the police station, insurance and worst of all, the super slow speed of the workshop... (even when it's not my fault and I don't have to pay a cent, I was not able to use my car for that time and it just sucks and time wasting + mum wasn't willing to borrow me her Toyota Vios except once coz it was a late night meeting...zzz)

2. mum was here for a few weeks since came back from Singapore (to visit my eldest sis and niece there). I had plenty of home cooked food...plus the home was neater too since she is a neat freak and can't stand even the slightest mess or dirt. 

3. camera phone SE C902. Happy with it, explored most of the phone features and the camera is just awesome for it's tiny size. Lightweight and durable with an extended battery life

4. work... main app FOM was down from Sunday till today Monday. It was madness for 2 days at work with non stop calls. Had to liase with this and that person and it was nuts. Lucky we got it fixed today! woohoo! what an achievement. Many thanks to the team lead Alex who stood by at conference for hours with GSD... 

5. Stucked at home. Since the car was being repaired I was forcefully stucked-at-home (you can calculate the date where I posted the car photo in the previous post till now). I have not went out alone/or with anyone to shop or watch a movie. >.<)

6. Bukit Antarabangsa landslide... One of my colleagues was staying there.... @@. Lucky Theven's house was allright and he is safe. Evacuated from that place and stayed with his relatives (his whole family). His description of it was havoc... everyone evacuating from a dirt road... climbing down slippery steps, unable to drive out from that disaster area... Dirt piled up 200m from his house... thank god for his safety. 

Yea that's all for the updates...

This year seems like it's not a very good year... the opposite actually, with so many weird and unexpected thing happening at the very corner. I look forward to a better year (at least less misfortune happening to me >.<) and building up my career further... 

Thanks for all my friends' support and for being there... you guys and gals meant a lot to me. 

=)

freak car accident at the front...

I can't believe it...

Why is this happening again? I just sprayed the whole car, repaired it  just 2 months back and it is dejavu all over again...

This time it's not my fault, some P licence driver swung out from the junction, took over 2 lanes, and caused me to bang him. I wasn't prepared for it at all, plus the roads were slippery as it was raining heavily that night.

Waited at the police station, till 2am. Went back and slept at 3am. Woke up at 5.50am to go to work at 7am. At work I was frustrated, sick, and laiden with a bad mood. 

How can this happen again? I've tried my best to avoid such a shit... and now it came back to hunt me. Why can't this stop why......

Nevertheless, I have to repair my car. Next week. Mum will be back from Singapore (after visiting my nephew there) tomorrow. Will need her to fetch me through and flow from work during the repairs. 3 days estimated time needed to fix it. And after looking at the damaged shit, I realised it is more serious than what I first could spot on... As the LIGHTS ARE NOW FOUND TO BE BROKEN, THE BUMPER CRACKED, THE AIR FILTER WENT IN... AND THE LEFT BUMPER (INSIDE) IS SLIGHTLY TOUCHING MY LEFT TYRE...

All because of a naive 19 year old college kid not driving properly on the road. Why can't he just gave way and SEE FIRST before turning? So reckless!!

And he didn't want to pay me on the spot... AND HIS DAD WAS DRIVING A FREAKING NEW BMW AND STILL HIS DAD DIDN'T WANT TO PAY ME!! His dad was cooly saying: "let's go make a police report..." (admit it you are just blardy kiamsiap and rather pay the insurance and police fine later on, stupid you...)

WHAT IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE LAR? WALAO!!! BEH TAHAN!!! 

SE C902

The phone that I bought after trading in N79...

Sony Ericsson C902:

Sleek, stylish, and with a good camera...

Comes with 3G and A-GPS... weighing less then 90 grams... 

Sound quality is good...

I'm happy with my phone =)

anti nokia sentiments

I've sold my phone.. got enough of the N79 that i bought...

the things that i was not satisfied:

1. simple thing as receiving a call... maxis sent me missed call messages even when my phone is on all the time...

 

2. the camera wasn't close to my 3.2 megapixels k810i that i've used previously... (you can actually see pixels after uploading to PC)

3. expensive, yet it dissapointed me due to the price i paid

4. GPS, Wifi yada yada that were used in promoting it... in the end is it that important ? eg. when u drive do u have time looking at the small GPS screen on the phone? i can't even read the words and the car is jerking! Wifi... when u eat at a wifi area... The food comes fast, and you are with your friends... do you have time to browse it? Why not go home when you are really free to do so?

5. Nokia rep promised me that the resell value is much higher then SE... bullcrap... when I went back to the same store they gave me RM1000 only... and i bought it for a RM1900? hey don't be a hypocrite if you don't plan to practice it... tell customers the truth...

6. Slow symbian... everybody knows it lags... any N series...

7.  The N gage game... for 1 cost like RM40 and above... =.=

8. The design looks really uncle-ish...

9. Due to the above points it make me can't sleep at times thinking what should i do about it...

10. Thus explains why I'm very anti nokia now...

I'm not doing this not just to jeopardize their image... but for them to realize their mistakes and shortfalls and change... if not it's better for them to pack up and close shop... (you will never appeal to the younger generation... sooner or later no one will choose Nokia coz you are still way behind in the stone age when ppl are already in bronze age)

SE is the way where mobile phones should go... Even Samsung is changing and following their sales strategy... yet Samsung still lacks one thing due to their past history... the phone being not durable.. slides coming apart... phone issues etc...

One thing all mobile phones should be... make sure it lasts and the basic thing of call in call out and sms can be done 100% without defect...

Then u can focus on other extra specs... If not like Nokia... what is the specs for if even receiving calls are so difficult? 

And seriously... Nokia... don't be so stubborn headed... if u can't make a camera out of your phone (even using Carl Zeiss lens alone won't help)... go and merge with a camera producing company... your cameras seriously suck...

And your hefty price tag? Zzz...

I won't ever buy a Nokia again... and shall advice my friends not to do so... 

See what you did although it's only one phone? 

Back after a month...

Back to my blog after a month? close to a month already huh... how fast time flies and how busy I was...

latest updates is going to genting with my colleagues (that was memorable), as below:

(^pictures courtesy of Alex, thx broo...^)

And catching up with my remaining transformers movie toy collection:

Transformers Collection

As well as my new phone that I bought with a hefty price tag of RM1900:




And finally... everything is back to ok with my job... *relief*. Doing my usual work and on my way to self improvement (team as well but self is whr u start first before looking at the rest, as the chinese saying goes: "if u cant take care of urself, how are u gonna take care of others?")

Things have move on to a better month...

Thank you God for helping me make through it all... You have been there guiding me through, and I can never say enough "thank you" for all that you've done for me...

Back to work the next day (noon shift)... going to sleep now... nite buddies... :)

insecurity....

I've did my best, but my best ain't good enough...

I received complains... and users are 100% right and I am the wrong...

6-7 complaints for a duration of 6 months is alot... I am the person in the team doing the worst...

BAT users complaining about me, although ED users didn't... I am still at fault...

Is as if they are all right... and I have no place to defend myself... All my work, all I have built for, means nothing...

I am being treated as nothing...

Ppl's complaint are more important then the whole picture that I have contributed... All my contribution is nothing as well....

I'm blamed for pulling down the team, asking to leave earlier if I'm not happy, asking to leave if this is not the right place for me...

What have I got to say? Pushing me out of here... And I don't need a job who doesn't need me...

I will be going soon... it seems...

Being pointed at, being laid the burden, being pushed out of the door... I am not valued... And I shall walk out with honor and without regrets rather than being treated this way...

I am a human, not some slave... I have standards, and I set them, and I tried to fulfill them... I push myself till I almost break...

But it's no point... non is appreaciated... In the end I get stabbed to pieces.... becoz of a few customers ditch their complaints at me...

Will your customers work at the service desk for u? Are they always right or they are humans as well having emotions and having bad days? Do they know all the technical stuffs and how it runs and needed to be solved? Lacking of staff not picking up their calls later won't they complaint furthermore?

what is there to hurt?

An emo poem...

Life sucks,
when people around u treat others like shit,
when you see cars driving like shit,
and when ppl say things that hurt u like shit...
What is shit?
Shit is waste,
Worthless,
Polluting,
And destroys the appetite...
That is shit.
But what is there to hurt?
Why shit?
Why not gun?
Gun hurts... knife hurts... a bomb hurts...
Then why shit?
Coz shit can stain your face...
Leave a smell long enough till you take 2 showers...
Leave a trauma long enough till you freak out touching it...
That is why shit sucks...
And when ppl start acting like shit,
And treat you like shit...
It's time to know your self worth...
To know you aren't deserving of that shit hurt inside of you...
Will you stand there and let ppl throw shit at you?
Or will you throw shit back?
Or just ignore and get off it's track?
Throw it back and u might end up getting more shit....
Standing there is ain't goood enough coz u get more shit...
So best is u walk away...
Even if it means saying goodbye...

I had enough of ppl's shit...
Shit in office is ok coz it's work...
You get money off the shit...
It's like Indah Water you clear ppl's shit and u get paid...
But not with frens...
With the one you're chasing...
It just sucks to feel like that...

Over here at the capital,
Many shit ppl exists...
On the road,
With your friends...
Or simply at the public...

Why?

Coz they think over here KL is everything...
Try see the world...
get a hint?
Or just look urself at the mirror and see what ppl see at u inside...
Don't just let ppl influence u coz u think it's a flow...
You determine urself...
How u wanna be...
How u wanna act...
So behave like u shud be...
Be responsible and stop throwing shit all around...
Coz watever goes around comes back around and will hit u pretty hard...
It might be like storm... an AK47 or worst it just kills you and knocks u real hard...
Till ur whole self shakes like sand....

Selfishness... Arrogance...
Lack of self-control...
I'm sick looking at all of the above...
All that makes ppl a sickening piece of character...
Learn to see urself in the other person's shoe, what does he feel?
Don't u care?
Don't u see?
Are u that blind and insensitive?
Think...
Go through your big brain and ur big heart...
And see the whole picture b4 u utter that word...

STOP BEING A SHIT AND BE A PERSON... ENOUGH.

-The End-

emo post

in office now, doing night shift for these 2 weeks.

time has speed by blardy fast... and now it's been 5 mths + at office.

things have changed, some things got better and some things worse...

working life is so busy till I had little time updating my blog. It's been 2 weeks since my last update...

roy is coming down on thursday, for his graduation... but I can't make it due to work.

so sorry...

friends are slowing fading away... giving in to their own lives and ways... settling down. Changing...

I have changed too... for better for worse... i'm just living it now... been single for 2 years.

An emo post.... sigh...

looking forward to going home........

baby ming-wan

Hi Boy,

Attached are three photos of baby Min-Wan taken 2 days ago at home in her new baby cot. Show mom! :)

You take care!

love,
Sis

My eldest sis baby just discharged out of the hospital, due to premature birth at 7 mths.

Started out at 1+ kg and now a healthy 2.5kg...

Our prayers are answered, and I will continue to pray for her till she is a healthy young kid.

Isn't she adorable? =)