♥ ~ Engagement ~ May 24th ~ ♥

It was a truly special day. The day I confronted my fears, humbled myself, to say these words: "Will you marry me?".

The preparations for it isn't easy at all. I had to preorder flowers, wrote the poem, think of a surprise plan, and the steps to execute it perfectly.

Thankfully it work out well, she was touched, and finally she said "Yes".

A few funny things that almost/didn't quite work out according to plan:
1. printed the poem several times due to the ink not able to stick to the paper properly
2. editing the poem several times as I felt it wasn't good enough
3. When at the carpark, she almost saw me climbing up the escalator to The Curve (with those flowers omigosh!) - I had to literally ran as fast as I could before seeing her narrowingly past by.
4. Had to speak to her, make her comfortable when she's already shaken up when she arrived at the scene.
5. Kneeling down in front of everyone, proposing to her with flower and ring in each hand (hardest feat of all)

May 24th, the day I proposed to Boey Wai San, the true love in my life.

~~ ♥ Love you dear, always and forever ♥ ~~

the thing about relationships

The thing about relationships, I have learnt, is this... it takes two to clap. It does not matter how good you are, how much you treat the person, but if the end of it is that the other does not love you or care for you deep enough, you can kiss it goodbye.

It is also important that your partner understands you well, is forgiving, and has a good temperament. If both of you are hot headed and always slaps the other with harsh words, then it's gonna be a one tough ride of a journey.

Without genuine love for one another, then there is no point of forcing the other one down the road.

You'd have to know yourself well to to figure whether or not this relationship is worth continuing or not. Is this the person you'd really wanna spend the rest of your life with?  If the answer is YES for both of you then whatever the situation is usually there's a way out/reconcialition. If NO, whatever small problems/arguments you two faced would be like a major catastrophe, easily provoking the words "breakup" or "divorce". Both would need to understand what loyalty is, loving only each other and no one else. Not to be greedy, demanding and expecting more always... but be realistic as well, be considerate towards the other who is already giving so much to you. :)

Know what you want, how bad you want it, and know thyself. Once you do, and your partner does too, then it's easy to go through it all. Anyhow I always believed that God has set aside that someone special for those who are meant to marry someday. As long you continue helping and improving yourself, help yourself, and don't give up, there's bound to be someone there for you someday.

Kuantan

Went back to Kuantan with her during my birthday this year.

She seem really happy to see the beautiful Teluk Chempedak Beach (not much beaches on the west coast).

End up with a buffet dinner at Hyatt Regency's Kampung Retaurant. So long never ate till so full....

It was an awesome trip overall !! happy to see her this happy!!

WaiSan and Me ♥

It all started on 28th February 2012.

All thanks to Didie who had arrange us to meet. Waisan and her had been working together for several months now.

It was then on the month of February that Didie Whatsapp me to tell me that she wanted to arrange a 'meeting' of me and that friend of her's. It caught me by surprised at first. For I was having some plans and when I heard of it I really really thought of not attending. Wanting to negotiate a better time with Didie when she refused to, saying that her time is tight and all that, had further deprived me of my mood to meet up with this girl.

Somehow we got the meeting date fixed to another, and on a fine evening, me, Didie, Aishah, Mahen, Estee, and that "special" girl had decided to arrange for a meetup at The Curve.

I went on braveheartedly knowing that me and her will mostly reached there first before the rest. Earlier on I had already PM-ed her on Facebook just to know her abit and also to make her comfortable before the meeting. Truly I was getting excited the more I know her and when the moment come for us to break the ice, it all fell together into place nicely. We both clicked really well with each other and had many conversations about our lives, general talk, work and more.

The rest came. We sat together at TGI Fridays for the meal. It was awkward at first as me and her were conversing  in Cantonese while the rest there couldn't understand a word of what we're saying. In the middle of some of the talk I did talk back in English with them and that somehow comforted them abit. But I knew me and WaiSan were already talking so much that it was starting to look all good.

After many more conversations via phone with her, meeting her a few more times, we decided to call it a relationship. We wanted to take it slow at first but somehow we knew we were lying to ourselves if we still wanted to go slow, as truly our chemistry is so strong that we just couldn't contain it. 28th February is the date we decided to start it all.

Right now, down another 2 months +10 over days, our relationship had went on even stronger and stable. We're both truly happy with one another. Marriage had been planned and we're hoping it'll be somewhere next year.

I love you WaiSan, hoping to spend the rest of my days together with you. ♥

Yours truly,
David Tay

Why I chose Windows 32-bit over 64-bit

First off... alot of people would say Windows 64-bit is better than 32-bit, b*llshit! Don't ever listen to them till you've tried out both yourself.

Here's a witness to the things that happened when I was using 64-bit for a period of 1 year:

1. many drivers caused blue screen when in used with Win 64. Most common was keyboard, audio, graphics, and network. How I know? I sense it e.g. when repairing network connection, the computer crashes! (you could know more by installing Microsoft's Debugging tool - which I gave up as I even had issues downloading it from Microsoft site! - around 500MB or so for the whole thing -_-)

2. Sudden BSOD crashes, especially when I started browsing FB heavily using either Firefox or Chrome. I notice starting Adobe Flash apps in the web (mostly FB games and photos will use this) will cause BSOD very easily during the intial startup.

3. The blue screen was so frequent, there was several times it caused my Windows  to actually run start-up repair due to corrupting the start up files. Other occasions were causing bad sectors to my hard disk. Luckily I had a program in hand to clean such bad sectors.
4. It was slower than the 32-bit, due to the fact 64-bit programs had higher encryption, security, which also means a longer code to create and produce an app. As written here:
http://zone.ni.com/devzone/cda/tut/p/id/5709#toc4
"Performance and Virtualization

64-bit versions of operating systems such as Windows Vista and Windows 7 are not automatically faster than their 32-bit counterparts. In some cases, they may even perform slower because of the larger pointers as well unrelated OS overhead. Overall, an application’s performance depends on what it is used for and how it is implemented. Emulated applications running within the Windows on Windows (WOW) 64 layer (discussed in more detail later in this article) will not be able to address any more memory than they could on a 32-bit system."

5. I had a much better time using 32-bit. After reformatting since last month, things have been much better, not a single blue screen, and well over the top performance.

My PC specs:

With the above processor and RAM mentioned, I do not need 64-bit, as I do not run some office apps or work apps that would ever require 64-bit OS. Games run smoothly with 32-bit and I do not need a #@%^ windows that is "said" to be faster yet dissapoints at every level (64 bit)

Yes, the difference is so much obvious that it triggered me to write a blog post about it. It's a personal testimony that I'm sure you could find others on the web as well.

A story - How much before it's enough?

An American investment banker was at the pier of a small coastal Mexican village when a small boat with just one fisherman docked.

Inside the small boat were several large yellow fin tuna. The American complimented the Mexican on the quality of his fish and asked how long it took to catch them.

The Mexican replied, "Only a little while."

The American then asked, "Why didn't you stay out longer and catch more fish?"

The Mexican said, "With this I have more than enough to support my family's needs."

The American then asked, "But what do you do with the rest of your time?"

The Mexican fisherman said, "I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, take siesta with my wife, Maria, stroll into the village each evening where I sip wine and play guitar with my amigos, I have a full and busy life."

The American scoffed, "I am a Harvard MBA and could help you. You should spend more time fishing; and with the proceeds, buy a bigger boat: With the proceeds from the bigger boat you could buy several boats. Eventually you would have a fleet of fishing boats. Instead of selling your catch to a middleman you would sell directly to the processor; eventually opening your own cannery. You would control the product, processing and distribution. You would need to leave this small coastal fishing village and move to Mexico City, then Los Angeles and eventually New York where you will run your ever-expanding enterprise."

The Mexican fisherman asked, "But, how long will this all take?"

To which the American replied, "15 to 20 years."

"But what then?" asked the Mexican.

The American laughed and said that's the best part. "When the time is right you would announce an IPO and sell your company stock to the public and become very rich, you would make millions."

"Millions?...Then what?"

The American said, "Then you would retire. Move to a small coastal fishing village where you would sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, take siesta with your wife, stroll to the village in the evenings where you could sip wine and play your guitar with your amigos."

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Got the above story from someone's FB comment... it blew my mind away.. yet it sounds rather true, don't you think so?

Captain America - The First Avenger

All right here goes, a lengthy review on the movie (did this before just that it's been ages since the last one).

Captain America - The First Avenger
(click on each of the pic to enlarge)

It was a good experience. But still not as good as X-Men: First Class which blew our seats off with its superb storytelling, catchy special effects, direction of film, costume etc... that was truly a 10/10 film.

And after Thor came Captain America. A movie which speaks little of what mankind is nowadays: Selfless, Integrity, Strong Moral Values, Compassion, Value of Other's Life, and others.

That is what makes Captain America. He ain't a snobbish at all like Tony Stark a.k.a Iron Man or a Prideful Hero/Prince - Thor (he was prideful till being taught a lesson by his father Odin)

[Spoilers:]
Captain America started off as nothing. Born as Steve Rodgers, a frail young man who was rejected 4 times to join WW2 as a soldier. And somehow fate made him meet up with a scientist named Erskine, a creator of the Super Soldier Serum, who finally gave Steve a rare chance to enter the academy. Steve Rodgers was given the green light to be included as the first of the test of the serum, which produced what we know as Captain America. You'd be asking, hmmm that would means many version of him right? Sadly Erskine was murdered right after he delivered the results on Steve Rodgers. Every last remaining hope or sample of producing another was all gone too.

That is when you would see how a young man who was constantly bullied and beaten up would stand against the world's evils and come to bring justice to those who need it. That is what Captain America stands for. Like how Dr. Erskine would say it none the better: "Why someone weak? Because a weak man knows the value of strength, the value of power..."

What follows would be how he'd go all the way to the Hydra's fortress and saving his fallen comrades, forming a team and going to everywhere to wipe up that Nazi extremists group.

The ending is a jaw dropper since you'd see how Captain America woke up 70 years later in the future!!
(this part also gives me the hope of better Capt America uniform since his current one.. urm.. seems quite awkward.)

[spoilers end =p ]

Bring your kids to watch this movie, it would teach them of many great values...

And be sure to stay back for the ending credits (which takes quite some time to finish) for the most awesome trailer that you'd see.... The Avengers!! Assembling May 2012. You'd be one of the first to actually see the trailer since it's not even officially out yet.

Would write more on Thor and X-Men: First Class if I have the time. Such great Marvel movies just made me love those comic superheroes even more!! Awesome job Marvel.. awesome job.

How I am Feeling

Everyday I woke up from bed,
Knowing,
I would need to head to work,
Else,
I would know,
It's my off day.
What's next,
Off to the gym?
Where I tire myself to the brim?
Or on that lame PC and start doing nonsense on it?
Oh how did the PC came to being and ruined everyone's lives?

Or,
Going out, spending time with friends?
Friends that  would give you a good time,
And at times give you heartaches as well?
Some have even faded away,
After marriage, working life, or after graduation,
They have became less,
Rare as precious metals,
As some has proven itself to be of cheap steel,
They rusted, and wasted away.
I feel sad as those are the very close friends that I once used to have.

Work,
It becomes repetitive after a while.
Tainted with politics, backstabbing, and all sorts of others,
Which every job out there will surely have.
Which work is something that you would put your everything in like a hobby or leisure?
None, coz it just ain't.
It slowly catches up with you and throws you into a spinning turbine...
And as it catches up speed,
You'll feel dizzy,
Out of breath at times,
Tired, exhausted, sick of it.
Till the machine runs a full cycle and stops.
And guess what? It's been 8 hours of work and it's time to head home!
Ahh that moment...
And before you know it...
You're stuck at the traffic...
The jam so massive you'd cry "why oh why ain't I'm working on some other off peak hour?"
And if you do you would cry otherwise as you will lack a life.

Movies,
Some have been great,
These days most suck.
They suck so bad you'd wanna scream at the movie,
Asking why did it made you spent 2 freaking hours of your life and 13 bucks,
For some piece of shit.
Like working life did not suck you dry of your hours,
And you would need another to take the time away?


People,
People in this country,
The young,
I've seen it all...
Some spoilt, some stubborn, some selfish,
Some full of hatred, some being saddists,
Some being ignorant fools, some being odd so bad till they hurt themselves,
Some being jobless coz of their horrible attitude,
Some driving a big car coz their parents are rich.
All the nonsense.
Why did parents allow such a thing to happen???
Why did it came to my generation and those after??
Why do I have to bear through it all,
Seeing them like this?
And it's sad to know it's affecting our country really bad.
Is it the education system? Shall we blame the goverment?
Seriously I got tired of blaming that.
I just... wish I could dissapear from this forsaken country,
To somewhere that I would really feel I belong to.

That is how I felt, so deep inside...
The hurt...
The hurt especially that came from her,
Of what she said I am,
Still hurts till this very day.
I blame myself for seeing her go that day.
I could not help it.
I ain't suicidal, just a deep scar,
Which has been enwritten in my heart.
Tho I know I have changed to become a better man,
All becoz of her...
Yet that scar will take a long time to heal...

Family,
I'm not even sure if I should even write this,
but I guess a little doesn't hurt.
I just wish,
They would be close...
Why leave mum alone....
Why let me take all the care,
Shoulder to me all the responsibilites.
She's old dammit,
Can't you all spend more time with someone,
Who have pour out so much helping you grow?
What's wrong this these people?
I have tried my best to be a good son.
Really, I've tried,
And still trying,
Sometimes I don't know how much I should do before it's enough.
It's tiring.
I wish I had a brother,
or 2, to help take care of mother,
But it's just not a choice for us to decide.
And my 3rd sister,
Why can't a miracle just cure her??
Why can't she help herself?
Why is it the same every year?

I wish it ain't that complicated,
but it's been like that,
(since Dad was around it has been like that)
yet I know there are others out there much worse than me,
I shall pour all this out this day and pray,
That you God will help me and strengthen me,
Guide me and be my rock.
Help me through these times when I'm feeling so much pain,
So much torment,
Suffering,
Tears that I hold back.
I rarely tell people this much,
But I need to...
To keep myself sane this time.

Thank you for those who cared,
For those whom helped me in times where I was down.
I truly appreciate them.
Without you I would have been torn down,
Torn to pieces by my own emotions,
Been swept away beyond recognition.
You gave me hope to continue,
To continue this journey of life...

Amongst it all,
God is the the solid rock,
that has always been there,
He has been there for me through thick and thin.
Words alone could not describe my relationship with him.
What I went through since young,
You had no idea how much He has helped me.

I pray,
I pray that all this negativity will fade away,
That better days will come,
That I will finally find the meaning,
To it all some day,
To understand why am I on this earth,
What does it really mean to live,
And what I could be some day...

These are the words of how I'm feeling,
The words that I pour out now.

Bersih 2.0 - 9th July 2011

A lot of stuffs came out in my mind as the date for the said title passed.

It made me a lot prouder to be a Malaysian than ever before.

Seeing that unity being spark by those people that was being oppressed by the police at the streets during the demonstration, gave me the hope that truly we Malaysians still care for each other regardless of race, political belief, religion etc.

When you walk pass the streets seeing another person, regardless they are Chinese, Indians or Malay.. suddenly you felt all the racial sentiments were all being melted away. Coz we finally saw what the current government is capable of, what they showed us on 9th July 2011. How cruel and oppressive they could be. Most of our minds now are united against such a thing. We wanna change, change all these nonsense that is being manipulate d by them in order to secure votes. One of the biggest thing that they always play out well is racial sentiment. And it is clear we are all gonna stand up to that. Not only that, but more people will definitely stand up against their corruption, their abuse of power, their control of the media, oppression of every other voice that is against them (includ. the opposition), lies, and much more. Enough of the 50 years rule. We really had enough this time. It's time to say "Stop, you've governed long enough. It's time for someone else to take over and showed us what you REALLY did to this country. It's time to give the likes of PKR a chance to administer this country. It's time for democracy to really prove itself and make a major change to the current system."

It is a big day for the democracy and Rakyat of Malaysia. We all learnt something that day. We learnt what we Malaysians are truly capable of. We saw with our own two eyes all over the internet what BN is capable of doing and hiding.

It won't be long before this ruling coalition is finally toppled. All of us shall cheer for the victory of freedom and justice at that time.

God bless Malaysia.