Why I chose Windows 32-bit over 64-bit

First off... alot of people would say Windows 64-bit is better than 32-bit, b*llshit! Don't ever listen to them till you've tried out both yourself.

Here's a witness to the things that happened when I was using 64-bit for a period of 1 year:

1. many drivers caused blue screen when in used with Win 64. Most common was keyboard, audio, graphics, and network. How I know? I sense it e.g. when repairing network connection, the computer crashes! (you could know more by installing Microsoft's Debugging tool - which I gave up as I even had issues downloading it from Microsoft site! - around 500MB or so for the whole thing -_-)

2. Sudden BSOD crashes, especially when I started browsing FB heavily using either Firefox or Chrome. I notice starting Adobe Flash apps in the web (mostly FB games and photos will use this) will cause BSOD very easily during the intial startup.

3. The blue screen was so frequent, there was several times it caused my Windows  to actually run start-up repair due to corrupting the start up files. Other occasions were causing bad sectors to my hard disk. Luckily I had a program in hand to clean such bad sectors.
4. It was slower than the 32-bit, due to the fact 64-bit programs had higher encryption, security, which also means a longer code to create and produce an app. As written here:
http://zone.ni.com/devzone/cda/tut/p/id/5709#toc4
"Performance and Virtualization

64-bit versions of operating systems such as Windows Vista and Windows 7 are not automatically faster than their 32-bit counterparts. In some cases, they may even perform slower because of the larger pointers as well unrelated OS overhead. Overall, an application’s performance depends on what it is used for and how it is implemented. Emulated applications running within the Windows on Windows (WOW) 64 layer (discussed in more detail later in this article) will not be able to address any more memory than they could on a 32-bit system."

5. I had a much better time using 32-bit. After reformatting since last month, things have been much better, not a single blue screen, and well over the top performance.

My PC specs:

With the above processor and RAM mentioned, I do not need 64-bit, as I do not run some office apps or work apps that would ever require 64-bit OS. Games run smoothly with 32-bit and I do not need a #@%^ windows that is "said" to be faster yet dissapoints at every level (64 bit)

Yes, the difference is so much obvious that it triggered me to write a blog post about it. It's a personal testimony that I'm sure you could find others on the web as well.

A story - How much before it's enough?

An American investment banker was at the pier of a small coastal Mexican village when a small boat with just one fisherman docked.

Inside the small boat were several large yellow fin tuna. The American complimented the Mexican on the quality of his fish and asked how long it took to catch them.

The Mexican replied, "Only a little while."

The American then asked, "Why didn't you stay out longer and catch more fish?"

The Mexican said, "With this I have more than enough to support my family's needs."

The American then asked, "But what do you do with the rest of your time?"

The Mexican fisherman said, "I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, take siesta with my wife, Maria, stroll into the village each evening where I sip wine and play guitar with my amigos, I have a full and busy life."

The American scoffed, "I am a Harvard MBA and could help you. You should spend more time fishing; and with the proceeds, buy a bigger boat: With the proceeds from the bigger boat you could buy several boats. Eventually you would have a fleet of fishing boats. Instead of selling your catch to a middleman you would sell directly to the processor; eventually opening your own cannery. You would control the product, processing and distribution. You would need to leave this small coastal fishing village and move to Mexico City, then Los Angeles and eventually New York where you will run your ever-expanding enterprise."

The Mexican fisherman asked, "But, how long will this all take?"

To which the American replied, "15 to 20 years."

"But what then?" asked the Mexican.

The American laughed and said that's the best part. "When the time is right you would announce an IPO and sell your company stock to the public and become very rich, you would make millions."

"Millions?...Then what?"

The American said, "Then you would retire. Move to a small coastal fishing village where you would sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, take siesta with your wife, stroll to the village in the evenings where you could sip wine and play your guitar with your amigos."

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Got the above story from someone's FB comment... it blew my mind away.. yet it sounds rather true, don't you think so?

Captain America - The First Avenger

All right here goes, a lengthy review on the movie (did this before just that it's been ages since the last one).

Captain America - The First Avenger
(click on each of the pic to enlarge)

It was a good experience. But still not as good as X-Men: First Class which blew our seats off with its superb storytelling, catchy special effects, direction of film, costume etc... that was truly a 10/10 film.

And after Thor came Captain America. A movie which speaks little of what mankind is nowadays: Selfless, Integrity, Strong Moral Values, Compassion, Value of Other's Life, and others.

That is what makes Captain America. He ain't a snobbish at all like Tony Stark a.k.a Iron Man or a Prideful Hero/Prince - Thor (he was prideful till being taught a lesson by his father Odin)

[Spoilers:]
Captain America started off as nothing. Born as Steve Rodgers, a frail young man who was rejected 4 times to join WW2 as a soldier. And somehow fate made him meet up with a scientist named Erskine, a creator of the Super Soldier Serum, who finally gave Steve a rare chance to enter the academy. Steve Rodgers was given the green light to be included as the first of the test of the serum, which produced what we know as Captain America. You'd be asking, hmmm that would means many version of him right? Sadly Erskine was murdered right after he delivered the results on Steve Rodgers. Every last remaining hope or sample of producing another was all gone too.

That is when you would see how a young man who was constantly bullied and beaten up would stand against the world's evils and come to bring justice to those who need it. That is what Captain America stands for. Like how Dr. Erskine would say it none the better: "Why someone weak? Because a weak man knows the value of strength, the value of power..."

What follows would be how he'd go all the way to the Hydra's fortress and saving his fallen comrades, forming a team and going to everywhere to wipe up that Nazi extremists group.

The ending is a jaw dropper since you'd see how Captain America woke up 70 years later in the future!!
(this part also gives me the hope of better Capt America uniform since his current one.. urm.. seems quite awkward.)

[spoilers end =p ]

Bring your kids to watch this movie, it would teach them of many great values...

And be sure to stay back for the ending credits (which takes quite some time to finish) for the most awesome trailer that you'd see.... The Avengers!! Assembling May 2012. You'd be one of the first to actually see the trailer since it's not even officially out yet.

Would write more on Thor and X-Men: First Class if I have the time. Such great Marvel movies just made me love those comic superheroes even more!! Awesome job Marvel.. awesome job.

How I am Feeling

Everyday I woke up from bed,
Knowing,
I would need to head to work,
Else,
I would know,
It's my off day.
What's next,
Off to the gym?
Where I tire myself to the brim?
Or on that lame PC and start doing nonsense on it?
Oh how did the PC came to being and ruined everyone's lives?

Or,
Going out, spending time with friends?
Friends that  would give you a good time,
And at times give you heartaches as well?
Some have even faded away,
After marriage, working life, or after graduation,
They have became less,
Rare as precious metals,
As some has proven itself to be of cheap steel,
They rusted, and wasted away.
I feel sad as those are the very close friends that I once used to have.

Work,
It becomes repetitive after a while.
Tainted with politics, backstabbing, and all sorts of others,
Which every job out there will surely have.
Which work is something that you would put your everything in like a hobby or leisure?
None, coz it just ain't.
It slowly catches up with you and throws you into a spinning turbine...
And as it catches up speed,
You'll feel dizzy,
Out of breath at times,
Tired, exhausted, sick of it.
Till the machine runs a full cycle and stops.
And guess what? It's been 8 hours of work and it's time to head home!
Ahh that moment...
And before you know it...
You're stuck at the traffic...
The jam so massive you'd cry "why oh why ain't I'm working on some other off peak hour?"
And if you do you would cry otherwise as you will lack a life.

Movies,
Some have been great,
These days most suck.
They suck so bad you'd wanna scream at the movie,
Asking why did it made you spent 2 freaking hours of your life and 13 bucks,
For some piece of shit.
Like working life did not suck you dry of your hours,
And you would need another to take the time away?


People,
People in this country,
The young,
I've seen it all...
Some spoilt, some stubborn, some selfish,
Some full of hatred, some being saddists,
Some being ignorant fools, some being odd so bad till they hurt themselves,
Some being jobless coz of their horrible attitude,
Some driving a big car coz their parents are rich.
All the nonsense.
Why did parents allow such a thing to happen???
Why did it came to my generation and those after??
Why do I have to bear through it all,
Seeing them like this?
And it's sad to know it's affecting our country really bad.
Is it the education system? Shall we blame the goverment?
Seriously I got tired of blaming that.
I just... wish I could dissapear from this forsaken country,
To somewhere that I would really feel I belong to.

That is how I felt, so deep inside...
The hurt...
The hurt especially that came from her,
Of what she said I am,
Still hurts till this very day.
I blame myself for seeing her go that day.
I could not help it.
I ain't suicidal, just a deep scar,
Which has been enwritten in my heart.
Tho I know I have changed to become a better man,
All becoz of her...
Yet that scar will take a long time to heal...

Family,
I'm not even sure if I should even write this,
but I guess a little doesn't hurt.
I just wish,
They would be close...
Why leave mum alone....
Why let me take all the care,
Shoulder to me all the responsibilites.
She's old dammit,
Can't you all spend more time with someone,
Who have pour out so much helping you grow?
What's wrong this these people?
I have tried my best to be a good son.
Really, I've tried,
And still trying,
Sometimes I don't know how much I should do before it's enough.
It's tiring.
I wish I had a brother,
or 2, to help take care of mother,
But it's just not a choice for us to decide.
And my 3rd sister,
Why can't a miracle just cure her??
Why can't she help herself?
Why is it the same every year?

I wish it ain't that complicated,
but it's been like that,
(since Dad was around it has been like that)
yet I know there are others out there much worse than me,
I shall pour all this out this day and pray,
That you God will help me and strengthen me,
Guide me and be my rock.
Help me through these times when I'm feeling so much pain,
So much torment,
Suffering,
Tears that I hold back.
I rarely tell people this much,
But I need to...
To keep myself sane this time.

Thank you for those who cared,
For those whom helped me in times where I was down.
I truly appreciate them.
Without you I would have been torn down,
Torn to pieces by my own emotions,
Been swept away beyond recognition.
You gave me hope to continue,
To continue this journey of life...

Amongst it all,
God is the the solid rock,
that has always been there,
He has been there for me through thick and thin.
Words alone could not describe my relationship with him.
What I went through since young,
You had no idea how much He has helped me.

I pray,
I pray that all this negativity will fade away,
That better days will come,
That I will finally find the meaning,
To it all some day,
To understand why am I on this earth,
What does it really mean to live,
And what I could be some day...

These are the words of how I'm feeling,
The words that I pour out now.

Bersih 2.0 - 9th July 2011

A lot of stuffs came out in my mind as the date for the said title passed.

It made me a lot prouder to be a Malaysian than ever before.

Seeing that unity being spark by those people that was being oppressed by the police at the streets during the demonstration, gave me the hope that truly we Malaysians still care for each other regardless of race, political belief, religion etc.

When you walk pass the streets seeing another person, regardless they are Chinese, Indians or Malay.. suddenly you felt all the racial sentiments were all being melted away. Coz we finally saw what the current government is capable of, what they showed us on 9th July 2011. How cruel and oppressive they could be. Most of our minds now are united against such a thing. We wanna change, change all these nonsense that is being manipulate d by them in order to secure votes. One of the biggest thing that they always play out well is racial sentiment. And it is clear we are all gonna stand up to that. Not only that, but more people will definitely stand up against their corruption, their abuse of power, their control of the media, oppression of every other voice that is against them (includ. the opposition), lies, and much more. Enough of the 50 years rule. We really had enough this time. It's time to say "Stop, you've governed long enough. It's time for someone else to take over and showed us what you REALLY did to this country. It's time to give the likes of PKR a chance to administer this country. It's time for democracy to really prove itself and make a major change to the current system."

It is a big day for the democracy and Rakyat of Malaysia. We all learnt something that day. We learnt what we Malaysians are truly capable of. We saw with our own two eyes all over the internet what BN is capable of doing and hiding.

It won't be long before this ruling coalition is finally toppled. All of us shall cheer for the victory of freedom and justice at that time.

God bless Malaysia.

Back after all that..

After all that that have happened recently. Through that recovery, that reflection, I am finally ready to blog again.

It wasn't easy going through to the point of where I am now. Yet, I miss blogging and would love to note down what matters most in my life. I miss the part that it helped me improved my writing, to help me refocus and to understand my thoughts/feelings inside of me, and how it inspires other who read them.

It is time for a reopening of the blog. Not gonna make it grand, just something simple for me to write on. Using Blogger's template and hmm.. it isn't that bad. Looks simple and nice.

Will update when I feel like it. I thank you for taking your time to read. Feel free to jot down any comments that you wish to and I shall reply. Flames and any signs of disrespect shall not be tolerated. Learn to be an adult to express your views even if you're not happy bout something.

I felt I have changed much once more.. and it shall be proven in the coming blog posts.

Cya soon bloggie... =)

Money $$

I need more Money... damn it.

Tough to find, hard to come by, and yet we need it everyday in our lives. We use it to shop, buy food, get our needs, get a house, a car, and all that sh!t.

Some are filthy rich, some poor like dirt... some have only average.

Why.. Is this world so unfair? Why can't we put like limits on how much one can have, and have the rest of those excess money distributed fairly to others? (sounds like communist I know.. but even communism are more like democratic systems nowadays ==")

Whyyy sooooooo expensive to live in Malaysia? Or is it the same elsewhere?

Dang poor ... I need a raise.. I need my bonus... Arghhh when can I get it?

Seriously.. Najib's administration has been all about increasing this and that (prices.. so screw him I am NEVER voting for BN again, all of them are freaking rich eating our Rakyat's money!!)

I am so so tired.. tired.. of looking for more money. I could, but I know I would lack the commitment to do it now. Starting a business, selling insurance, or whatever network marketing gimmick which all require alot of time, patience and the ability to keep seeking and speaking to people.

It's tough, it ain't easy, when you see people making big buck/side income out of those. I rather.. just focus on what's my best now, my career. I know I might sound lazy, but it just doesn't work for me (at this time of my life). I might restart my attempt again, maybe later at life when I'm so much more desperate for money (imagining myself having kids and a family and money flowing to every corner of our livelihood).

It's not easy, but I gotta try, to aim for the stars, to build myself a castle, to earn my place in this society. By being the man, by being RICH one day. Not only just rich, but filthy rich. Yeah.. that's what I'm talking about....

Answer: Coz money is never enough? LOL.

(disclaimer: haven't read the above book before, yet it seems good, might try it someday)

new year 2011

Heck, it's the new year already. So fast the time flies... unbelievable.

2010, what a year NOT to remember. Many things happened, and I would rather let it pass as another bad year. Bad because you lost the job in a dream company, bad because relationships and friendships were broken and lost, bad because prices kept shooting up faster than the DAP rocket, bad because I had more commitments to pay to as well, and finally bad because it was another single's year for me.

And now 2011 came, and I wish with this new job, this new year, this new General Election that is coming, we as one Rakyat Malaysia can stand up to make a change. To have more Malaysians joining the Anti BN movement, to say no to the present corrupt government, and to vote consciously as a well-informed citizen.

Ok putting politics aside, as for my personal life, I'm hoping that it will improve... I do see signs of improvement but I am not all that confident yet. Bad times might still come but I seriously hope this year would be better. Somehow I sense this year I wouldn't be in it alone.... Me and her have started something.. but I needed a more concrete and secure feeling before I am to reveal this to the world. (A relationship is NOT something you should be posting up in Facebook till it's really stable.. IMO... FB has been a relationship wrecker in many situations and many times for people =.=)

2011, let's hope it will be a blast. Oh yeah and 2012 is coming... anyone prepared for Nostradamus' prophecies? LOL I decided to put it aside after much research into the subject.. there are some really horrid doubts surrounding the quatrains that were explained by some.

The biggest doubt in regards to Nostradamus' prophecy for 2012:

1. If you were to read up his actual book in quatrains, you would see that the prophecies aren't arranged in order?
2. Shouldn't it follow a proper timeline of things to happen? Like at least a proper flow of chapters? Else without the proper time and sequence of things to happen how is anyone were to know each passage were to happen when? All the quatrains are actually jumbled up like a bunch of hair.
3. I could just point at a quatrain and say it will happen tomorrow? But nobody really knows till it were to happen during that particular time and refer it back to the book?
4. Nostradamus doesn't specify a time that his writings would occur... there is never any date, year or time for that matter AT ALL in any of his quatrains.

People did decipher his prophecies wrongly before so I'm not rooting for anything till it happens. Hell if the world ends or many would die in some catastrophe, I don't think we could do anything much about it. Let's all just stick around and help each other out by then?

I felt I have grown, into something I am not previously. It is even apparent in this blog post. This is what happens when people grow older I suppose, else we all might just be stuck in a kid's brain and watch everything fall apart. Better, smarter, wiser, stronger... that is what a year older would mean.

Happy 2011!... hope you all have a great one!!