going back to my home...

i don't really call kl my home...

first start, the people, many of them just sucks...

2nd, my family is staying for 20 years in kuantan...

3rd, i came to kl for the reason that i need to work and earn a living, as there are virtually zero IT jobs in kuantan...

4th, kl is full of pollution, the very air we breathe, the water we drink... everything smells and taste diffrent, ESPECIALLY the FRESHNESS OF THE FOODS...

5th, i am brought up for 20 years in kuantan, i know every corner, turn and road in it... (except those outside my area of exploration but somehow i manage to find the way even if first time...)

6th, there are many other things in kl i hate... not just people... 

7th, there is always plenty of time in kuantan as everything is so near!

8th, my true friends are in kuantan... we've been together for around 8 years and still sticking out for each other.

9th, my mum is in kuantan (ok u are asking why i put this the 9th? haha i love her man, the number doesn't count)

10th, during cny kuantan is da place... not kl. i know no shit about celebrating cny in kl, dunno wat to do!!

11th, there is much history of me in kuantan... so much + and - that have happen... which helped shaped who i am today....

12th, the beach rules... Teluk Chempedak pawns all other beaches in Penang, KL, Port Dickson, you name it every beach on the west coast (except Langkawi and the other islands)

13th, kuantan culture is so much more different then kl... ppl dont treat each other like enemies or competition... they are friendly... they dont have that "kl look" or dress like a "typical kl-ian", they don't give u more stress simply by talking to them... they value friendship... work culture is treating each other nice and not scolding and throw bamboo (seldom unless explode)... 

14th, kuantan has almost everything, u name it malls, cybercafes, 7-11, every major fastfood including the less major such as starbucks, dunkin donuts.... gsc cinemas....

15th, u will love and understand the beauty of kuantan once u live there for a few years. A malay guy once told me when i was working as customer care in Maxis kuantan, that he went the whole malaysia (other states) to survey, only to find kuantan the place he love most. As he migrated from kl with his whole family to settle in a less "crazy" place (that is KL). Whoa! this made me proud when i first heard him say that about kuantan!

nyway, tomorrow i'm heading back to kuantan. pray for my safe journey and i wish all of you a very very happy chinese new year! =) 

movies....

Sunday and in the office...

dunno what to update in my blog. Sigh.

Few things in my mind now:

1. watch IP man... it's a damn good movie. Really. Best kung fu show since bruce lee acted...

More pics taken from http://www.ipman-movie.com/main_en.html

(you can use the above as wallpaper as they are 1280x1080 in size... ^^ )

2. waiting for the next installment of Red Cliff 2 (one of the best movies about romance of the 3 kingdoms in ancient China last time):

Red Cliff 2 ....... o.O


Red Cliff 1 was kinda mind blowing... I bet 2nd will be even better...

**Gonna post my remaining transformers pics in facebook soon... stay tune XD **

off day...

Off day today... 

yest was bad news... total 165 cases logged... -.-

had to reach 400 by end of tis month... possible? *yawn*

every month is same old story, need to log till 400 then you get spared from "lecture" in the board room aka meeting... 

will try my best lah... can't promise anything. This month's call volume was crazy anyway... non stop in the morning and evening followup all the big cases. 

Helpdesk.... sigh. No wonder so many ppl look down on it. 

What to do... you ought to start somewhere... IT is lidat... (unless you lucky and start at a good position... these days rare... too many of them >.< )

Tony Roma's Sunway Pyramid

Had dinner with a friend to celebrate her belated birthday at Tony Roma today....

The food was pretty expensive but it was good... the menu they had:

I had rib eye steak... it was good, but just barely enough. The management says that the supplier for the beef has slack as it was a new supplier and that the previous had given more portion for raw beef... The waitress talked alot... like ALOT... till it made me uncomfortable =.=... well at least she likes her enthusiasm... yet for me i find the waitress abit too overboard. (c'mon i'm eating here... i don't need a waitress to keep coming to me to keep me entertained... zzz)

Anyhow, I am happy that she had a great dinner. =) As I did not had the time to get her presents and it was already pretty last minute... 

Gonna send her to work near Times Square tomorrow... she do not have transport and I don't want her to get the risk of anything happening by taking public transportation THE FIRST TIME.. >.<>

She is a great friend... and I guess for best is to keep that going... (won't explain how I feel inside of me... ) 

Happy belated Birthday...

-end-

(the reason why i keep ppl's name in disclosure is due to privacy and confidentiality concerns... just playing safe here... ^^ )

forgiving...

i reconciled myself with her yesterday... 

i figure i was in a bad mood, and she forgave me... 

i believe one should always seek for reconciliation.. rather then vangeance or unforgiveness. It will only bear much fruit of suffering, and pain.

helping a friend...

I went to evelyn's condo yesterday night, to assist her in finishing her exam paper template for the resit students. One of the lecturer in her company left (due to low pay) and she had to fill the void. So in a short notice the principle there gave her the task to redo the exam paper for the failed students (the lecturer that left is the teacher).

She didn't had a laptop, thus I went there and helped her out. Typed for her the whole exam paper (which involves beautician machines etc, steaming, facial paradic etc duno wth am I typing @@ )... we manage to wrap it up at 12 am. Suggested some questions that can be created for the subjective and we took some questions from past papers as well.

She is a beautician at Clara. Got to know her sometime from Roy (which ditched me for some stupid reason and due to jealousy with me going out with her...which is absolutely stupid coz we had been friends for 3 years and he just end it up like that in the name of ego).

She can only quit from the company this August (quitting earlier would involve a high penalty). And she is underpaid. Sigh, companies nowadays, trying to save cost? Thus explains the lack of manpower and she needing to fill in the other person's role.

Hope she can get a good job soon.. will be praying for her.

So people, value the good jobs you have. And those looking for jobs, don't simply sign for one without studying whether is it worth it? as once you are down the floor there is only more commitment... is the pay worth it? The environment? The politics? The people there? The things you learn and do?

You'll only regret much once you get the wrong job. Don't let companies fooled you, they are damn smart asses, especially those that are not making a huge profit in the market. They'll only slice more of what they can from you yet adding you more work.

Life... is never easy once you start working. Zzz...

Letting go fully...

Finally, I have made up my mind to let it go fully...

I feel that there is no point being one sided, loving someone and having the other person ignores you. For me, to experience such a treatment will leave me to ignore the person, once I reached my limit. I have did that few times recently, after knowing a girl, tried my best to ask her out and got ignored. Or in some ways she treated and talked to me like shit... I will proceed to do the same. I have preferences, and will always stick to it.

I have always remembered myself as being a guy, and a guy doesn't need to worry of whether half of the girls in this world rejects him, as there will always be those that will accept him. I believe when the time is right to meet that special someone, there is no need to search... as it will come naturally.

I had enough of being treated like as if I'm not important, being a spare tire, or being ignored. I dislike being treated this way. Girls that take things for granted to continually hurt a guy's feeling (as they thought we are like men of steel, one that doesn't get hurt). I would appreaciate if they could be considerate of our feelings, rather then keep throwing things at us.

Thus, I would be leaving this one behind, as I have mentioned, I will go far away and just dissapear...

Once more... I am single. And will be happy with it. =)

Hope...

my latest facebook status:

David is hopeful... had a great day today... thanks to futsal, food and my colleagues!! xD

wow.. facebook is bcoming an absolute must in our everyday lives.. i guess the creator is happily going to the bank everyday ahahha...

I'd say.. it revolutionized what a social portal is... =)

I was sad... and I guess most of my colleagues and close friends knew about it... my blog and facebook explained it much...

But, we have to move on in life... to me life is too short to waste one time being stucked at the word "unhappy"... i believe we ought to be happy, to live to the full and to make use of every time we have...

Such as with the one I "liked"... I know I did mistakes... and I'm sorry. Yet I learnt from it, and there is no point dwelling in the negative past for long. (I confess i still have feelings for her and I  sense she does too... ). And now to treat each other like friends... to be with her as a friend and supporting her is most important...

Time to move on with hope... hope for days that is to come, the year 2009 brings aplenty I feel... and many good things will happen in this year it seems...

Thanks ppl... you know who you are... for supporting me, for being good friends. My heart is filled with gratitude and thanks alot for all the advice and encouragement. You all helped me and built me up... =)

Girls being young...

I never understand how the younger girls think... what they perceived they are... their ideals... I feel like giving up on them. Had enough... I am done trying to understand them anymore...

Crushed... broken... 

I let myself hurt without even knowing what am I hurt by... 

The thoughts that swayed from one extreme to the other... 

The change that comes to them swiftly... 

The immaturity of thinking.

A poem to them:

Young girls think alot...

About themselves, 

Their dreams...

The hansome men they wished to have...

Are they able to reach that goal?

Each of them will try,

To find that perfect guy...

Not knowing that many,

Have fallen to the wrong ones,

Cheated, used and manipulated.

As age grows in them...

They start to see the truth,

Or will they ever see the truth?

The movies, the dramas,

That influenced the way they perceived love,

relationships, and life.

All mixed up with reality like a blender mixing all the juice...

They do not know that when it strikes them one day...

As they age and lost their beauty,

As they slowly get older and when there are less choices...

Finally will they see?

They go along their way...

Hurting the men around them...

Trying out and dumping them like used items.

Is that what love is supposed to be?

Love was once sincere,

pure, honest, and straight from the heart. 

There was no need to look at the outer appearance into the most discreet details...

the hair, the looks, the body all must be perfect?

It all started from our age,

and things continued to get more wrong...

people start giving up hope on love,

settling down at a later age...

What is wrong with our society?

Can't they see the truth?

The reality of things...

That looks and all that charm is all deceiving...

Can't they look at a person at their inner most?

Their character? what makes them them?

I surrender.. surrender myself once more to the abyss of loneliness...

of singlehood...

of being left without a relationship...

as I pray that the world will change...

that people will change their ways...

their whole outlook on life...

A sad ending. An ending that wasn't meant to be. 

-End-

Ming Wan grown up...(pics taken 11/10/08)

abit late to post this...

a fren ask and i sort of remembered about this...

Ming Wan is bigger now... so cute... ^_^

it's been a long time

it's been a long time since i've updated my blog... sorry dear readers >.<

and it's been a long time since i can say that i fell in love... 

love is something that comes when you know it is, it's not when u know a girl and say "oh i love her...". It goes deeper then that... when you know her and continues to keep wanting to know her. It's about two person sharing the common ground and the chemistry that builds up both.

and you couldn't love someone who doesn't love you back... 

yet... it came so fast suddenly... this feeling that i almost thought would not come back. 

It's been 2 years since i was last in a relationship... and that one traumatized me the most. (sorry if the reader is the person, just felt i need to write wat's inside of me). After which I went on a solo mission, living my single life till today...

I love her.. and I hope she'll accept me too. 

A poem:

Life is too short to live without love,

one should keep trying till he finds her...

don't give up...

Remind yourself that that someone special is waiting for you,

give it a try...

and if you failed,

Learn to get up.

Find out what's wrong about you,

and improve yourself further. 

If you aren't the problem,

never stop finding...

The searching is worth it in the end.

God have placed one for each of us...

As long we don't give up,

one day we'll find the person we love.

=)