insecurity....

I've did my best, but my best ain't good enough...

I received complains... and users are 100% right and I am the wrong...

6-7 complaints for a duration of 6 months is alot... I am the person in the team doing the worst...

BAT users complaining about me, although ED users didn't... I am still at fault...

Is as if they are all right... and I have no place to defend myself... All my work, all I have built for, means nothing...

I am being treated as nothing...

Ppl's complaint are more important then the whole picture that I have contributed... All my contribution is nothing as well....

I'm blamed for pulling down the team, asking to leave earlier if I'm not happy, asking to leave if this is not the right place for me...

What have I got to say? Pushing me out of here... And I don't need a job who doesn't need me...

I will be going soon... it seems...

Being pointed at, being laid the burden, being pushed out of the door... I am not valued... And I shall walk out with honor and without regrets rather than being treated this way...

I am a human, not some slave... I have standards, and I set them, and I tried to fulfill them... I push myself till I almost break...

But it's no point... non is appreaciated... In the end I get stabbed to pieces.... becoz of a few customers ditch their complaints at me...

Will your customers work at the service desk for u? Are they always right or they are humans as well having emotions and having bad days? Do they know all the technical stuffs and how it runs and needed to be solved? Lacking of staff not picking up their calls later won't they complaint furthermore?

what is there to hurt?

An emo poem...

Life sucks,
when people around u treat others like shit,
when you see cars driving like shit,
and when ppl say things that hurt u like shit...
What is shit?
Shit is waste,
Worthless,
Polluting,
And destroys the appetite...
That is shit.
But what is there to hurt?
Why shit?
Why not gun?
Gun hurts... knife hurts... a bomb hurts...
Then why shit?
Coz shit can stain your face...
Leave a smell long enough till you take 2 showers...
Leave a trauma long enough till you freak out touching it...
That is why shit sucks...
And when ppl start acting like shit,
And treat you like shit...
It's time to know your self worth...
To know you aren't deserving of that shit hurt inside of you...
Will you stand there and let ppl throw shit at you?
Or will you throw shit back?
Or just ignore and get off it's track?
Throw it back and u might end up getting more shit....
Standing there is ain't goood enough coz u get more shit...
So best is u walk away...
Even if it means saying goodbye...

I had enough of ppl's shit...
Shit in office is ok coz it's work...
You get money off the shit...
It's like Indah Water you clear ppl's shit and u get paid...
But not with frens...
With the one you're chasing...
It just sucks to feel like that...

Over here at the capital,
Many shit ppl exists...
On the road,
With your friends...
Or simply at the public...

Why?

Coz they think over here KL is everything...
Try see the world...
get a hint?
Or just look urself at the mirror and see what ppl see at u inside...
Don't just let ppl influence u coz u think it's a flow...
You determine urself...
How u wanna be...
How u wanna act...
So behave like u shud be...
Be responsible and stop throwing shit all around...
Coz watever goes around comes back around and will hit u pretty hard...
It might be like storm... an AK47 or worst it just kills you and knocks u real hard...
Till ur whole self shakes like sand....

Selfishness... Arrogance...
Lack of self-control...
I'm sick looking at all of the above...
All that makes ppl a sickening piece of character...
Learn to see urself in the other person's shoe, what does he feel?
Don't u care?
Don't u see?
Are u that blind and insensitive?
Think...
Go through your big brain and ur big heart...
And see the whole picture b4 u utter that word...

STOP BEING A SHIT AND BE A PERSON... ENOUGH.

-The End-

emo post

in office now, doing night shift for these 2 weeks.

time has speed by blardy fast... and now it's been 5 mths + at office.

things have changed, some things got better and some things worse...

working life is so busy till I had little time updating my blog. It's been 2 weeks since my last update...

roy is coming down on thursday, for his graduation... but I can't make it due to work.

so sorry...

friends are slowing fading away... giving in to their own lives and ways... settling down. Changing...

I have changed too... for better for worse... i'm just living it now... been single for 2 years.

An emo post.... sigh...

looking forward to going home........