Monday, October 30, 2006

Things cant get any better

Just woke up, like from a night lack of sleep.

I want the usual old days, where I wake up for something, eiher a class or for work. Now, I wake up only to know my fyp is gonna be tough, and wondering would I do it today. Even so, how much?

I'm tired of it, tired of carrying this "baby" for 1 year 3 months. It gets really...bothersome. And it's not as easy said then done in finishing it, as if IT CANT BE FINISHED. Now that's the scary part. It's huge. I have no regrets not starting it earlier. How can I? Commitments, assignments, exams, industrial etc.

Well, one thing I don't understand. Why must we do an engineering project? We are meant to be doing study based. BIS students are just not cut out for programming. Never understood it.

Still, I will preservere, no matter wat. No matter if, during the next month I will be sleeping less doing it, skipping dota, digging my eyes staring at it. As long it is COMPLETED.

I seldom give up. I mean I don't. And I can't.

"O God, help me complete my project in due time. I'm sorry if I had been lazy or negligent, or just wasting time. I had tried O Lord, but many times failed to progress deeper with it. Help me manage my time, for there is little time left. All I ask is that I pass this final module dear God. Assist me in any way possible. And I will put on all my effort in it. Amen."

Sunday, October 29, 2006

6am...and I cant sleep.

Gosh I hate this sort of scenario. Went to bed at 3.30am, but its 6am now. And I dunno why I can't sleep.

Have ya all ever experience such shits? Its horrible. I had to wake up and make myself tired on the comp and try going back to zzzz again.

Ok I know I'm sounding weird now. But ya know, it's what every person on earth faces once in a while in their lifetime. Uh-huh, no kidding.

Probably I'm missing someone too much, or simply I'm too worried for my fyp. I dunno...

"Dear God, grant me the serenity to rest in peace this day, help me not to worry. Lift my hearts of my loneliness and my agony now O Lord. I don't know what your plan is, but I surrender them to you. All I ask in return in the peace for my soul. Amen."

Back to zzz. Nite.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

latest play list

Just writing down to help me remember....these guys are so hard to remember of...their names are so goddamm unique

Don't Dream It's Over(smallville theme song) - Sixpence

Say It Isn't So
Anyone of Us - Gareth Gates

High - James Blunt

These Words
Single
Unwritten
I Bruise Easily- Natasha Bedingfield

Haih why so hard to remember the names one sometimes...am I dat old ar? Alot ppl say I forgot names and stuffs easily..

But I can easily remember what happened the previous days, or stuffs in the past! Funny huh :X

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Gundam Strike Noir GAT-X105E [Stargazer]

Built my newly arrive gundam today:

Strike Noir (Stargazer) from peggy today...took me 3 hours to build it :sweat: ;D











A very cool gundam indeed!!!

=D

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Guess what?

MY CONNECTION GOT BLOCKED COZ I FORGOT TO PAY MY HOSTEL RENTAL!!!!

crap...

but, thing is:

WHY DOES IT GOTTA TAKE 2 FREAKING WORKING DAYS TO UNBLOCK IT???!!!

double crap...

which makes me:

STAYING UP IN THE STUPID NOISY LIBRARY JUST TO SURF THE NET...

which excludes of:

BLASTING MY SPEAKERS

DC++

HAVING MY OWN PRIVATE SPACE

DOTA

...

Zzzz

I think...I am a net addict :x but who is not these days?

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

CNX sux

Useless CNX, *pipiaks CNX

I've been waiting the whole day just for them to fix it....till they close at 6pm....still cant freaking settle it...

it's just a simple "automatic private address" issue. It's either my line is blocked or....someone using router....or the server is really screwed up. But both of my other housemates can online!!! So means its effecting my physical address only? WTH???!!!!

Hey CNX, I paid my bills and everything, don't f**kin do this to me coz it's f**king unfair man. Go hunt down those who use routers and effect other people's network for godsake...

remember people...CNX....gosh I'm so gonna boycott them now...here's their site:
http://www.cnx.com.my/services/default.asp?links_id=280

I feel damm bodo. Now library gonna close adi...

Called them twice and problem not fixed. They deserve this shit.

^Say no to CNX

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Karaoke

Went karaoke with Rockyphang, Devince, Ah Wai and me...

It was like 3-7pm. First time I ever karaoke that LONG. They say I sang well... x.x But really I was just singing my usual...

Abit about my singing history. Well before I became a catholic, I was in this free church call Bretherens. They sort of can see that I have this singing talent during the time I sang in their Sunday church meeting. Ok so that was something adiii.... Then once I became a catholic, I had this passion to join their church choir which I did for one year. It was really nice... and the church choir lead always say I sing well: "good job david, you sang well" o.O Then I have to paiseh paiseh reply "thank you".

Don't ask me about it, I sendiri pun tak tau. I join those two newly also I sang and they praise me. Maybe it is talent. Haha but dont ask me to join competitions, I'm not that leng chai or my voice that captivating yet. I sing for church and for karaoke only haha!

I especially love to sing Jay Chou songs, they are so niceee... and yest I figure Maroon 5 was really well suited me too, after what devince said I sounded like them x.x

Haha the rock songs busted us out, very tiring! Simple Plan Shut Up and Zombie was nuts. We tried singing Aerosmith "I Could Stay Awake" (Armegedon) song too, that was also nuts! haha. But it was cool, lucky today I woke up with my sore throat gone, praise god.

Singing is my passion, I hope to join choir again once I have the time. ^^

Devince forgive me kay, just wanna be humble. =P

Friday, October 13, 2006

Met eVy yesterday!!

Me and kiddo had a nice yumcha session with evy yesterday.

Was very nice indeed. Glad that we were able to meet her up.

My view of online friends is this, after some experiences with them. I have to emphasize this once more, online is still online, and people only really uncover their true self once they meet. It is as simple as that. Meeting up in real life just opens up a diffrent relationshiop, conversation, view of the person etc altogether!! And that is why it is so important to meet up after a period of time, which is not too LONG....

If it went well, people who knew online after meeting up, will surely get closer. But if it doesn't, like both figure that they can't really click or accept the other person well, then it's ok too! At least you knew the fact of the reality. Coz in real life, not everyone can click with everyone that simply. There is still preferences over people, attitudes, personalities etc...

That is why I'm glad to meet up with eVy. We have chatted for quite some time, and now after meeting up we were closer! As simple as forging a trust of friendship...

As with kiddo, I don't really even know him that well in the forum... but during the BBQ, we found out we click real well! And yest he and me were together "interviewing" her....haha LOL. Kidding we just had nothing better to do (NBTD) and decided to meet old time forum friends.

See how meeting up changes the dimension of an online friendship to something much more real and tangible.

That's all. Just my 2 cents on how online friendships should be ;)

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Nothing much to write on..

Seems so diffrent then comparing the time I was at Intel. I had so so much to write on...now? Seeshhh... almost nothing x.x

Sorry folks, just blank today... Just woke up and thinking, hmm wat should I write for my blog, answer is: I have ALMOST NOTHING good to write about..

Imagine waking up everyday without classes, and all it rings in the head is Final Year Project... Argh x.x

I wanna graduate and move on to the next phase of my life where I work for something, storing up money for a purpose and get settle down when the time is right. It's like this nature thing inside of me that is saying: "Ok enough of the study crap!!! Let's do something really meaningful"...That's why I'm planning to leave master aside till I'm ready and have something that I really wanna study, which is masters in management(requires at least 5 years of working experience from what I've heard).

I just had enough of all the IT crap which just makes you even crappier if you aren't the best in the technical field of it. (I am not, that's why I'm shifting away to something I really wanna do, be a manager some day and deal with people.)

That's all I guess. Don't wanna bore you reading to my thoughts. =P

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

To my special friends

wow, I'm so glad to know u ppl. Especially during my time back home I was dead boriiiiing!!!!

Thanks to 2 ppl who are really dear to me now (ahem as a friend ya....)

Susan

Evy

Maybe its that hard being single sometimes, that you need someone to talk with on sms, msn, forum u name it... They have been real supportive, and would like to extend my gratitude to both of them.

And of course, my constant blog visitors:

Qikibulat

Devince

Cheers

Licia

You guys just make my blog more vibrant then ever! Thank you! Friends forever!! Will cherish you all in my heart.

Monday, October 09, 2006

Tomorrow i balik ^^

Abit fast and unexpected, but really got tons to do back home...no choice...

KL I'm heading back... soon.

God, gimme the grace to work on my FYP. And the preserverance to do it. Help not to distract me while working on it and please be with me always when I'm back. Thank you Lord, for everything.
Amen.

Friday, October 06, 2006

Tomorrow....homecoming

Back to kuantan tomorrow, for a one week retreat. Looking forward to going back. Missing home lately.

Home, a place no other place can be compared with. A place where we grow, play, interact, argue etc.

Looking forward to tomorrow. Can't wait.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

open sesame

You Are 69% Open

You're a pretty open person - and you don't mind sharing the good, bad, and sometimes ugly.
And while sometimes you do catch yourself blabbing on, you usually exhibit restraint.
You're openness is quite refreshing, and it encourages other people to be open with you!


Wow...nice.

90%???

Your Attitude is Better than 90% of the Population

You've got a winner attitude. You're always optimistic and cheery. Your personality will get you far in life.
How's Your Attitude?

Another quiz breaker lol xD... Attitude is everything...

education hmm

Your Learning Style: Unconventional and Insightful

You are very intuitive and ingenious. You're attracted to any field of study that lets you break the rules.

You Should Study:

Art
Art history
Architecture
Comparative religions
Eastern religion
Education
Music
Philosophy
What Should You Study?

Interesting, maybe I should go for the courses above, lol. Sounds so so art. xD

Surreal?

You Are Surrealism

Dreamy and idealistic, you've created a world that is all your own.
It's very likely that you've either dabbled in drugs or are naturally trippy.
You are always trying to push beyond the boundaries of your culture and society.
You believe that art, love, and freedom can change the world.
What Art Movement Are You?

Please....I dont take drugs, wth x.x

Kinda true about my art...

More quizzes

You Are A Romantic

You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to.
Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you.
Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted.
Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do!


lovee.....lol

2.12am in the morning

I've been sleeping later and later and waking up like 11am or 12pm

I dunno why, but.... I miss doing such things, and I know yada-yada, it's bad for the eyes and such and shinnitz, but I DONT GIVE A DAMM....

Feu, that released my compulsion... After going through HELL in my industrial, I missed all these, staying up late, playing dota, having to do anything I want without my sis nagging at my ears, walking to pyramid with roy and just watch any shitty (or good movie, pardon me), eating my favourite nasi lemak at medan, and yah, most of all....

I AM A FARKING FREE MAN...

*shit, did I just overdo the swearing part...

>__>

Blogs can sometimes be dangerous.

xD

Yup, free free fili fala fing... Nothing is better then feeling free from a huge burden on your backs... makes you feel like you wanna fall and drop dead.

End. Off to sleep at 2.20am.

Nite. *lights off.

Monday, October 02, 2006

FYP Monday jia you!

Today I shall go serious...FYP!!! Must do as much as I can!!AAaaaaaa

Chill dude chill...don't so gek tong....

*swt -_-"

*pushes david to open the Word document...

Shit I'm facing split personality, LOL.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

白色风车 | Bai Se Feng Che | White Windmills

词: 周杰伦
Ci: Zhou Jie Lun
Lyrics: Jay Chou

曲: 周杰伦
Qu: Zhou Jie Lun
Music: Jay Chou

Translation: catseyes - www.jay-chou.net

白色的风车 安静的转着
bai se de feng che / an jing de zhuan zhe
The white windmills whirling silently

真实的感觉 梦境般遥远
zhen shi de gan jue / meng jing ban yao yuan
The feeling of reality appears so surreal

甜甜的海水 复杂的眼泪
tian tian de hai shui / fu za de yan lei
The beautiful sea, the intricate tears

看你傻笑着 握住我的手
kan ni sha xiao zhe / wo zhu wo de shou
Watching your silly grin, clasping my hand

梦希望没有尽头 我们走到这就好
meng xi wang mei you jing tou / wo men zou dao zhe jiu hao
I hope this dream has no end, so let's just walk till here

因为我不想太快走完这幸福
yin wei wo bu xiang tai kuai zou wan zhe xin fu
Because i don't wish for this bliss to end so soon

很可惜没有祝福 当爱你并不孤独 不会再让你哭
heng ke xi mei you zhu fu / dang ai ni bing bu gu du / bu hui zai ran ni ku
It is a pity that there is no blessing, I don't feel lonely at all when loving you, i won't let you cry again

我背你走到最后 能不能不要回头
wo bei ni zou dao zui hou / neng bu neng bu yao hui tou
I carry you till the end, can we not turn back

你紧紧地抱住我 说你不需要承诺
ni jing jing de bao zhu wo / shuo ni bu xu yao cheng nuo
You embraced me, telling me you don't need any promises

你说我若一个人会比较自由
ni shuo wo ruo yi ge ren hui bi jiao zi you
You said I will have more freedom if i am by myself

我不懂你说什么 反正不会松手
wo bu dong ni shuo shen me / fan zheng bu hui song shou
I don't understand what you said, regardless, i won't let go of your hands

我背你走到最后 能不能别想太多
wo bei ni zou dao zui hou / neng bu neng bie xiang tai duo
I carry you till the end, can we not think too much

会不会手牵着手 晚一点再到尽头
hui bu hui shou qian zhe shou / wan yi dian zai dao jing tou
Will we still be holding hands, reaching later to the end

你说不该再相见 只为了瞬间
ni shuo bu gai zai xiang jian / zi wei le shun jian
You said we shouldn't meet anymore just for this brief moment

谢谢你让我听见 因为我在等待永远
xie xie ni ran wo ting jian / yin wei wo zai deng dai yong yuan
Thanks for letting me know, for i will be here waiting for eternity

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Not bad... ;)

Sad song - another favourite

退后 | Tui Hou | Stepping Back

曲:周杰倫
Qu : Zhou Jie Lun
Music: Jay Chou

詞:宋健彰
Ci: Song Jian Jang
Lyrics: Devon Song

Lyrics from NovemberRain here

Translation: Ling - www.jay-chou.net

天空灰得像哭过
tian kong hui de xiang ku guo
The sky is so gray that it looks like it just cried

离开你以后
li kai ni yi hou
After leaving you

並沒有更自由
bing mei you gen zi you
(I) did not regain more freedom

酸酸的空氣
suan suan de kong qi
(From) the air

嗅出我们的距离
xiu chu wo men de ju li
(I) smelt our distance


一幕锥心的结局
yi mu zui xin de jie ju
A heart breaking ending

像呼吸般无法停息
xiang hu xi ban wu fa ting xi
is continuous just like breathing

抽屉泛黄的日记
chou ti fan huang de ri ji
The yellowing diary lied in the drawer

榨乾了回憶
zha gan le hui yi
(had) pressed dried [our] memories

那笑容是夏季
na xiao rong shi xia ji
That smile is summer


你我的过去
ni wo de guo qu
Our past

被順時針的忘记
bei shun shi zhen de wang ji
Has been forgotten as time goes by

缺氧过后的爱情
que yang guo hou de ai qing
Love after anoxia (lack of oxygen)

粗心的眼泪是多余
cu xin de yan lei shi duo yu
Careless tears are unnecessary


我知道你我都没有错
wo zhi dao ni wo dou mei you cuo
I know that the fault is not in either one of us

只是忘了怎么退后
zhi shi wang le ze me tui hou
We just forgot how to step back

信誓旦旦给了承诺
xin shi dan dan gei le cheng nuo
We made promises to each other with confidence

却被时间扑了空
que bei shi jian pu le kong
Yet it has been emptied by time


我知道我们都没有错
wo zhi dao wo men dou mei you cuo
I know that the fault is not in either one of us

只是放手会比较好过
zhi shi fang shou hui bi jiao hao guo
It's just that letting go would make things easier

最美的爱情回忆里待續
zui mei de ai qing hui yi li dai xu
The most beautiful love is to be continued in [my] memory

Qian Li Zhi Wai

千里之外 | Qian Li Zhi Wai | A Thousand Miles Away (Faraway)
曲:周杰倫
Qu : Zhou Jie Lun
Music: Jay Chou

詞:方文山
Ci: Fang Wen Shan
Lyrics: Vincent Fang

Lyrics from jaywife provided by cs_omigosh here

Translation: Ling & cs_omigosh - www.jay-chou.net

屋簷如懸崖* 風鈴如滄海 我等燕歸來
Wu yan ru xuan yai* / feng ling ru cang hai / wo deng yan gui lai
The roof is like a cliff, wind chimes like the ocean, and I am waiting for the swallow to return.


時間被安排 演一場意外 你悄然走開
Shi jian bei an pai / yan yi chang yi wai / ni qiao ran zou kai
Time is scheduled to act out the accident of you leaving quietly.

故事在城外 濃霧散不開 看不清對白
Gu shi zai cheng wai / nong wu shan bu kai / kan bu qing dui bai
The story occurred outside the city (where) there were thick fogs. (I) can’t see the dialogue clearly.

你聽不出來 風聲不存在 是我在感慨
Ni ting bu chu lai / feng sheng bu cun zai / shi wo zai gan kai
You can’t tell (that) the wind chimes never sounded. It was my exasperation.


夢醒來 是誰在窗臺 把結局打開
Meng xing lai / shi shui zai chuang tai / ba jie ju da kai
Awakened (from my) dream, who stood by the window sill and opened the ending.

那薄如蟬翼的未來 經不起誰來拆
Na bo ru chan yi de wei lai / jing bu qi shui lai zhe
The future is as thin as the cicada’s wing and can’t withstand being torn by anyone.


我送你離開 千里之外 你無聲黑白
Wo song ni li kai / qian li zhi wai / ni wu sheng hei bai
I send you off to a thousand miles away. (My mental image of you) is silent, black and white

沈默年代 或許不該 太遙遠的相愛
Chen mo nian dai / huo xu bu gai / tai yao yuan de xiang ai
Perhaps a love so far apart shouldn’t exist in this silent era.

我送你離開 天涯之外 你是否還在
Wo song ni li kai / tian yai* zhi wai / ni shi fou hai zai
I send you away beyond the end of Earth. Are you still there?


琴聲何來 生死難猜 用一生 去等待
Qing sheng he lai / sheng si nan cai / yong yi sheng / qu deng dai
Where is the zither** sound coming from? It’s hard to predict life and death. (I will) use (my) whole life to wait.


聞淚聲入林 尋梨花白 只得一行 青苔
Wen lei sheng ru ling / xun li hua bai / zhi de yi hang / qing tai
I enter the woods upon hearing tears. (I) search for a white flower, but only get a row of moss.

天在山之外 雨落花台 我兩鬢斑白
Tian zai shan zhi wai / yu luo hua tai / wo liang xu ban bai
The sky is far away from the mountain. The rain falls on the flower garden. My hair has become white.

聞淚聲入林 尋梨花白 只得一行 青苔
Wen lei sheng ru ling / xun li hua bai / zhi de yi hang / qing tai
I enter the woods upon hearing tears. (I) search for a white flower, but only get a row of moss.

天在山之外 雨落花台 我等你來
Tian zai shan zhi wai / yu luo hua tai / wo deng ni lai
The sky is far away from the mountain. The rain falls on the flower garden. I wait for you to come.


一身琉璃白 透明著塵埃 你無瑕的愛
Yi shen liu li bai / tou ming zhe chen ai / ni wu xia de ai
Wearing clear white clothes, the transparency shows dust and your flawless love.

你從雨中來 詩化了悲哀 我淋濕現在
Ni chong yu zhong lai / shi hua le bei ai / wo lin shi xian zai
You come from the rain and transform sorrow into a poem and I am now wet.

芙蓉水面采 船行影猶在 你卻不回來
Fu rong shui mian cai / chuan xing ying you zai / ni que bu hui lai
A lotus floats on the water. It seems as if the shadows of the boat sails are still there, but you still won’t return.

被歲月覆蓋 你說的花開 過去成空白
Bei sui yue fu gai / ni shuo de hua kai / guo qu cheng kong bai
Covered by time, the flower that you said would blossom has become emptiness in the past.


夢醒來 是誰在窗臺 把結局打開
Meng xing lai / shi shui zai chuang tai / ba jie ju da kai
Awakened (from my) dream, who stood by the window sill and opened the ending.

那薄如蟬翼的未來 經不起誰來拆
Na bo ru chan yi de wei lai / jing bu qi shui lai zhe
The future is as thin as the cicada’s wing and can’t withstand being torn by anyone.


我送你離開 千里之外 你無聲黑白
Wo song ni li kai / qian li zhi wai / ni wu sheng hei bai
I send you off to athousand miles away (My mental image of you) is silent and black and white

沈默年代 或許不該 太遙遠的相愛
Chen mo nian dai / huo xu bu gai / tai yao yuan de xiang ai
Perhaps a love so far apart shouldn’t exist in this silent era.

我送你離開 天涯之外 你是否還在
Wo song ni li kai / tian yai* zhi wai / ni shi fou hai zai
I send you away beyond the end of Earth. Are you still there?


琴聲何來 生死難猜 用一生 去等待
Qin sheng he lai / sheng si nan cai / yong yi sheng / qu deng dai
Where is the zither** sound coming from? It’s hard to predict life and death. (I will) use (my) whole life to wait.


Translation notes:
*崖 is romanized as yai, but it is pronounced more as ya
**Even though "琴 (qin)“is a generic term for many string instruments, "zither" will be most accurate for this context as the song is set in olden days China (as in the MV).

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Jay Chou's latest hit song. Qian Li Zhi Wai from his album Still Fantasy. My favourite currently. =)


Enjoy: