Genting trip

Well, this seems outdated. We went there last Saturday, 24th October 2005.

Was a great trip. Went through all the rides, I mean almost of them.

The sky cable car was neat, a bit scary, with the cable car hanging so high up in the air moving, a bit of a shake will sent the whole car shaking too.

Went into the ghost mansion, wat a scare, Ahh I'm scared, yea rite, for a 5 year old maybe.

Ripley's was cool. Saw many stuff, some on Tv. Can't imagine how weird people can be, doing stuffs just to enter TV. And some even inborn, with weird charateristics. Others are supernatural.

The rides, hmm adrenaline rushing. When it goes everywhere, up down left right sending your head spinning around. Kinda short. If it's on a weekday we prolly had a few times for each ride, now that sounds more challenging.

It was the most memorable trip in my life. Thanks to Halim, Ray and Gilbert for making it such a nice trip. Cheers.

Something to write about

"When you stay here long enough, you'll see strange people."

That is something I would like to convey to my children next time. Funny how many STRANGE people you'll meet in college. I came across a few, and I'm wondering why are they having such attitudes.

Well, don't bother about them... Conflicts are like weekly happenings. Friends who suddenly turn sour, then back to the old days again. Friends who suddenly became distant, then back like usuals again.

Honestly, I'm sick of them.

What an entry.

Exhausted, tired, worn out...

Dying of exhaustion, now especially with a flu...darn.

Someone commented that I'm typing stuff that people wouldn't want to read, or even look at. So I guess, it's time for a change...

Home- Michael Bublé

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I'm fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home



Reminds me of how much I'm missing home...

Flu

I'm down with flu...darn..

Hope I get well soon...*sob

Sorry for not updating

Forgive me for not updating, just been so busy lately with my assignments.

Will update when I finally settle down and have some time for my own.

Thanks for visiting!

What have been going on this week

Well, as usual...Except this time, hehe I found a place full of animes and series on the LAN file sharing...

Been watching South Park and Gundam Wing, which both caught my attention...Well don't think you guys will know about it, so I'll skip. And also there is Smallville Season 4! Desperate Housewives! FRIENDS! omg....

I have gotten a hang of things around here, and I can say is, life here is better than back home. Read one of my friend's blog, who is suffering in India now. And he just arrived there, studying medicine: http://arspata.blogspot.com/

I do feel lucky as a Malaysian here. Imagine what it would be like if I do go to India or elsewhere worst to study. Thank God, for giving me this blessing. I would say that life here is not as busy as I expected, for it's the FINAL YEAR. To me, what can be harder than the final year? Maybe coz I haven't feel the pinch yet. Things seem to be going pretty well now. I just hope to finish it soon, can't wait for that time when I'll have complete liberation from my studies.

Each time I see both my sis spending their money while going out shopping with them, it makes me think, when can I be like them. Having that freedom to buy whatever they want, and doing things without the need to tell my mum or anyone else...Really makes me envy.

Anyway, going to watch Cinderella Man tonight, hope it's good, so far the reviews are giving much credit to it. Can't wait...

And I REALLY REALLY hope to start my final year project proposal, I need to break that ice, that's preventing me from starting at all....Darn it...I just frost when I'm in front of Word, can't make up what to write, well SOON, soon my friend, you can run, but you can't hide...

My precious racquet:









I've actually lost it, and guess what? My housemate found it back for me, the person repsonsible for it. Well long story short, he borrowed my racquet, then borrowed it to his friend, and somehow that friend ask another friend to return it, and he put it in his room, but it just dissapeared! So then that person agreed to buy a new one for me, which he didn't till now. And SUDDENLY, yesterday my housemate ask me he saw some similar racquet, and decided to investigate for me, and IT IS ACTUALLY WITH HIS another friend, who is a girl, all along! I dunno how it landed with her, so she gladly gave my housemate back! Phew...Now told you it was a long story didn't I? hehe...

Thank God...

Looking forward to this week, which will be another hectic week probably...Assignment's due date commencing...Godspeed David, Godspeed....

Assignment

Handed up on yesterday. And it's only the FIRST part. Next on the 22nd this month, I have to hand out the project proposal, and it is not certain whether it's be approve by UoP, my attached university. (UoP= University of Portsmouth, UK)

Third year, all about work, work and work. And self study, research, journals, and self help. Lecturers are like there to teach you, and the rest is up for you to do.

I wonder what it would be like to live in the time of our parents...

Going to class, coming back, maybe hanging around with friends. Working young, as most can't afford a degree, marrying young, having TV and radio as source of entertaiment, going to small cinemas to watch some movie.

And back to this age:

Staring at the comp the whole day, only going out for meals, class and friends. Going to some huge mall in the weekend. Struggling like mad in studies as almost everyone now has a degree at least. Watching Astro. Driving here and there. And having a complicated life.

Gee life is so much more simpler in the older days...

A reminder to myself:

I won't be talking about love and relationships, and all the complications and headaches it brings. I had enough of the word. So I'll shove it off for the time being, and rather take good care of myself and those around me.

"Being in love is complicated"
(at least for now, as if I have one now, I will not know where it is going. Married? How many more years? Financial, do I have a stable career? Will it end in some broken heart scenario?)

Well, at least I have my author who always love me, my greatest love...

A poem:

Dad, you love me more than anything,
Each night I lay and rest,
I converse with you,
And you always answer,
In tones that is always understanding...
I have many questions,
And you replied them all...
And sometimes even when I'm lonely,
You always remind me that you're there for me.
I have no other greater love,
Except for you dad...
Thank you Abba,
My beloved father.
Amen.

Days that have been missing

Ok, here's a quick update of what had gone in the past few days of not updating, heuheu:

1. Doing assignment, HUCID, why is it sooooo huge????
2. Going out to eat with my roomies, darn what will I do without them??? Jaafar, *bluek, their service like snailmail, and the waiters reminds me of ahem, people who don't give a f*ck?
3. In room, play DOTA.
4. Surfing and chatting, darn that's lame.
5. Going out. Out out out...swimming rules.

K that's wat that went on.

Now, ready for sleep. And gonna tackle that huge HUCID assign and which after that tackle that complicated final year project proposal. Darn I find all of them interesting, which is why I love IT. It rocks like *toot*.

K. Will be sleeping early today, or I'll tapau the next day in class and group discussions.

Darn, how I wish I'm earning those big bucks in my job now...A degree!! Gimme one! gimme...!!!

*bluek, hopelessly working my way for a good degree(yeah rite...)

Good nitex you all! Sleep like a piece of log! Hehez. Ciaoz.

OMG, so long no update. To change from a "nice guy" to an "interesting guy"

Shiiiiiiit, I forgot to update sial!!

So long, seems like ages.

K back to my blog, here's a nice nice nice nice read.

Question: "Why nice guys are boring?"

Read this, you'll be amazed.
http://forum.lowyat.net/index.php?showtopic=192983&st=0

So, that's what I'm lacking, being tooo nice, like a wuss.

wuss /wUs/
· n. informal, chiefly N. Amer. a weak or ineffectual person.
– DERIVATIVES wussy n. (pl. wussies) & adj.
– ORIGIN 1980s: of unknown origin.

Ok, direct to the point lar, BORING! Like batu...I'm sure no guys would like to be a batu to a girl rite? Not asking you to be naughty lar, I mean to be interesting to a girl. Ahem, a GIRL. That's what I'm talking, or you'll always end up being lonely without those "girl" friends. Ok, it's somehow a way to court girls lar, I mean. :p

So guys! Start changing now, don't be boring to girls, treating them extra nice is always not the solution, rather it is making feel that you're interesting to know and talk with. Eh but please, don't become play-boy lar....lolz

Going positive

Allrite, first day of the week, Monday. Have to stay positive and think positive too. Time to make a change. And the first thing is to change my outlook and make it more positive. Time to think positive and be positive.

Everyone says we have to be positive, sometimes I wonder, does it matter? Look at the music industry these days. Things are going negative, look at the emerging of gothic songs, rocks songs, that mostly potrays the negative mood in the person. And yea I personally love some of them too, like Greenday, Eminem and Linkin Park. But do you wanna be like one of them?

Society is declining, so has the many outlook a person have in life has also changed greatly. In areas of romance especially, people potray it more to heartbreak, losses, and many other negativeness.

Well, I'm not going to be one of them. I wanna stay positive and think positive. How can you have a truly happy life with all these negativity? Sadness? You'll just keep sliding, and ended up in a depressing world of your own. Yea, I personally faced it, and it's not easy. The only way out is, pull yourself together and get out of the pitt. Get out of the square box of your own. Most importantly, pray, pray like your life depends on it.

"To be happy, the first thing is, smile..."

If you don't smile, how are you going to feel happy? Same goes with laughter, a dull person never laughs, he just stays serious, and will you be friend with such a person?

"To stay happy is to live a happy life."

True, it's all about the emotions inside. A poor man can be happier than a millionaire. How? It's because he feels happy, he don't struggle with earning tons of money a day, he just earns what he needs. He don't suffocate himself with all the riches of the world, and ended up worrying even more than before, or worrying about ever losing them. That's how he lives a happy life, by staying happy. Simple? Nope saying is harder than doing it. It need practice, lots of it, but first always keep your thoughts and emotions in check.

Like what Julius once said:
"Watch your thoughts,they become your words. Watch your words,they become your actions.Watch your actions,they become your character.Watch your character,they become your destiny..."

That's my philosophy for today, starting from now, will be staying positive, and living a happier life is my goal as long as I live.

Life, is always not a bed of roses.

3 sad things that happened:

1. A close friend that grew distant
2. Being rejected by someone I love
3. My ex gave me back all the things I gave her, bringing back old memories.

The above is enough to ruin the week that I had.

Yet I praise God that I learned a lot from it. And how glad do I feel that God has send so mnay wonderful people to comfort me adn to listen to me in times like these. Will never forget them, and indeed will repay them back for their kindness one day.

"Life isn't always a bed of roses."

True. Bad things do happen, and we have to be strong to face them.

Will keep praying to the Lord, for as St Paul said:

"It is when I am in the weakest state that I'm the strongest."

For indeed, the Lord is with him, and he became stronger, despite all the persecution he faced during his ministry.

Thank you Lord! Despite all this, I still feel you have never left me, to the state that I feel totally helpless and powerless, having my emotions inside torn me to pieces, yet there is always a light up there, and it is you Jesus. You are indeed my shepherd who will always seek out his sheep.

Time to end this. Better days and times are to come, and I'm sure after this I will end up stronger, and become a better person too.

Peace.

This week sucks

Most horrible week.

My ex gave me back all the stuff that I gave her, I'm like wth?

Felt pissed with that...

Shitz, this week couldn't be any worse. 3 diffrent incidents that shocked me.

God please give me the grace to survive this weekend.

Shits happen in life, and sometimes lots of shits can happen in one time. Which sucks real bad.



Going off to watch The Cave soon. Hope it's nice, or I'll be cursing the producer of Matrix and Underworld. I need a movie that could make this week.

About yesterday

"Don't try to go for another relationship now david, concentrate on your studies, fulfill your priorities now as a student. You're not prepared for it."

My youth pastor said that to me. Guess what he said is true.

I felt horrible yesterday. After the love that I confessed to someone was rejected. In a manner which is too direct to me.

Well, to that person who is reading this...I do hope next time, please...just say to be friends only, no need the details. I don't need to know watever and how you feel. Just tell me truthly, "I want to be friends only." Good enough, spare the details. Whatever that is said to me last night was like two bombs dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki, it was awful to bear with...

To girls out there. There is no need to go out one on one with a guy if you are not interested with him. Please, if we ask you out, means we are interested with you. Which guy doesn't? So please, just say no, just give excuses. And yea, we guys have feelings too. Don't need to be so harsh on us.

Anyway, it's a good try. I've learn pretty much from it.

To that special person, we'll always be friends. Hope to see you successful in life and marrying that someone special. For now, good luck and all the best in your studies. Have faith in yourself, and never look down on yourself. Be confident of who you are and what you can achieve in your life, no matter whoever and watsoever people might think of you.

Ok that's all for now.

Philosophies

From now on, will be posting a bit about philosophy. What sort of outlook do I have on life, people and stuff. It's all basically what I think is right and viewed by the society and people.

The most important thing that I view about friends is this:

"You cannot be friends with everybody, it is better you take good care of yourself."

Indeed, it doesn't calls us to be selfish and be alone. No, it calls us to know that sometimes, "friends" are like a name given, too often too lightly. There are times when we just have to know that to stay away, not to get too close and not to force a friendship. Friendship is like something that happens naturally. We don't have to force ourselves to go and pursue a friendship when we feel uncomfortable and uneasy to. Yes, we can still call each other friends, what I mean is close friends, people that we often go out with, mingle with, encounter with etc etc.

Imagine if each of us tries to go out there and fish for friends. Gosh! We will be making tons of mistakes, mixing with the wrong people, getting influence by their negative way of life, getting push around, taking on bad habits etc. "It is wise to choose a friend, for a good one seldom comes by..." Always know what are your stands, principals, and your view on life. Always find common ground...

So how do we know when me and the other can be close friends? Well, simple. Just ask him or her, hey wanna have lunch together? Take down his/her number and go when both are free. Remember one rule though, never go out with him/her if you feel uncomfortable doing so...Still going on a couple of times, sometimes does change things. And who knows both of you might click just well.

Another thing is, not everyone can be closely connected to you. Getting too close is a risk too. That's when things such as getting sick and tired of the person usually occurs. So know when and which friend that you can really get close to. Read his/her body language, expression, and the way he/she communicates with you...

Remember, let it go natural. Conversations are very important in friendships. Actions and what you do is important too. So, if you behave well, leave a good impression, and make the person feel please, there will be some other time he/she will get back to you.

Another thing. Try never to mingle romance and friendship together. They are two very different things. A guy, mixing with a girl, is not a light thing to fool around with. Yes, going out as a group most of the time wont have any negative impact, it's when we go out one on one. Isn't that call dating? So if you aren't sure, don't try that, never play around with each other hearts.

So what if you mixed with a "bad" friend. Ok not too much to the extreme...Someone that you just can't tolerate, or feel fed up with, or just someone you can't bear to see, or even talk to sometime. Sometimes this can happen in the beginning of a friendship. That's when you have to accept and move on, more like giving each other some space. Malaysian culture is, giving tons of excuse of going out, got work to do, busy etc. That's good actually. Rather than forcing yourself in the end getting hurt or just feeling weird, out of place.

Remember, "each person is different". We are brought up in diffrent manners, diffrent ways, and all of us see life in many diffrent viewpoints. So learn to find someone you can "click" with. Now that's important.

The meaning of the word "friend" on Oxford dictionary:

friend
· n.
1 a person with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, typically one exclusive of sexual or family relations. Ø used in polite address to an acquaintance or stranger.
2 a familiar or helpful thing.
3 a person who supports a particular cause or organization: the Friends of the Welsh National Opera.
4 (in battle) an ally.
5 (Friend) a member of the Religious Society of Friends; a Quaker.
· v. archaic befriend.
– PHRASES be (or make) friends with be (or become) on friendly terms with. a friend at court a person in a position to use their influence on one’s behalf.
– DERIVATIVES friendless adj. friendship n.
– ORIGIN OE frUond, of Gmc origin; rel. to free.

Most importantly, always remember, take good care of yourself. And as a Christian, there is no other greater and closer friend than Jesus. Even if a person is without even a single friend in his life, he will always have Him.

"Jesus will always be your best friend, no matter what happens in your life."

K the end of the philosophy about friendship. That's how I view it.

Comments are always welcome...

Merdeka Blast

Yup, here are the pics from Merdeka Eve... thanks Vic for one of the dinner pics and Khalil as well. It was the best Merdeka celebration I ever had. The fireworks at Pyramid was wonderful.

K now, back to reading the journals *sweat.

To Malaysia:

Happy Merdeka!

Take care you all. Sending my warmest regards to all in their studies and work. Ciaoz.

About me

Darn, how I hate to be always ridiculed and rejected always. I can take jokes, but sometimes inside of me just wana burst and say:"Enough of teasing me!!". Hey no offence here, it's just how I feel inside. Yesterday, I almost cried, as the deepest part inside of me feels vulnerable. Yet, I pray hard that these won't effect me too much. I felt better after that...

I have that soft side inside of me, people usually don't take me seriously...maybe coz I always laugh a lot and indulge in jokes. I am an easy target too, when people know about it, that's when I become an easy target for them, to be make fun of, laughed at, teased at...

Sometimes I burst, pretty bad...when I do, I cry, I stay away, I just sort of like ignore and try not to get close with that person. When I'm quiet after a joke is thrown at me, is one of the signs of it.

People can't seem to get the message. So after that they ask:"Why David? why are you so quiet?". Well that's me. I am a human too, with feelings, emotions, and a soft side, like everyone. That's why I learn, to only be with friends who I find comfortable to be with. I don't really fancy going out with a group of friends, I hate it when they make fun of me, like a soft toy. I feel insecure...

One day, I hope to be respected by others, to be taken seriously. Not too serious, just the right amount of seriousness and laughter. Too much of both is no good for a person.

To my close friends out there, I wrote this is not to provoke you, but rather to tell you how I feel inside, for you to better understand me.