Merry Christmas

Holidays, ahh that word means few things to me:
1. all the sleep I need
2. spending time with friends
3. hanging out at the CC
4. watching tv the whole day
5. getting those exercises It's wonderful, well sometimes too short.

Will be back earlier it seems, maybe on the 1st Jan with my cousin as I have LOTS of stuff to bring back, courtesy of my mum, lols. Christmas coming...here's a nice picture for those of you reading this:

Merry Christmas to all!

back back...

home is great! Especially during year end when everyones back. Woo-hoo, christmas in 2 weeks time.

Yea, gonna make this short, holiday is so busy this time around...

After Exam Syndrom

Yesssssh, after exams liao. Huahuhahahahaha....

I am free!

2 more days and countdown

Monday exam:

ISMAN - Information Management Systems

Wednesday exam:

HUCID - Human Computer Interaction and Design

Thursday:

ISMAN assignment submission date

Friday:

Day of complete liberation. F-R-E-E-D-O-M
Things I plan to do~
Attempt to finish watching Gundam Seed Destiny, episodes left: 15
Play dota, or Diablo(with ben)
Eat, Sleep, Relax

Things I have to do now:

STUDY

(A self reminder to myself, :p)

What have been going on this week...

Man, exams period are no fun. Full of stress, anxiety, worries...

Been spending most of my time studying, doing past year questions and such. Even meeting up with my frens to discuss how to study it. All of them decided to sit down and do the past year question, and focus on the important parts. Or we'll just perished if we were to read from the first chapter to the last, imagine the time. Haihhhh...

Few days more left to Monday, the BIG day. How I wish it's over and I'm back home, home sweet home.

Well, life is not all about studies, even if it's exam week, been taking a break here and there watching Gundam Seed Destiny, dota-ing, and online. Exercise? Almost none, due to the bad weather and swimming is like dipping yourself into an icy lake...

Ok. That's all. Maybe gonna do some further studies now.

Be back soon. I mean REAL soon. Need to whine somewhere....or I'll just EXPLODE.

Phew that was a relief.

Exam Madness

Exams on the 5th and 7th December.















Current period: Madness
Mood: Berserk
Time left: 1 1/2 weeks
Will be back on: After 9th

Hope to update when conditions return to normal. =)

Weird...

Regarding my previous post, I decided to delete it since it brings forth unwelcomed comments.

I dunno what people thinks these days, when it comes to religion, it's super sensitive or something.

Well to those people who are finding trouble, I would rather keep my mouth shut than to start a long and pointless debate.

Period.

Planet Shakers

Went to Planet Shakers conference for the past three days. It was one great revival.
http://www.planetshakers.com/



















Here's more on their conference in Malaysia:
http://www.planetshakers.com.my/

It was aweeeesome.

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Today's reading touched me, about the determined widow:
Gospel
Lk 18:1-8

Jesus told his disciples a parable
about the necessity for them to pray always without becoming weary.
He said, “There was a judge in a certain town
who neither feared God nor respected any human being.
And a widow in that town used to come to him and say,
‘Render a just decision for me against my adversary.’
For a long time the judge was unwilling, but eventually he thought,
‘While it is true that I neither fear God nor respect any human being,
because this widow keeps bothering me
I shall deliver a just decision for her
lest she finally come and strike me.’”
The Lord said, “Pay attention to what the dishonest judge says.
Will not God then secure the rights of his chosen ones
who call out to him day and night?
Will he be slow to answer them?
I tell you, he will see to it that justice is done for them speedily.
But when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on earth?”

Meditation:
Saturday, November 12, 2005

Meditation
Luke 18:1-8

Readings

You’ve got to admire the courageous determination that this widow had! She persisted despite the formidable obstacles mounted against her. First, the local judge was unjust and ungodly. Second, women in her day were normally not allowed to even speak in court. Third, she had no husband to speak for her. Finally, judges at the time chose which cases they would hear, and most widows didn’t have access to the bribe money to get their cases heard.

But this widow didn’t let these hurdles deter her. Whether her demeanor was that of a stubborn nag or a joyful, optimistic intercessor, Jesus doesn’t tell us. But what he does tell us is that we should imitate her persistence. Jesus would love to see us cheerful and confident all the time, but he is also realistic. As far as he is concerned, even if our efforts at prayer stem from a raw, dogged nature, he still has something he can work with—and purify over time. At least we’re trying!
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That's exactly what the speaker meant in the Planet Shakers conference, "CRY OUT TO GOD!" and he'll surely listen.

Prayer:
“Jesus, I turn to you with hope, for you always hear me and look out for my best interests. When I am weary and my faith is being tested, give me the strength I need to keep trusting in you. Praise be to you, O Lord, whose mercy endures forever!”

Amen.

Forgiveness

Why is living a life dedicated to God seems so difficult these days? Is it because of others? Or somehow it's because times are changing, as man advace more and more in life, they seek to run away, and seeking explanations that seems more logical to man, man seek solace in it. When is fact, it is seeking truth in Him, that's when things will be explained...

Forgiveness is what we need these days, when we learn to forgive others, that is what man need to learn:

Gospel
Lk 17:1-6

Jesus said to his disciples,
“Things that cause sin will inevitably occur,
but woe to the one through whom they occur.
It would be better for him if a millstone were put around his neck
and he be thrown into the sea
than for him to cause one of these little ones to sin.
Be on your guard!
If your brother sins, rebuke him;
and if he repents, forgive him.
And if he wrongs you seven times in one day
and returns to you seven times saying, ‘I am sorry,’
you should forgive him.”

Coming back to University

A letter to God,

I always wonder what is it like to be a saint, so I decided to name it for sainthood.

Amen.

A story from Father OC:
"You see the saint's picture hanging on the wall. Yes he is a saint. He is Catholic, married with a wife, with beautiful children, a lawyer, a doctor, he even has a doctorate in theology and philosophy. In the end, he died as a matyr(in objection to the king in marrying again and commiting adultery) and he is canonized as a saint."

Back in Kuantan

Arrived, rested and now going back soon...

Felt much better after resting at home. Been rejuvenated.

Praise God for having a good rest. The tiredness is gone, weariness is all I felt when I arrived here. Fighting hard after having a good rest.

Learned about how love binds everything together. A family's love being the greatest when we are sick and down. Looking forward to going back now and doing my duties as a good student.

God loves a faithful sinner, especially a forgiven sinner.

Have to have faith and continue living, there is nothing more beautiful than keeping the faith and living another day.

Allrite, that's all for now.

Ok, here's an informal post.

Well, you people out there may be wondering why I'm typing all these stuff. Just that after the recent experiences being sick, I come to realised life is nothing without God, the creator and author of life. It seems that He wants me to come back to him, no matter when I'm sick or healthy.

I've decided to change for the better. To be a better man than to sin all the while, and then fall just to realise, that it's my fault, my sins that I fall because of it.

Life is short, who's life ain't? It's a 100 years for a person long? Is 20 years for a person short? I come to realised that most of the time we take it for granted, what if our life get taken, for "The Lord will come like a thieve...".

So I wish to address my readers to keep me in your prayers with the Lord, that I'll come to do his will everyday, a spiritual exercise that I decided to follow...

Like how St Ignatius of Loyola prayed:

St. Ignatius of Loyola Prayer

"Dearest Lord,

teach me to be generous.

teach me to serve you as you deserve;

to give and not to count the cost;

to fight, and not to heed the wounds;

to labor, and not to seek to rest;

to give of myself and not to ask for reward,

except the reward of knowing that I am doing

your will."

Amen.

All Saints Day

A passage from All Saints Day card:

All Saints Day


The challenge of sainthood
is to go
where love takes me.

—Prayer for Daybreak and Day's End, Volume II

"Love is the greatest..."

*taken from Catholic Greetings

Handling depression

Went through a book in MPH yesterday, something about depression, and come across the part of self help...

Kick the depression away, see it as a small imp clinging to your leg or hands, and imagine yourself kicking it away, maybe by kicking a football or just throwing something, like a used dolls into the chimney and see it disappear.

Don't feel guilty, or shame. These two are main factors of depression.

Find the trigger event, and wat causes it, and learn to overcome it by thinking positively. Don't let it trigger other things in your life.

Imagination plays a role in stopping depression. Don't let it control you. But think positively on how to handle it.

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"Lord, grant me the grace to live a life directed to you today. Be with me and help me in all that I'm about to go through. Be part of my life and remove the depressions in my life, as I'm young, help me not to worry too much. Amen."

Taken from today's reflection:

“Heavenly Father, you set apart Israel as your chosen people. Thank you for taking me and grafting me to that beloved vine. Thank you for inserting me into your immense plan of salvation! Your faithful love knows no bounds!”

Psalm 94:12-15,17-18;Luke 14:1,7-1128

About Monday 23rd October 2005

Went to see the doctor on Monday, didn't know my cough was so serious.

bronchitis
· n. inflammation of the mucous membrane in the bronchial tubes, typically with spasm of bronchial muscle and coughing.
– DERIVATIVES bronchitic adj. & n.

And if I'm not careful, I might be infected by:
pneumonia /nju;"m@UnI@/
· n. a lung infection in which the air sacs fill with pus.
– DERIVATIVES pneumonic adj.
– ORIGIN C17: via L. from Gk, from pneumZn ‘lung’.

God, please save me from my suffering with this. I wanna recover, show me how to...Amen.

Luke 13:24
“Strive to enter through the narrow gate,
for many, I tell you, will attempt to enter
but will not be strong enough."

Somehow this passage touched me, from today's bible reading. Entering through the narrow gate.

I could barely breath the pass few days, having terrible cough. Preservering through prayer, I thank God I'm recovered now.

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There's a lot that happened in the past few days, making me realised how hopeless life can be when we are sick.

But never give up in Him, he listens. And now will try my best living a godly life, rather than making all the mistakes and falling again, for the punishments are in this life or the next.
















Thank you Lord for healing me. It is time to move on...and indeed you have never let me down.

Rising from the ashes

Awaken Spirit
Waking up today,
Feeling better than the previous days,
A rain of healing been showered unto me,
And indeed I am healed,
Worries subside,
A bright warm new sunshine,
Ready to love once more,
Those around me.
A fire rekindle,
Deep from within...

For this,
I will not forget the Almighty,
For this,
I would,
As an offering of praise,
Think of others,
Rather than myself all,
More often than them.
"A service above self".
Years are passing,
And I'm getting older.
Next year is the year,
A age of adulthood,
Mirrored at me.

I stare in awe,
As how a sickness,
Can change a person.
I have ended up learning,
There is always...
A purpose in everything that happens.

Although I'm tired today,
nothing seems better,
than a lesson well learned.
Thank you Lord. Amen.

A passage from today's reading:

Ez 18:25-28

Thus says the LORD:
You say, "The LORD's way is not fair!"
Hear now, house of Israel:
Is it my way that is unfair, or rather, are not your ways unfair?
When someone virtuous turns away from virtue to commit iniquity, and dies,
it is because of the iniquity he committed that he must die.
But if he turns from the wickedness he has committed,
he does what is right and just,
he shall preserve his life;
since he has turned away from all the sins that he has committed,
he shall surely live, he shall not die.

Well. That's all. We're given chances in life. And it is by repenting we shall live anew. For

"God is merciful"

Lessons

I lay on my bed, sick, turning around...
Feeling helpless, without hope...
Assign due date ringing...
About to give in...give up...
I keep rolling...
A voice suddenly spoke to me...
The same voice I hear everyday,
Holy Spirit, why?
I asked...gasping...asking why...
Many of the skeletons unmasked,
From the closets,
The evil and bad things that I did,
Each sin unfold before my eyes,
I was stunned...
Truths were revealed,
I can only listen,
To the voice that keeps talking to me
Self-centerness was the word that struck me...
Like a mirror being reflected at me,
More truths are revealed.
It is time for change, says the voice.
I see Jesus before me, telling me many things.
Yet, I couldn't sleep...
And finally I did...

Waking up,
I started to reliased the words that I use to say,
I can't say them no more..
I find myself...
A change so deep,
I couldn't ignore it.
I started understanding,
How others treated me,
And why...
Why...
And yes,
Says the voice...
It's time to turn over a new leaf,
A change...

Busy busy ahead...

will resume blogging when my schedule returns to normal.

Busy week! Assignments are due soon, looking forward to my holiday where I can resume blogging.

Current Desktop Wallpaper

Current desktop wallpaper.

Anyone interested? Can send you a copy if ya want, just msg me here at the chatterbox.

I'm so into gundam, gonna finish the Gundam Seed series soon...

Done with my proposal

Yay! Passed up the final year project proposal. Coolness. Finally I'm done with it, yipeee.

Now will wait whether it's approve or not.

Darn, next Monday have to present the HUCID assignment in class. And I only started the Macromedia Director thing presentation, where we have to simulate the inputs and outputs of the application.

Sounds complicated? Wait till we pass up the whole thing, it will be mind blowing.

And ISMAN, I'm rather relax in that. Seems that the leader is contributing most of it. I've tried contributing more, but there are just some people who are well, having diffrent leadership styles, and doing all of it themselves is what they do best. No offence, I respect such people, known as soloist people. But still will try helping as much as I can and anything that he ask for. We'll have lots of business stuff in it, and diagram, business strategies and all that. Due date around December, so guess near that time we'll be pretty busy shaking our asses to complete it.

That's the parts and parcels in UoP. Next term will be even tougher...*sweats. Will have to put on my safety helmets and safety gear for that.

A logo of UoP:




UoP link: http://www.port.ac.uk/

My room deco

Posters in my room...hehe.

Saturday

Woke up at 1pm. Now that's a start...nothing beats a long and lovely sleep on a weekend.

Good morning Malaysia!

Sometimes I don't fully understand certain people. Why they just dislike you for the plain simple reason that they just oh well, dislikes you.

So I don't bother what people think about me anymore. It's all about acceptance. It's by accepting who he or she is, that's when friendships build up.

Ah anyway, I'm not that bad sort of person anyway, so don't tell me about changing, as I won't...

Has been a week, as usual, full of stories to share and experiences that I have went through, but can't seem to write it all here, just couldn't remember or bother to write all of it here, lol.

Oh yah, something interesting yesterday, I spilled coffee, all over my desk, and it's hot, imagine that, hot coffee on your laps and all over your mouse, keyboard and table and even the floor! Darn...well ended up have to wipe the whole thing off and wash the clothes. Messy messy..

Well that's life anyway, you do a mistake, and eventually you learn to wipe the mess off and learn not to repeat it again.

Had Passover Meal today...where we recall how the jews left Israel and also Christ suffering for us. Was more unusual as we had "extra" stuffs put in like "beef" which is suppose to taste like lamb and also some "guai ling gou", to replace the herosepth and bitter chocolates to replace the bitter herbs. To me, the most meanigful fellowship meal we had before.

I wonder what I'll do without CKK LOTN Lifeline. Guess I would join some other protestant churches by now. Thank God for such a blessing. Love all of them there, dedicated my whole college life for them.

Aiight that's all now, wanna take a sleep and start afresh with my proposal.

Ragnarok

Darn, save me from playing Ragnarok. It's pretty addictive. Those cute graphics and nice gameplay, it's been a while any game is able to capture me this far.

Have to control, have to resist....

For a friend

Please pray for a friend of mine who is suffering from Appendicitis. Below is his blog:
http://arspata.blogspot.com/

A close friend of mine back in Kuantan, with memories streching back to the times in Secondary School.

Hope you get well soon Chee Chung.

This week.

-do assignments
-go for rosary
-bought lots of stuff, cost lots of $$$ too
-typing in a blog where there are no comments, dunno why
-chatting with friends on MSN
-playing dota
-go to same old Jaafar to yamcha/dinner
-pasar malam on sundays
-mass on sunday mornings
-youth on fridays
-goin crazy with roy, ben and khalil

Colourful life.

Thought for the day - relationship or single?

It's been about 2 months since my last break-up. Today a close friend told me to start looking for a gf, which strucked me. Which then I debated why a person like me would be hard, which he disagreed and told me that I'm am able.

Somehow, I do feel like, it's time. But guess sometimes it's best leaving it in the hands of God. I believe he knows what's best for me. No need to rush things. If somehow it happens, then I'll let it happen.

I'll just have to pray more about it. My church leaders have always asked me to consider being single for the time being and concentrating on my priorities, they have a point too, which I kinda agree.

Sometimes it can be so tiring, either being a single, or in a relationship.

I just hope to meet the love of my life one day, the person I would marry, rather than dwelling in relationships that would not lasts and holds no purpose in the end. Waiting for such a person, it seems like a lifetime...

I'll leave it in the hands of God, do pray for me my friends.

Like what Fr. OC Lim told me when I was in a relationship:
"That's good, but whatever it is, your study comes first."

And what Fr. Alloycious said during the Welcome Nite Mass:
"Do no be afraid to fall in love, it is when you do, then you'll know what it is like to love God."

Amen.

Classes starting at 9.30am. Woke up today without finishing the movie i've been waiting for, The Exorcism of Emily Rose, have to watch it, the film is worth it...

Bought a new alarm clock to help me wake up, and haha the good old handphone is the first to rang and woke me up.

I'm seriously broke, just by buying some groceries...Mum will be nagging on the phone again...

Off to class soon. Another tiring and brain draining forst day of the week. Final year? Reminds me more of a 3 months long nightmare.

Let's pray that I can get through this.

Rosary month, 6pm rosary everyday for this entire month at 1.3 and 1.4 at monash block.

Rosary is trully something I've missed, been busy with studies and not able to find space and a quiet time from others to pray in my room.

A picture of a rosary:








I hope to go home next week, can't stand it here anymore. College is killing me. Need a well deserved break.

That's all for now. Back to final year project proposal...

A note about those who make the weak looks weaker

Would you see a weak old man and still fight with him? Would an adult see a 3 year old kid and punch him in his face?

All these doesn't makes sense, although rather radical. But yet such people exists...

There is a saying: "Go pick someone your own size"

I will change that, go pick someone who have the same amount of strength that you do...

That's indeed what happened. Someone stronger than me, being a close friend, yet overpowering me when he knows better not to. Would you tolerate such a person? Even if it means that he sees it as a joke? When you are serious about him not to do so?

I wouldn't.

Same message goes for those who like to pick on others. Go find someone your own build and strength or even stronger and don't take those weaker than you for granted.

The Skeleton Key

The movie was really scary. A thriller that shook most girls on their seats. Scariest movie of the year for me.

Hostel life is so colourful, I mean really really COLORFUL...

I miss home so so much. Feeling demotivated in my studies. Father please help me out here...

Rosary month starting today, glad to be back to the days of praying the Rosary. Mine is seating in a pile of dust before this. Sad but true. Anyway will get back to praying it when I have the time, and most importantly the silence and space that I need.

I wonder why some of my friends in blogspot have so many comments and mine so few? hmm. But no matter to me, I'm keeping this as a record to look back next time. Anyway I appreaciate it all you out there writing your lovely comments here.

Good nitez. Off to bed now...

Genting trip

Well, this seems outdated. We went there last Saturday, 24th October 2005.

Was a great trip. Went through all the rides, I mean almost of them.

The sky cable car was neat, a bit scary, with the cable car hanging so high up in the air moving, a bit of a shake will sent the whole car shaking too.

Went into the ghost mansion, wat a scare, Ahh I'm scared, yea rite, for a 5 year old maybe.

Ripley's was cool. Saw many stuff, some on Tv. Can't imagine how weird people can be, doing stuffs just to enter TV. And some even inborn, with weird charateristics. Others are supernatural.

The rides, hmm adrenaline rushing. When it goes everywhere, up down left right sending your head spinning around. Kinda short. If it's on a weekday we prolly had a few times for each ride, now that sounds more challenging.

It was the most memorable trip in my life. Thanks to Halim, Ray and Gilbert for making it such a nice trip. Cheers.

Something to write about

"When you stay here long enough, you'll see strange people."

That is something I would like to convey to my children next time. Funny how many STRANGE people you'll meet in college. I came across a few, and I'm wondering why are they having such attitudes.

Well, don't bother about them... Conflicts are like weekly happenings. Friends who suddenly turn sour, then back to the old days again. Friends who suddenly became distant, then back like usuals again.

Honestly, I'm sick of them.

What an entry.

Exhausted, tired, worn out...

Dying of exhaustion, now especially with a flu...darn.

Someone commented that I'm typing stuff that people wouldn't want to read, or even look at. So I guess, it's time for a change...

Home- Michael Bublé

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I'm fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home



Reminds me of how much I'm missing home...

Flu

I'm down with flu...darn..

Hope I get well soon...*sob

Sorry for not updating

Forgive me for not updating, just been so busy lately with my assignments.

Will update when I finally settle down and have some time for my own.

Thanks for visiting!

What have been going on this week

Well, as usual...Except this time, hehe I found a place full of animes and series on the LAN file sharing...

Been watching South Park and Gundam Wing, which both caught my attention...Well don't think you guys will know about it, so I'll skip. And also there is Smallville Season 4! Desperate Housewives! FRIENDS! omg....

I have gotten a hang of things around here, and I can say is, life here is better than back home. Read one of my friend's blog, who is suffering in India now. And he just arrived there, studying medicine: http://arspata.blogspot.com/

I do feel lucky as a Malaysian here. Imagine what it would be like if I do go to India or elsewhere worst to study. Thank God, for giving me this blessing. I would say that life here is not as busy as I expected, for it's the FINAL YEAR. To me, what can be harder than the final year? Maybe coz I haven't feel the pinch yet. Things seem to be going pretty well now. I just hope to finish it soon, can't wait for that time when I'll have complete liberation from my studies.

Each time I see both my sis spending their money while going out shopping with them, it makes me think, when can I be like them. Having that freedom to buy whatever they want, and doing things without the need to tell my mum or anyone else...Really makes me envy.

Anyway, going to watch Cinderella Man tonight, hope it's good, so far the reviews are giving much credit to it. Can't wait...

And I REALLY REALLY hope to start my final year project proposal, I need to break that ice, that's preventing me from starting at all....Darn it...I just frost when I'm in front of Word, can't make up what to write, well SOON, soon my friend, you can run, but you can't hide...

My precious racquet:









I've actually lost it, and guess what? My housemate found it back for me, the person repsonsible for it. Well long story short, he borrowed my racquet, then borrowed it to his friend, and somehow that friend ask another friend to return it, and he put it in his room, but it just dissapeared! So then that person agreed to buy a new one for me, which he didn't till now. And SUDDENLY, yesterday my housemate ask me he saw some similar racquet, and decided to investigate for me, and IT IS ACTUALLY WITH HIS another friend, who is a girl, all along! I dunno how it landed with her, so she gladly gave my housemate back! Phew...Now told you it was a long story didn't I? hehe...

Thank God...

Looking forward to this week, which will be another hectic week probably...Assignment's due date commencing...Godspeed David, Godspeed....

Assignment

Handed up on yesterday. And it's only the FIRST part. Next on the 22nd this month, I have to hand out the project proposal, and it is not certain whether it's be approve by UoP, my attached university. (UoP= University of Portsmouth, UK)

Third year, all about work, work and work. And self study, research, journals, and self help. Lecturers are like there to teach you, and the rest is up for you to do.

I wonder what it would be like to live in the time of our parents...

Going to class, coming back, maybe hanging around with friends. Working young, as most can't afford a degree, marrying young, having TV and radio as source of entertaiment, going to small cinemas to watch some movie.

And back to this age:

Staring at the comp the whole day, only going out for meals, class and friends. Going to some huge mall in the weekend. Struggling like mad in studies as almost everyone now has a degree at least. Watching Astro. Driving here and there. And having a complicated life.

Gee life is so much more simpler in the older days...

A reminder to myself:

I won't be talking about love and relationships, and all the complications and headaches it brings. I had enough of the word. So I'll shove it off for the time being, and rather take good care of myself and those around me.

"Being in love is complicated"
(at least for now, as if I have one now, I will not know where it is going. Married? How many more years? Financial, do I have a stable career? Will it end in some broken heart scenario?)

Well, at least I have my author who always love me, my greatest love...

A poem:

Dad, you love me more than anything,
Each night I lay and rest,
I converse with you,
And you always answer,
In tones that is always understanding...
I have many questions,
And you replied them all...
And sometimes even when I'm lonely,
You always remind me that you're there for me.
I have no other greater love,
Except for you dad...
Thank you Abba,
My beloved father.
Amen.

Days that have been missing

Ok, here's a quick update of what had gone in the past few days of not updating, heuheu:

1. Doing assignment, HUCID, why is it sooooo huge????
2. Going out to eat with my roomies, darn what will I do without them??? Jaafar, *bluek, their service like snailmail, and the waiters reminds me of ahem, people who don't give a f*ck?
3. In room, play DOTA.
4. Surfing and chatting, darn that's lame.
5. Going out. Out out out...swimming rules.

K that's wat that went on.

Now, ready for sleep. And gonna tackle that huge HUCID assign and which after that tackle that complicated final year project proposal. Darn I find all of them interesting, which is why I love IT. It rocks like *toot*.

K. Will be sleeping early today, or I'll tapau the next day in class and group discussions.

Darn, how I wish I'm earning those big bucks in my job now...A degree!! Gimme one! gimme...!!!

*bluek, hopelessly working my way for a good degree(yeah rite...)

Good nitex you all! Sleep like a piece of log! Hehez. Ciaoz.

OMG, so long no update. To change from a "nice guy" to an "interesting guy"

Shiiiiiiit, I forgot to update sial!!

So long, seems like ages.

K back to my blog, here's a nice nice nice nice read.

Question: "Why nice guys are boring?"

Read this, you'll be amazed.
http://forum.lowyat.net/index.php?showtopic=192983&st=0

So, that's what I'm lacking, being tooo nice, like a wuss.

wuss /wUs/
· n. informal, chiefly N. Amer. a weak or ineffectual person.
– DERIVATIVES wussy n. (pl. wussies) & adj.
– ORIGIN 1980s: of unknown origin.

Ok, direct to the point lar, BORING! Like batu...I'm sure no guys would like to be a batu to a girl rite? Not asking you to be naughty lar, I mean to be interesting to a girl. Ahem, a GIRL. That's what I'm talking, or you'll always end up being lonely without those "girl" friends. Ok, it's somehow a way to court girls lar, I mean. :p

So guys! Start changing now, don't be boring to girls, treating them extra nice is always not the solution, rather it is making feel that you're interesting to know and talk with. Eh but please, don't become play-boy lar....lolz

Going positive

Allrite, first day of the week, Monday. Have to stay positive and think positive too. Time to make a change. And the first thing is to change my outlook and make it more positive. Time to think positive and be positive.

Everyone says we have to be positive, sometimes I wonder, does it matter? Look at the music industry these days. Things are going negative, look at the emerging of gothic songs, rocks songs, that mostly potrays the negative mood in the person. And yea I personally love some of them too, like Greenday, Eminem and Linkin Park. But do you wanna be like one of them?

Society is declining, so has the many outlook a person have in life has also changed greatly. In areas of romance especially, people potray it more to heartbreak, losses, and many other negativeness.

Well, I'm not going to be one of them. I wanna stay positive and think positive. How can you have a truly happy life with all these negativity? Sadness? You'll just keep sliding, and ended up in a depressing world of your own. Yea, I personally faced it, and it's not easy. The only way out is, pull yourself together and get out of the pitt. Get out of the square box of your own. Most importantly, pray, pray like your life depends on it.

"To be happy, the first thing is, smile..."

If you don't smile, how are you going to feel happy? Same goes with laughter, a dull person never laughs, he just stays serious, and will you be friend with such a person?

"To stay happy is to live a happy life."

True, it's all about the emotions inside. A poor man can be happier than a millionaire. How? It's because he feels happy, he don't struggle with earning tons of money a day, he just earns what he needs. He don't suffocate himself with all the riches of the world, and ended up worrying even more than before, or worrying about ever losing them. That's how he lives a happy life, by staying happy. Simple? Nope saying is harder than doing it. It need practice, lots of it, but first always keep your thoughts and emotions in check.

Like what Julius once said:
"Watch your thoughts,they become your words. Watch your words,they become your actions.Watch your actions,they become your character.Watch your character,they become your destiny..."

That's my philosophy for today, starting from now, will be staying positive, and living a happier life is my goal as long as I live.

Life, is always not a bed of roses.

3 sad things that happened:

1. A close friend that grew distant
2. Being rejected by someone I love
3. My ex gave me back all the things I gave her, bringing back old memories.

The above is enough to ruin the week that I had.

Yet I praise God that I learned a lot from it. And how glad do I feel that God has send so mnay wonderful people to comfort me adn to listen to me in times like these. Will never forget them, and indeed will repay them back for their kindness one day.

"Life isn't always a bed of roses."

True. Bad things do happen, and we have to be strong to face them.

Will keep praying to the Lord, for as St Paul said:

"It is when I am in the weakest state that I'm the strongest."

For indeed, the Lord is with him, and he became stronger, despite all the persecution he faced during his ministry.

Thank you Lord! Despite all this, I still feel you have never left me, to the state that I feel totally helpless and powerless, having my emotions inside torn me to pieces, yet there is always a light up there, and it is you Jesus. You are indeed my shepherd who will always seek out his sheep.

Time to end this. Better days and times are to come, and I'm sure after this I will end up stronger, and become a better person too.

Peace.

This week sucks

Most horrible week.

My ex gave me back all the stuff that I gave her, I'm like wth?

Felt pissed with that...

Shitz, this week couldn't be any worse. 3 diffrent incidents that shocked me.

God please give me the grace to survive this weekend.

Shits happen in life, and sometimes lots of shits can happen in one time. Which sucks real bad.



Going off to watch The Cave soon. Hope it's nice, or I'll be cursing the producer of Matrix and Underworld. I need a movie that could make this week.

About yesterday

"Don't try to go for another relationship now david, concentrate on your studies, fulfill your priorities now as a student. You're not prepared for it."

My youth pastor said that to me. Guess what he said is true.

I felt horrible yesterday. After the love that I confessed to someone was rejected. In a manner which is too direct to me.

Well, to that person who is reading this...I do hope next time, please...just say to be friends only, no need the details. I don't need to know watever and how you feel. Just tell me truthly, "I want to be friends only." Good enough, spare the details. Whatever that is said to me last night was like two bombs dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki, it was awful to bear with...

To girls out there. There is no need to go out one on one with a guy if you are not interested with him. Please, if we ask you out, means we are interested with you. Which guy doesn't? So please, just say no, just give excuses. And yea, we guys have feelings too. Don't need to be so harsh on us.

Anyway, it's a good try. I've learn pretty much from it.

To that special person, we'll always be friends. Hope to see you successful in life and marrying that someone special. For now, good luck and all the best in your studies. Have faith in yourself, and never look down on yourself. Be confident of who you are and what you can achieve in your life, no matter whoever and watsoever people might think of you.

Ok that's all for now.

Philosophies

From now on, will be posting a bit about philosophy. What sort of outlook do I have on life, people and stuff. It's all basically what I think is right and viewed by the society and people.

The most important thing that I view about friends is this:

"You cannot be friends with everybody, it is better you take good care of yourself."

Indeed, it doesn't calls us to be selfish and be alone. No, it calls us to know that sometimes, "friends" are like a name given, too often too lightly. There are times when we just have to know that to stay away, not to get too close and not to force a friendship. Friendship is like something that happens naturally. We don't have to force ourselves to go and pursue a friendship when we feel uncomfortable and uneasy to. Yes, we can still call each other friends, what I mean is close friends, people that we often go out with, mingle with, encounter with etc etc.

Imagine if each of us tries to go out there and fish for friends. Gosh! We will be making tons of mistakes, mixing with the wrong people, getting influence by their negative way of life, getting push around, taking on bad habits etc. "It is wise to choose a friend, for a good one seldom comes by..." Always know what are your stands, principals, and your view on life. Always find common ground...

So how do we know when me and the other can be close friends? Well, simple. Just ask him or her, hey wanna have lunch together? Take down his/her number and go when both are free. Remember one rule though, never go out with him/her if you feel uncomfortable doing so...Still going on a couple of times, sometimes does change things. And who knows both of you might click just well.

Another thing is, not everyone can be closely connected to you. Getting too close is a risk too. That's when things such as getting sick and tired of the person usually occurs. So know when and which friend that you can really get close to. Read his/her body language, expression, and the way he/she communicates with you...

Remember, let it go natural. Conversations are very important in friendships. Actions and what you do is important too. So, if you behave well, leave a good impression, and make the person feel please, there will be some other time he/she will get back to you.

Another thing. Try never to mingle romance and friendship together. They are two very different things. A guy, mixing with a girl, is not a light thing to fool around with. Yes, going out as a group most of the time wont have any negative impact, it's when we go out one on one. Isn't that call dating? So if you aren't sure, don't try that, never play around with each other hearts.

So what if you mixed with a "bad" friend. Ok not too much to the extreme...Someone that you just can't tolerate, or feel fed up with, or just someone you can't bear to see, or even talk to sometime. Sometimes this can happen in the beginning of a friendship. That's when you have to accept and move on, more like giving each other some space. Malaysian culture is, giving tons of excuse of going out, got work to do, busy etc. That's good actually. Rather than forcing yourself in the end getting hurt or just feeling weird, out of place.

Remember, "each person is different". We are brought up in diffrent manners, diffrent ways, and all of us see life in many diffrent viewpoints. So learn to find someone you can "click" with. Now that's important.

The meaning of the word "friend" on Oxford dictionary:

friend
· n.
1 a person with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, typically one exclusive of sexual or family relations. Ø used in polite address to an acquaintance or stranger.
2 a familiar or helpful thing.
3 a person who supports a particular cause or organization: the Friends of the Welsh National Opera.
4 (in battle) an ally.
5 (Friend) a member of the Religious Society of Friends; a Quaker.
· v. archaic befriend.
– PHRASES be (or make) friends with be (or become) on friendly terms with. a friend at court a person in a position to use their influence on one’s behalf.
– DERIVATIVES friendless adj. friendship n.
– ORIGIN OE frUond, of Gmc origin; rel. to free.

Most importantly, always remember, take good care of yourself. And as a Christian, there is no other greater and closer friend than Jesus. Even if a person is without even a single friend in his life, he will always have Him.

"Jesus will always be your best friend, no matter what happens in your life."

K the end of the philosophy about friendship. That's how I view it.

Comments are always welcome...

Merdeka Blast

Yup, here are the pics from Merdeka Eve... thanks Vic for one of the dinner pics and Khalil as well. It was the best Merdeka celebration I ever had. The fireworks at Pyramid was wonderful.

K now, back to reading the journals *sweat.

To Malaysia:

Happy Merdeka!

Take care you all. Sending my warmest regards to all in their studies and work. Ciaoz.

About me

Darn, how I hate to be always ridiculed and rejected always. I can take jokes, but sometimes inside of me just wana burst and say:"Enough of teasing me!!". Hey no offence here, it's just how I feel inside. Yesterday, I almost cried, as the deepest part inside of me feels vulnerable. Yet, I pray hard that these won't effect me too much. I felt better after that...

I have that soft side inside of me, people usually don't take me seriously...maybe coz I always laugh a lot and indulge in jokes. I am an easy target too, when people know about it, that's when I become an easy target for them, to be make fun of, laughed at, teased at...

Sometimes I burst, pretty bad...when I do, I cry, I stay away, I just sort of like ignore and try not to get close with that person. When I'm quiet after a joke is thrown at me, is one of the signs of it.

People can't seem to get the message. So after that they ask:"Why David? why are you so quiet?". Well that's me. I am a human too, with feelings, emotions, and a soft side, like everyone. That's why I learn, to only be with friends who I find comfortable to be with. I don't really fancy going out with a group of friends, I hate it when they make fun of me, like a soft toy. I feel insecure...

One day, I hope to be respected by others, to be taken seriously. Not too serious, just the right amount of seriousness and laughter. Too much of both is no good for a person.

To my close friends out there, I wrote this is not to provoke you, but rather to tell you how I feel inside, for you to better understand me.

Days to remember. The rise of Switchfoot.

I wonder why shits happens, well sometimes they happen for a reason. The few days back have leave a silent mark in my life. Something about me just stirs me to change. To change for the better. To speak less, make less mistake. To take care of the feelings of others. To be concern about how others feel, rather than always trying to feel good, to laugh for no reasons. I look at myself, staring hard at my faults, and all my faults are right there in front of me, like rubbish that needs to be clean up. I'm bringing in the whole truck to get rid of the rubbish. It's time to take care of my words, each words that might mean so much to a person. Each action that might spark controversy, hatred, unforgiveness, insult etc.

"A man who speak quickly is off to destroy himself..."

Got that from somewhere, so indeed will make much effort to take care of my words.

It's hard to change a person. It's even harder to change yourself. It takes time and effort. But I have changed in the past. So I must change this time.

Ok back to some other less saddening story...

SWITCHFOOT? Anyone? I'm hooked to it.





For more info go to www.switchfoot.com

A little bit of info, they used to be a full christian band, yet after they became famous coz of the latest Spider Man OST hit, they turn towards more contemporary songs. More for the public, yet without losing their essense of positiveness and secret lyrics about their faith. Easy for us Christians to see what they're trying to convey, but non christians can interpret it as other meanings, making their songs much more flexible than before. Rather than having it sold only on Christian bookstores, it is now sold everywhere in every music department. Good music, positive lyrics, bearing witness to God as well, in a more acceptable way to the audience.

Good try Switchfoot! Your latest album Nothing is Sound, is great! Keep it up.

Here's a lyric of my favourite, from the album, Nothing is Sound, call The Setting Sun

The Setting Sun
by Switchfoot

Hey!
(Hey, hey,)

Yeah, Yeah (Yeah!)

Yeah, Yeah (Yeah!)

I've got a wound that doesn't heal,
Burning out again,
Burning out again

I've not sure which of me is real,
And I'm alone again,
Burning out again

My hope runs underneath it all,
The day that I'll be home

It won't be long, I belong,
Somewhere past the setting sun

Find me free, find me strong,
Somewhere back where I belong

Yeah, Yeah, (Yeah!)
Yeah, Yeah, (Yeah!)

Something shared with me again,
But I'm not buying it,
I'm not buying it

My wound goes deeper than the skin,
There's no hiding it,
So I'm not trying it

My hope runs underneath it all,
The day that I'll be home,

It won't be long, I belong,
Somewhere past the setting sun,
Find me free, find me strong,
Somewhere back where I belong

Yeah, Yeah, (Somewhere past the setting sun!)

Yeah, Yeah, (Yeah!)

Yeah, Yeah, (Going back where we belong!)

Yeah, Yeah, (I'll find you,)
(The setting sun!)

Let the weak say I am strong, and it won't be long,
Let the rat say I was wrong, and it won't be wrong,
Let us find where we belong,
Beyond the setting sun,
Beyond the setting sun

Yeah, Yeah,

It won't be long, I belong,
Somewhere past the setting sun,
Find me free, find me strong,
Somewhere back where I belong

Yeah, Yeah (Yeah, Yeah!)

Yeah, Yeah (Yeah, Yeah!)

While from the old album, Twenty-Four

Twenty-Four
by Switchfoot

Twenty-four oceans
Twenty-four skies
Twenty-four failures
And twenty-four tries
Twenty-four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
With twenty-four drop outs
At the end of the day

Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty-four hours ago
Still I'm singing
'Spirit, take me up in arms with You'
And I'm not who I thought I was
Twenty-four hours ago
Still I'm singing
'Spirit, take me up in arms with You'

There's twenty-four reasons
To admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses
Still twenty-four strong

See, I'm not copping out
Not copping out
Not copping out
When you're raising the dead in me

Oh, oh
I am the second man
Oh, oh
I am the second man now
Oh, I am the second man now
And you're raising these...

Twenty-four voices
With twenty-four hearts
All of my symphonies
In twenty-four parts
But I want to be one today
Centered and true
I'm singing
'Spirit take me up in arms with You'
You're raising the dead in me

Oh, oh
I am the second man
Oh, oh
I am the second man now
Oh I am the second man now
And you're raising the dead in me
Yeah

I wanna see miracles
To see the world change
Wrestled the angel for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause I'm singing
'Spirit, take me up in arms with You'
And you're raising the dead in me

Twenty-four oceans
With twenty-four hearts
All of my symphonies
With twenty-four parts
Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty-four hours ago
Still I'm singing
'Spirit, take me up in arms with You'
I'm not copping out
Not copping out

Can't find the MIDI version though, sadly. Well if I do will post it up here...

Now back to my third year revision.

Ciaoz.

A poem about friendship

Friends

Friendships are like a journey,
We travel together side by side,
To comfort, ease and help each other.
I once believe that all friendships can last forever,
Well how wrong could I be,
Indeed some friends would one day be gone,
Into their own roads that each has chosen.
Yet, I believe close friends last forever,
They are like pearls that you will never...
ever find another...
Each is diffrent,
Each is a treasure...
I have so far in my life,
Only found a handful of them,
And yet I treasure each of them,
As I know I can never ever replace them.
I would rather lose all friends,
And only have them with me...
For they are something as important,
As my own dear family members...
What is friendship?
Friendship is about a relationship with the other...
A relationship that calls us,
"Not to love the perfect person,
but to love the imperfect person perfectly."
It is about two persons accepting each other,
And loving each other without seeing the other persons faults,
weaknesses, race, religion, culture etc...
I would rather not lose a friend,
Even if it means that he is wrong,
And I say the first words of apology to him.
Friendship is not relationship,
Where two person constantly face each other,
Rather, friendship is about walking side by side...

Together into the light in front of us.
How beautiful are such friendships,
Which are genuine, long lasting and true.
Will we ever find such friendships?
Indeed if we try hard enough,
And make ourselves lovable and acceptable to others,
I'm sure we all will never live,
To have no friends in our life,
But rather a life full of interesting friends,
Who wil be in our memories always.

~The End~

Sorry

Just here to say sorry to Ben. I lost my cool. And I do admit what you said is right.

Will be on my way to change the bad things that you have written about me there in your blog. You're right, I myself know myself better than anyone else, and it is my fault really. Thanks for telling me those things from your heart.

That's what I really need, people to tell me and to let me know my faults. I appreciate it.

I'm not perfect, and certainly I do have many flaws, even sometimes me myself failing to see it when it appears so many times, espcially when I am with you guys, my close pals.

I have been blinded by my own self, my own pride, vanity and selfishness. I vow to change, no matter what, these flaws that have gain a stronghold in my life.

Thanks for telling me Ben. I know I have been a a-hole, weirdo, lamenoid whatever you call it. You do know my condition rite? Well, it's time I stop taking that as an excuse and change myself, stop acting stupid, lame and trying to be funny.

Sorry for that post. It was stupid.

Well that's all I have to say, well even if from now on we dont speak, I don't blame you. I deserve it. This is my second crisis with a friend, a close friend who later avoided each other. That's it for me, a huge change coming over myself and attitude.

Off to my bed now, and off to a new start, a new leaf.

What's wrong with these people?

Why? What's wrong with them? Can't they forgive small mistakes that people make? Why must they see every thing as if it is important?

Take yesterday, I used to go out with two of my close friends, and one of them just pissed me off real hard. I mean, did I did something that wrong to deserve this? To deserve guilt? Come on, it's just dota, and he says he will only gimme once more chance left and also with his middle finger. Gosh!! Such vanity. Can't he just look it as some small game? Why, just because I took over his place during dota and said "even dave here also cannot help liao". It's just one sentence. And this friend also, the one that went out with us, can't he just not repeat the thing again? Why must he says "You sold my back off dave". Wtf? Just a game, well can't they admit they are noobs in dota? I used to admit myself as one, why can't I now tell the others that he is a noob? Is that wrong? To speak the truth that doesn't hurt? Or does it? So? What so great if you are otherwise? Or noob? Does it make a diffrence in real life? Just a game come on...

I didn't speak with him after that, he was even rude enough to throw leaf at me that he picked up from a tree. I was still polite enough to say "don't la...". Man enuff! I had enough tolerating with such people, who they think they are? Datuk son is it? Even datuk son also I don't give a fu*k...

Well, I will wait for him to talk to me first, no more that goodie goodie friend who always talks even when I know I'm innocent. And no more dinner with him, even if he's my roomate. Who the hell cares? They both can eat alone from now on...

A morale I learn in life, sometimes people are just too serious, and if they can't take such small jokes or mistakes, that we as human at this age constantly make, then forget about making friends with me, I dislike such people, I call them SENSITIVE, OVER SENSITIVE, hear me?

This is the fourth time such an incident occured between me and him, and no more another, even if he gives me a chance, who is he to give chances? God?

That's it, I'm pissed, and my close friends know me well enough when someone crosses my borders...THEY ARE CONSIDERED DEAD AS A FRIEND TO ME.

Period. Peace-out.

3rd year is the toughest time in my life here in Sunway

It's so hard, I'm barely breathing now, holding on to the rope that would continue to carry me to the other side, the side where I would one day graduate and obtain my degree. I'm struggling, for a good cause. I must pass through this, no matter what, no matter how, no matter what it takes. It is not called third year for no reason, it is tough, tougher than what I expected, but it's worth it, it's my passport to a better future.

God, help me now through my struggles, I need you more than anything now, especially in managing my time. Gimme the strenght that I need to go through this challenging times.

Reminds me of this picture:





















Lol. Simpson, ha-ha. That lighten me up a bit there.

Gosh, I have so so much things to do within this term, 3 months time is much less thatn what is truly needed for us. Sooooooo short!!! Sigh, how I wish this will end quickly.

Wish me luck, let's hope I can get through this...

Allrite, for the bright side, putting studies aside, yah! I am now officially a Chelsea supporter. Yee-haw, wil be reading up more about them...

CG tomorrow, and will be pretty busy setting up the annual mass for Saturday starting tomorrow. Let us all from LOTN hope it will turn up great!!

Here's the flyer:



That's all folks! ;)

Getting ready up for my studies...

Things to do today:
1.Go for lunch
2.Going to library, spending at least 2 hours there looking for journals(required for final year project)
3.Coming back, maybe some DoTA with my roomie Roy
4.Off to swimming
5.Going for dinner
6.Revising my studies, reading through the printed notes
7.DoTA, anyone? lolz

Seems like an interesting day. DoTA has become the part of many lives here in Sunway Apartment-Condo.

Listening to Switchfoot, which was recommended by Roy, had no idea who they were previously. Nice album, Christian band who proclaim Jesus silently in the music, making it more suitable for the public.













Seem to have a bit of a problem with Ben, maybe I should treat him more seriously, he seems to dislike me this day, maybe for my "craziness" in the hostel sometimes, can't help it as sometimes I do act funny, lol. Well, have to learn that some people can't take such jokes or fun, and rather they would look at you as weird, so it's time to grow up and these things behind, time to be a man rather than a kid, which is what Roy and Ben said I am all the time. Well, they're both my closest friend around, not to forget Khalil too of course...

Aiight, going to lunch soon I guess with Roy, see ya peeps!

Internet connection sucks

Have not been updating coz the connection here in the hostel is way too laggy.

So what happened? Nothing much. Weekend was about staying back playing Dota and going to pyramid with my friend Roy. After which on Sunday we went to watch Chelsea vs Arsenal game. It was exciting, and Chelsea won by a lucky and suprising goal. The crowds were really into the game at Jaafar.

Not to forget having a few glimpse of my friend Ben watching Hillsong's live concert on CD. I wonder when can we Catholics become as such, answer seems to be "never". They are so lively are so into the praise and worship, and it is really good indeed.

^Hillsong's Concert

I'm thinking of supporting a club, either Chelsea or Arsenal. I'm not into Man U, too many are into it. Need to do some research I guess.

Going to class soon at 9.30am. All of my classes this term are only in the morning, but Miss Sherly my co-ordinator has said it's gonna be tough although we only take 3 subjects in UoP this term. Yet, I'm up to the challenge, the Lord will bless me with his abundant providence to preservere through this.

That's all for now. Ciaoz.

I am up for the challenge in UoP

My final year is here, and after much discussion with my parents, sister and also my friends, not forgetting the seniors, I have finally decided to go for University of Portsmouth Business Information Major. It's just not safe for me to enter some local college degree, known as E-Business offered by SYUC(Sunway University College).

Yet, the lecturers and Sherly, the co-ordinator was encouraging us to take e-business. They were like trying to market some sort of product to us. I feel like they were trying to brainwash us into buying this concept of E-Business, which is offered to us BIS students. The problem is...very critical actually. You see, E-Business is only implimented this year. And we do not have any graduates from it yet. If it were to have started like 5 years ago, I wouldn't mind joining it as I could use my seniors as reference, asking questions such as are they able to secure a good job.

It's not a small matter. It's the future, my future and the investment which my parents will make. I am just not to sure of taking up e-business. It is sort of unconvincing for me. What if we as the first batch of students can't find any jobs in big companies later on coz they don't recognize the certificate. What if they ask questions like:"What is this E-business offered by SYUC? I have never heard of it before." What am I gonna asnwer them to convince them that this certificate is approved and well known? I know it is LAN accredited and approved. But spending like more than RM40K at least for this degree is not something to fool around with.

I have make my stand. And will not waver. I rather resit and resit to complete this than going something that I'm not sure with. UoP failure rate is high, but to who all this failure happens to? Students that have not put enough effort to it of course, period.

Wishing all my luck and blessings on all UoP students and all taking it this term. Work hard and never say you'll fail. Even if you do, do not give up but keep trying.

That's all.

a day to remember in Sungai Wang Plaza

Omg, I overspent like till RM80 just gone in a day. What am I gonna do?? Arggghhhh...

Darn, have to start saving for this two weeks. Spending too much will make my mum kill me...

That's all. Good nitez. Short entry here, lol.

A story that goes out to a friend

What is chatting? Online chatting? Do people view it seriously? Is it like a phone number that you exchanged between two persons? N-O-O...those people that said that are from "old school". Hear me?? You are so off your time gal, go update yourself.

The story goes like this:
This friend came into my room and said he wanted to intro this UK girl to me so he typed her address into my msn so he added her la. I was reluctant, but he hesitated, so no choice, fine...Then I started chatting with her, and she was like shocked to see how I got her address. So this friend asked me to lie, say:"He went out, I came into his room and saw his comp on, so I added your address." So ok, I did what he said. And she was like pissed and already showing disinterest in talking to me. So she even told me she was busy chatting with a friend(bullshit).

So next, this friend told me to tell her he came back and immediately she ask him to talk to her on MSN. So I played along and they chatted. I was waiting so long for her reply, and then I went to his comp(his room outside) and read things which really hurt me, "Don't do that again! Don't let other people add me!" and "If he was so sneaky to do that to you, what else is he hiding?".

Fine! I was really pissed. I went to my comp and explained everything in TRUTH to her. And damm, it didn't get better, she just freak out even more with all the "!" and was trying to show like "Oh, I'm a celebrity, how did you get my contact??!!". Fine! I just wanna be friends for my roomate's sake and she even told me "I am just hearing stories from both sides!". And This roomate, who wanted to end it, did something really stupid which was blocking and then deleting her from my MSN contact. He has more strenght and was really forceful, grabbing my hand and took over the mouse and keyboard and did it, without giving us more time of developing a friendship, so FINE! Delete her, like I care! Go shove your strenght somewhere whey!!! You think you are stronger so you always use force is it???

Done. That is the story. And I don't care a damm of what is going to happen between three of us. Because of some !#$#%^ brainless women whom I trusted him coz he said "she is pretty" and stuff. So you be the judge, and tell me who is wrong.

It's a place to make online friends too, even those you haven't met before. So what if you don't like the person? You just freaking block him or her and just delete the !~#!#$% contact lar!!! Common sense rite? But some people are just soooo conservative....like I said: OLD SCHOOL.

These people should get a life. They are just people who don't know what a MSN Messenger can do. IT-illiterate.

Yup I'm angry. Very...

Incomplete- Backstreet Boys

"Incomplete"- Backstreet Boys
(midi running on background)

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew youI’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all
I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my babyIt’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I’ve tried to go on like
I never knew youI’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I’ve tried to go on like
I never knew youI’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Incomplete

Sunday...

Sunday, a day to remember

Sunday, it comes and it goes. Next moment will be Monday, worst day of the week.

Darn, I hate Mondays. It sucks.

^Reason why Garfield hates Monday

Classes start tomorrow, third year degree. I am doomed to face it, no more running, it is unescapable. I am doom, doom to face the toughest moment in college.

Am I scaring myself? Nopez. It is the fact...I must put all the effort and time into it. God will help me, and I'm sure I can go through it.

I need that someone, I wonder where is she? Will we meet someday? Again this question haunts me...I am not desperate, it's that longing for a partner in life. Yet I will be patient till the end, the line is in front of me, I know I am going to reach it soon, when? I have no idea, God only knows.

I feel I'm getting older. And as I do, thoughts of getting a job and obtaining a degree is like ever reminding. And as well as getting a girlfriend. Darn, can I please stop it. Just stop. Period. I always tell myself that, when I am going after a girl. I have priorities, and I had enough of damaging friendships, scaring a girl away, growing distant with them, just because? Simple, telling that I love them. Well now I understand why..STOP BEING THE HUNTER. Girls are just afraid of guys who get to desperate over them. If things don't work, no matter you put how much effort into it, it just won't.

But I'm not giving up on love. I still have a long way. I'm still young. 20 years is "young" for a man. Have faith in myself.

Sad entry, but true feelings from my heart.

Guess that makes my post.

Yesterday's CG was great!

Three words: It was great.

That are the words to describe it.

Well, I read a friend of mine who described the cg meeting last night...and I don't blame her for writing such things. I was once a newbie there at the cg in LOTN. But, I slowly learn not to get into the group, but rather, to accept them adn myself in it. And getting into the group is not important, it is about serving the Lord.

Naturally, after a few months journeying with Elsie, Ella, Meity, Kenneth, Prita, and also the others, I got to know them really well, especially Kenneth. More members came in, and our cg multiplied into the multitudes, from a handful of less than 7 people growing into the enourmous amount of more than 30 people in LOTN(Light of the Nations). Extraordinary people came in, and I really thank God for these people. People such as Julius, Surya, Esther, Jo, and not forgetting the others which I my mind can't seem to cross now. They are commited leaders of LOTN. Our cg is still growing, and we need such people to shepherd the sheeps. True we are all leaders, but sometimes there is a need to appoint servants that would be the leader, yet serving most as well. I might be one some day, if it is by God's providence.

I am glad to be part of it, even when the majority are Indonesians. We are one big family regarding the diffrence of race and origin. They are mostly nice people. Just that sometimes I don't understand what they speak, still learning, still learning... :p

Alrite, about yesterday's cg, it was something diffrent, we had an awesome but diffrent sort of praise and worship, something personal, intimate with God. We sang hymms and rather simple songs which really touches the core of our hearts. Rather the the normal songs that are chosen, it was great to have something diffrent, but rather interesting...

God bless our Light of the Nations! Cheers...

Lifeline's website(LOTN is part of Lifelife-College and Young Adults Ministry)

"And he saith unto them, Follow me, and I will make
you fishers of
men."
Matt:4:19

Today- Saturday
Woke up on hour ago, and well I finally
had some gooood rest. And to Janice! Sorry, I can't change the
template anymore, or all of my codes will be gone...hehe such a coincidence both
of us are using the same template. I like the lighthouse concept, which reembles
some sort of house/hut, somewhat suits the name Dave's Boulevard.

Listening to the radio these past few days. Hehe was smart enough open
my foldable table which I have left aside to put it on top of it. Now it's
working fine. Have some portal to the outside world now, rather than listening
to those pirated MP3s and WAV files. Radio and music definately, rules.

I miss the TV, yet I love the fact I'm abstaining from it, saving me so
much time. But now I have another temptation, the computer!!! Argghh, it is one
huge big piece of something as delicious as ice-cream in front of me!!! Lol.
Nah, as long I don't surf or play games too much. Hehe...

Ok now, gotta
check my mails, do my stuff and well, what else is there to do, than thise huge
piece of ice-cream in front of me? Heh, indulge in it! haha...before my classes
starts that is...

Wow, one long blog, omg omg...

Speed of Sound

Coldplay- Speed of Sound (midi version- background)

Here's the link to download:

http://mp3.elizov.com/get.php?song=30063

Speed of Sound- Coldplay

How long before I get in
Before it starts before I begin
How long before you decide or
Before I know what it feels like
Where to, where do i go?
If you never try then you'll never know
How long do i have to climb
Up on the side of this mountain of mine

Look up, I look up at night
Planets are moving at the speed of light
Climb up, up in the trees
Every chance that you get is a chance you seize
How long am I gonna stand
With my head stuck under the sand
I start before I can stop or
Before I see things the right way up

All that noise and all that sound
All those places I have found
And birds go flying at the speed of sound
To show ya how it all began
Birds came flyin from the underground
If you could see it then you'd understand

Ideas that you'll never find
All the inventors could never design
The buildings that you put up
Japan and China all lit up
A sign that I couldn't reador a light, that I couldn't see
Some things you have to believe
When others are puzzles, puzzlin me

All that noise and all that sound
All those places I have found
And birds go flying at the speed of sound
To show ya how it all began
Birds came flyin from the underground
If you could see it then you'd understand
Oh when you see it then you'll understand

All those signs I knew what they meant
Somethings you can't invent
Some get made, and some get sent
Earth's gone flying at the speed of sound
To show ya how it all began
Birds came flyin from the underground
If you could see it then you'd understand
Oh when you see it then you'll understand

Boooooored.

I need Sunway, life here is....

Ok imagine this...

You have everything, food, money, house etc....

But you lack one thing...

F-R-I-E-N-D-S

Gawwwwwd, I need to go back...save me....

All my friends here have flew everywhere, you name it and they are there...UKM, MMU, Taylors, blah blah...

I miss them, I need them to kill my boredom here...

I am soooo bored and out of good books to read till I had to read "Cathechism of the Catholic Church". Can u imagine? Hehe but it's a good read, deep, complicated, but interesting, nice, just what I need....

After finishing the dating books, learned a lot...well conclusion after reading:
I AM NOT READY FOR A RELATIONSHIP

And if I do go for it, consequences well...you know and I know...:p Financial, parents, time, studies...everyday things a "student" need to face in a relationship.


My mum always tell me these:

"Patience will pay you back one day..."

"When you work, then find one..."

"Relationships don't last when you are studying, even if they do, it is rare..."

True, will hold on to these words...

Life as it is

Life

Life is inspiring, exciting, beautiful,
And awesome as well,
God in all His wisdom,
Created something as wonderful as Life,
Truly in all his magnificence,
He created it for a reason,
That is to share His love with us,
Not only to multiply and spread and to subdue the earth,
But as well as to love him for who he is.
Yet,
Sadly man have gone to the extremes,
Destroying Life,
And not returning it back...
Countless lives...
Suffering in pain, poverty and hunger...
Why?
'Coz we forgot about the Creator,
Who created all things,
Because He love us...
If we just take the time,
To think of Him in each of our actions,
plans, thoughts and desires,
Then this world would be a better place to live in.
But it's not too late,
To fear Him and to do good,
Even as one person,
It is good enough...
For it is not how much we do,
But it is how much effort and intentions we put to it...
The End.

*A dedication to Mother Earth.

Day is Saturday...seems like I'm losing track of time...

Feel like life is moving faster than a river, more like pipe water being wasted away. Still I enjoy every moment of my holiday, espcially being with my mum. She is sweeet and have cooked up lots of delicious meals even though I'm having a bad toothache. Darn, I didn't know what I ate to deserve this. Pain on my left inner side of my jaw, which makes me feel like crying each time I chew my food. T.T

Going for my 2nd appoinment with my dentist, who told me I have to remove my wisdom tooth, or the pain will continue to persist. Oh God, just remove it and ease my terrible terrible pain...

Nothing much to write...except for the tooth incident, darn it will cost my mum RM 245 dollars just to remove it. *sweat.

Here is a cute pic to remind me of the dentist:



And a scarry one too, omg omg...:




Lol...that is scary...Do pray for me for the appoinment with the dentist. Let's hope everything will run well, or I'm gonna shout :"Heeeeeeeeeelp!!!"

Alios ;)