Dave's Boulevard

Why I chose Windows 32-bit over 64-bit

2011-09-18T12:12:00.004+08:00

First off... alot of people would say Windows 64-bit is better than 32-bit, b*llshit! Don't ever listen to them till you've tried out both yourself.

Here's a witness to the things that happened when I was using 64-bit for a period of 1 year:

1. many drivers caused blue screen when in used with Win 64. Most common was keyboard, audio, graphics, and network. How I know? I sense it e.g. when repairing network connection, the computer crashes! (you could know more by installing Microsoft's Debugging tool - which I gave up as I even had issues downloading it from Microsoft site! - around 500MB or so for the whole thing -_-)

2. Sudden BSOD crashes, especially when I started browsing FB heavily using either Firefox or Chrome. I notice starting Adobe Flash apps in the web (mostly FB games and photos will use this) will cause BSOD very easily during the intial startup.

3. The blue screen was so frequent, there was several times it caused my Windows to actually run start-up repair due to corrupting the start up files. Other occasions were causing bad sectors to my hard disk. Luckily I had a program in hand to clean such bad sectors.
4. It was slower than the 32-bit, due to the fact 64-bit programs had higher encryption, security, which also means a longer code to create and produce an app. As written here:
http://zone.ni.com/devzone/cda/tut/p/id/5709#toc4
"Performance and Virtualization

64-bit versions of operating systems such as Windows Vista and Windows 7 are not automatically faster than their 32-bit counterparts. In some cases, they may even perform slower because of the larger pointers as well unrelated OS overhead. Overall, an application’s performance depends on what it is used for and how it is implemented. Emulated applications running within the Windows on Windows (WOW) 64 layer (discussed in more detail later in this article) will not be able to address any more memory than they could on a 32-bit system."

5. I had a much better time using 32-bit. After reformatting since last month, things have been much better, not a single blue screen, and well over the top performance.

My PC specs:

With the above processor and RAM mentioned, I do not need 64-bit, as I do not run some office apps or work apps that would ever require 64-bit OS. Games run smoothly with 32-bit and I do not need a #@%^ windows that is "said" to be faster yet dissapoints at every level (64 bit)

Yes, the difference is so much obvious that it triggered me to write a blog post about it. It's a personal testimony that I'm sure you could find others on the web as well.

A story - How much before it's enough?

2011-08-28T15:22:00.000+08:00

An American investment banker was at the pier of a small coastal Mexican village when a small boat with just one fisherman docked.

Inside the small boat were several large yellow fin tuna. The American complimented the Mexican on the quality of his fish and asked how long it took to catch them.

The Mexican replied, "Only a little while."

The American then asked, "Why didn't you stay out longer and catch more fish?"

The Mexican said, "With this I have more than enough to support my family's needs."

The American then asked, "But what do you do with the rest of your time?"

The Mexican fisherman said, "I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, take siesta with my wife, Maria, stroll into the village each evening where I sip wine and play guitar with my amigos, I have a full and busy life."

The American scoffed, "I am a Harvard MBA and could help you. You should spend more time fishing; and with the proceeds, buy a bigger boat: With the proceeds from the bigger boat you could buy several boats. Eventually you would have a fleet of fishing boats. Instead of selling your catch to a middleman you would sell directly to the processor; eventually opening your own cannery. You would control the product, processing and distribution. You would need to leave this small coastal fishing village and move to Mexico City, then Los Angeles and eventually New York where you will run your ever-expanding enterprise."

The Mexican fisherman asked, "But, how long will this all take?"

To which the American replied, "15 to 20 years."

"But what then?" asked the Mexican.

The American laughed and said that's the best part. "When the time is right you would announce an IPO and sell your company stock to the public and become very rich, you would make millions."

"Millions?...Then what?"

The American said, "Then you would retire. Move to a small coastal fishing village where you would sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, take siesta with your wife, stroll to the village in the evenings where you could sip wine and play your guitar with your amigos."

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Got the above story from someone's FB comment... it blew my mind away.. yet it sounds rather true, don't you think so?

Captain America - The First Avenger

2011-08-02T20:40:00.002+08:00

All right here goes, a lengthy review on the movie (did this before just that it's been ages since the last one).

Captain America - The First Avenger
(click on each of the pic to enlarge)

It was a good experience. But still not as good as X-Men: First Class which blew our seats off with its superb storytelling, catchy special effects, direction of film, costume etc... that was truly a 10/10 film.

And after Thor came Captain America. A movie which speaks little of what mankind is nowadays: Selfless, Integrity, Strong Moral Values, Compassion, Value of Other's Life, and others.

That is what makes Captain America. He ain't a snobbish at all like Tony Stark a.k.a Iron Man or a Prideful Hero/Prince - Thor (he was prideful till being taught a lesson by his father Odin)

[Spoilers:]
Captain America started off as nothing. Born as Steve Rodgers, a frail young man who was rejected 4 times to join WW2 as a soldier. And somehow fate made him meet up with a scientist named Erskine, a creator of the Super Soldier Serum, who finally gave Steve a rare chance to enter the academy. Steve Rodgers was given the green light to be included as the first of the test of the serum, which produced what we know as Captain America. You'd be asking, hmmm that would means many version of him right? Sadly Erskine was murdered right after he delivered the results on Steve Rodgers. Every last remaining hope or sample of producing another was all gone too.

That is when you would see how a young man who was constantly bullied and beaten up would stand against the world's evils and come to bring justice to those who need it. That is what Captain America stands for. Like how Dr. Erskine would say it none the better: "Why someone weak? Because a weak man knows the value of strength, the value of power..."

What follows would be how he'd go all the way to the Hydra's fortress and saving his fallen comrades, forming a team and going to everywhere to wipe up that Nazi extremists group.

The ending is a jaw dropper since you'd see how Captain America woke up 70 years later in the future!!
(this part also gives me the hope of better Capt America uniform since his current one.. urm.. seems quite awkward.)

[spoilers end =p ]

Bring your kids to watch this movie, it would teach them of many great values...

And be sure to stay back for the ending credits (which takes quite some time to finish) for the most awesome trailer that you'd see.... The Avengers!! Assembling May 2012. You'd be one of the first to actually see the trailer since it's not even officially out yet.

Would write more on Thor and X-Men: First Class if I have the time. Such great Marvel movies just made me love those comic superheroes even more!! Awesome job Marvel.. awesome job.

How I am Feeling

2011-07-19T01:01:00.002+08:00

Everyday I woke up from bed,
Knowing,
I would need to head to work,
Else,
I would know,
It's my off day.
What's next,
Off to the gym?
Where I tire myself to the brim?
Or on that lame PC and start doing nonsense on it?
Oh how did the PC came to being and ruined everyone's lives?

Or,
Going out, spending time with friends?
Friends that would give you a good time,
And at times give you heartaches as well?
Some have even faded away,
After marriage, working life, or after graduation,
They have became less,
Rare as precious metals,
As some has proven itself to be of cheap steel,
They rusted, and wasted away.
I feel sad as those are the very close friends that I once used to have.

Work,
It becomes repetitive after a while.
Tainted with politics, backstabbing, and all sorts of others,
Which every job out there will surely have.
Which work is something that you would put your everything in like a hobby or leisure?
None, coz it just ain't.
It slowly catches up with you and throws you into a spinning turbine...
And as it catches up speed,
You'll feel dizzy,
Out of breath at times,
Tired, exhausted, sick of it.
Till the machine runs a full cycle and stops.
And guess what? It's been 8 hours of work and it's time to head home!
Ahh that moment...
And before you know it...
You're stuck at the traffic...
The jam so massive you'd cry "why oh why ain't I'm working on some other off peak hour?"
And if you do you would cry otherwise as you will lack a life.

Movies,
Some have been great,
These days most suck.
They suck so bad you'd wanna scream at the movie,
Asking why did it made you spent 2 freaking hours of your life and 13 bucks,
For some piece of shit.
Like working life did not suck you dry of your hours,
And you would need another to take the time away?

People,
People in this country,
The young,
I've seen it all...
Some spoilt, some stubborn, some selfish,
Some full of hatred, some being saddists,
Some being ignorant fools, some being odd so bad till they hurt themselves,
Some being jobless coz of their horrible attitude,
Some driving a big car coz their parents are rich.
All the nonsense.
Why did parents allow such a thing to happen???
Why did it came to my generation and those after??
Why do I have to bear through it all,
Seeing them like this?
And it's sad to know it's affecting our country really bad.
Is it the education system? Shall we blame the goverment?
Seriously I got tired of blaming that.
I just... wish I could dissapear from this forsaken country,
To somewhere that I would really feel I belong to.

That is how I felt, so deep inside...
The hurt...
The hurt especially that came from her,
Of what she said I am,
Still hurts till this very day.
I blame myself for seeing her go that day.
I could not help it.
I ain't suicidal, just a deep scar,
Which has been enwritten in my heart.
Tho I know I have changed to become a better man,
All becoz of her...
Yet that scar will take a long time to heal...

Family,
I'm not even sure if I should even write this,
but I guess a little doesn't hurt.
I just wish,
They would be close...
Why leave mum alone....
Why let me take all the care,
Shoulder to me all the responsibilites.
She's old dammit,
Can't you all spend more time with someone,
Who have pour out so much helping you grow?
What's wrong this these people?
I have tried my best to be a good son.
Really, I've tried,
And still trying,
Sometimes I don't know how much I should do before it's enough.
It's tiring.
I wish I had a brother,
or 2, to help take care of mother,
But it's just not a choice for us to decide.
And my 3rd sister,
Why can't a miracle just cure her??
Why can't she help herself?
Why is it the same every year?

I wish it ain't that complicated,
but it's been like that,
(since Dad was around it has been like that)
yet I know there are others out there much worse than me,
I shall pour all this out this day and pray,
That you God will help me and strengthen me,
Guide me and be my rock.
Help me through these times when I'm feeling so much pain,
So much torment,
Suffering,
Tears that I hold back.
I rarely tell people this much,
But I need to...
To keep myself sane this time.

Thank you for those who cared,
For those whom helped me in times where I was down.
I truly appreciate them.
Without you I would have been torn down,
Torn to pieces by my own emotions,
Been swept away beyond recognition.
You gave me hope to continue,
To continue this journey of life...

Amongst it all,
God is the the solid rock,
that has always been there,
He has been there for me through thick and thin.
Words alone could not describe my relationship with him.
What I went through since young,
You had no idea how much He has helped me.

I pray,
I pray that all this negativity will fade away,
That better days will come,
That I will finally find the meaning,
To it all some day,
To understand why am I on this earth,
What does it really mean to live,
And what I could be some day...

These are the words of how I'm feeling,
The words that I pour out now.

Bersih 2.0 - 9th July 2011

2011-07-12T22:43:00.001+08:00

A lot of stuffs came out in my mind as the date for the said title passed.

It made me a lot prouder to be a Malaysian than ever before.

Seeing that unity being spark by those people that was being oppressed by the police at the streets during the demonstration, gave me the hope that truly we Malaysians still care for each other regardless of race, political belief, religion etc.

When you walk pass the streets seeing another person, regardless they are Chinese, Indians or Malay.. suddenly you felt all the racial sentiments were all being melted away. Coz we finally saw what the current government is capable of, what they showed us on 9th July 2011. How cruel and oppressive they could be. Most of our minds now are united against such a thing. We wanna change, change all these nonsense that is being manipulate d by them in order to secure votes. One of the biggest thing that they always play out well is racial sentiment. And it is clear we are all gonna stand up to that. Not only that, but more people will definitely stand up against their corruption, their abuse of power, their control of the media, oppression of every other voice that is against them (includ. the opposition), lies, and much more. Enough of the 50 years rule. We really had enough this time. It's time to say "Stop, you've governed long enough. It's time for someone else to take over and showed us what you REALLY did to this country. It's time to give the likes of PKR a chance to administer this country. It's time for democracy to really prove itself and make a major change to the current system."

It is a big day for the democracy and Rakyat of Malaysia. We all learnt something that day. We learnt what we Malaysians are truly capable of. We saw with our own two eyes all over the internet what BN is capable of doing and hiding.

It won't be long before this ruling coalition is finally toppled. All of us shall cheer for the victory of freedom and justice at that time.

God bless Malaysia.

Back after all that..

2011-07-09T18:20:00.001+08:00

After all that that have happened recently. Through that recovery, that reflection, I am finally ready to blog again.

It wasn't easy going through to the point of where I am now. Yet, I miss blogging and would love to note down what matters most in my life. I miss the part that it helped me improved my writing, to help me refocus and to understand my thoughts/feelings inside of me, and how it inspires other who read them.

It is time for a reopening of the blog. Not gonna make it grand, just something simple for me to write on. Using Blogger's template and hmm.. it isn't that bad. Looks simple and nice.

Will update when I feel like it. I thank you for taking your time to read. Feel free to jot down any comments that you wish to and I shall reply. Flames and any signs of disrespect shall not be tolerated. Learn to be an adult to express your views even if you're not happy bout something.

I felt I have changed much once more.. and it shall be proven in the coming blog posts.

Cya soon bloggie... =)

Money $$

2011-01-21T17:13:00.003+08:00

I need more Money... damn it.

Tough to find, hard to come by, and yet we need it everyday in our lives. We use it to shop, buy food, get our needs, get a house, a car, and all that sh!t.

Some are filthy rich, some poor like dirt... some have only average.

Why.. Is this world so unfair? Why can't we put like limits on how much one can have, and have the rest of those excess money distributed fairly to others? (sounds like communist I know.. but even communism are more like democratic systems nowadays ==")

Whyyy sooooooo expensive to live in Malaysia? Or is it the same elsewhere?

Dang poor ... I need a raise.. I need my bonus... Arghhh when can I get it?

Seriously.. Najib's administration has been all about increasing this and that (prices.. so screw him I am NEVER voting for BN again, all of them are freaking rich eating our Rakyat's money!!)

I am so so tired.. tired.. of looking for more money. I could, but I know I would lack the commitment to do it now. Starting a business, selling insurance, or whatever network marketing gimmick which all require alot of time, patience and the ability to keep seeking and speaking to people.

It's tough, it ain't easy, when you see people making big buck/side income out of those. I rather.. just focus on what's my best now, my career. I know I might sound lazy, but it just doesn't work for me (at this time of my life). I might restart my attempt again, maybe later at life when I'm so much more desperate for money (imagining myself having kids and a family and money flowing to every corner of our livelihood).

It's not easy, but I gotta try, to aim for the stars, to build myself a castle, to earn my place in this society. By being the man, by being RICH one day. Not only just rich, but filthy rich. Yeah.. that's what I'm talking about....

Answer: Coz money is never enough? LOL.

(disclaimer: haven't read the above book before, yet it seems good, might try it someday)

new year 2011

2011-01-04T17:17:00.008+08:00

Heck, it's the new year already. So fast the time flies... unbelievable.

2010, what a year NOT to remember. Many things happened, and I would rather let it pass as another bad year. Bad because you lost the job in a dream company, bad because relationships and friendships were broken and lost, bad because prices kept shooting up faster than the DAP rocket, bad because I had more commitments to pay to as well, and finally bad because it was another single's year for me.

And now 2011 came, and I wish with this new job, this new year, this new General Election that is coming, we as one Rakyat Malaysia can stand up to make a change. To have more Malaysians joining the Anti BN movement, to say no to the present corrupt government, and to vote consciously as a well-informed citizen.

Ok putting politics aside, as for my personal life, I'm hoping that it will improve... I do see signs of improvement but I am not all that confident yet. Bad times might still come but I seriously hope this year would be better. Somehow I sense this year I wouldn't be in it alone.... Me and her have started something.. but I needed a more concrete and secure feeling before I am to reveal this to the world. (A relationship is NOT something you should be posting up in Facebook till it's really stable.. IMO... FB has been a relationship wrecker in many situations and many times for people =.=)

2011, let's hope it will be a blast. Oh yeah and 2012 is coming... anyone prepared for Nostradamus' prophecies? LOL I decided to put it aside after much research into the subject.. there are some really horrid doubts surrounding the quatrains that were explained by some.

The biggest doubt in regards to Nostradamus' prophecy for 2012:

If you were to read up his actual book in quatrains, you would see that the prophecies aren't arranged in order?
Shouldn't it follow a proper timeline of things to happen? Like at least a proper flow of chapters? Else without the proper time and sequence of things to happen how is anyone were to know each passage were to happen when? All the quatrains are actually jumbled up like a bunch of hair.
I could just point at a quatrain and say it will happen tomorrow? But nobody really knows till it were to happen during that particular time and refer it back to the book?
Nostradamus doesn't specify a time that his writings would occur... there is never any date, year or time for that matter AT ALL in any of his quatrains.

People did decipher his prophecies wrongly before so I'm not rooting for anything till it happens. Hell if the world ends or many would die in some catastrophe, I don't think we could do anything much about it. Let's all just stick around and help each other out by then?

I felt I have grown, into something I am not previously. It is even apparent in this blog post. This is what happens when people grow older I suppose, else we all might just be stuck in a kid's brain and watch everything fall apart. Better, smarter, wiser, stronger... that is what a year older would mean.

Happy 2011!... hope you all have a great one!!

disconnecting my blog to FB (and Merry Xmas post!)

2010-12-25T19:41:00.006+08:00

Decided to throw down the axe today... FB is just too public to allow fresh live streams go to it with every update that I post up.

Was figuring why I had posted so much less, and thus have came to the conclusion that FB had a thing to do with it. (you can actually sync your blog to notes by putting your blog address there) Don't wanna go into details but the fact that it did made me feel insecure posting stuffs up.

Will start updating again, hopefully by doing the above will encourage me to blog more.

Btw, it's 25th December 2010. Year coming to an end soon. Merry Christmas everyone!!

^too many times we forget that Christmas is about Jesus and nothing else. Happy B'day Jesus, thank you for coming into this world and making such a big change outta it. =) ^

yo peeps i've been missing again xD

2010-10-10T00:57:00.004+08:00

Ok ok... i'll try post more often now..

Been on a new job, and guess I didn't had the mood or know what to type.

So latest update is I just got a job at Laureate (which I figure better to announce later since I'm neeeww...)

Laureate is an MNC company, having universities and colleges all around the world. Started with a few people having owned this tuition company which was huge in the US, and grown to such a big capital that they went and invest in buying universities instead... now they have many many institutions all around the world... all making alot of $$. (Education is prized and needed everywhere, especially when it's good tertiary education?). So the end of it was that the Laureate business overtook the tuition business (which was a different name) and ultimately became the core of the company.

(oh wow the wikipedia version of it is sad zz... hope will improve soon: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Laureate_Education)

Currently my job is to support the internal staff globally on whatever IT issues that they have. The part I don't like that much is that we had to process many of the new hires tickets... and they can be like WHOA, THAT MANY? no choice bro... someone have to do it =D *put a smiling face and clean it up* We did brought this up and it's in the process of being automated or made easier... soon, and hopefully...

We're a team of 4 currently, including my manager. So since it's less than a year we're all pioneers and starters of it. Basically me and Tan does most of the ticketing while Luke and Kelvin will be full time with the execs in Inti (the Laureate regional office is based there, our office is not.. our's is somewhere along the shops opposite Asia Cafe).

Yeah, and I got a blackberry for the first time being on the job.. isn't that awesome or wat?

Our company is still "codename" IGT.. which will change soon, hopefully (too)... coz telling ppl u are from IGT is like, "what's IGT?" "what do they do?" yada-yada *yawn*

And hopefully we get parking claims, and our own medical card too, so we can see docs without first needing to pay it... NOT convenient, uh-huuh...

So u see... i'm very careful about what I type above.. ALWAYS be very careful bout what you type in regards to your company, OK? stay outta trouble from legal, HR, your manager and all sorts... ppl can spy when u least know it. Anyhow, u're still working there right? Who pays the bill? Your current company right? So that's why I always ask ppl to STFU and work... if don't like no need to make a big fuss and noise bout it, be wise and prepare to leave silently.

this is the global site:

http://www.laureate.net/

as you can see, this is the amount of institutions they own:

http://www.laureate.net/en/OurNetwork.aspx

"There's a bright future working here... " - always heard that from somewhere... so I'll hang on for the time being and see where this brings me. =)

Good luck and all the best in your careers too =)

Feed not updated to facebook

2010-07-29T09:49:00.002+08:00

posting this and hopefully it pushes the last 2 posts to Facebook.

Updatess...

2010-07-25T00:10:00.006+08:00

Roy Tan migrated to KL (previously he's in Malacca).. and life started changing wahaha...

went out to drinks, shopping, movies and stuff with da dude. He was my roomate last time in Sunway College... and darn have we change through these 3 years haha... still adjusting and fitting with each other. Yet, like what old sayings said, "old friends, tho apart, will still be close coz of the memories together.. even if they'd change they'll still be good friends."

His profile:

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1180481421

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On another hand...

Met someone that I loved... someone that might be real this time. Let's hope so. I wanna disclose more but I feel it's more suitable to do so at a later time. (not as simple as it seems)

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Gonna start new job next month, around 18th... can't wait!!!

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I had a new car few mths back, and I shall officially announce it... guess what car is it? Hehe =P

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Since mum moved up to KL to live, life has been changing for me.. need to adapt to the less privacy that I once had... yet many things are easier for me now with her helping me in housework chores. I love you mum!! thank u for all u do!! (tho she might not hear this coz she's not IT savvy... xD )

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New comp = alot of games being completed @@

just completed a few in my lists, considered it a feat:
1. Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2
2. Transformers: War on Cybertron
3. Age of Wonders 2: Shadow Magic

And now, officially hooked to:
League of Legends (a dota like game, played online, DC-free, free of W3 engine with many heroes, runes, summoner powers to combine with)

http://www.leagueoflegends.com/

My username: MarkXKiller (US server, add me if you're playing too)

Screenshot:

http://riot-web-static.s3.amazonaws.com/media/screens/19.JPG

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Less wastage of money please... Need to have a better budget.

petrol price increase, dammit!! ARGGhhhh like I dont have enough expenditure to bog me down already >.<""""

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End ... phew that was a swift chain of updates! LOL

Time to leave

2010-07-24T22:26:00.009+08:00

I know,

my blog has been dead.

And today you're gonna see a few posts coming from me. All with loads of stuffs which has been happening.

Firstly, the bomb of all news. I am officially leaving Dell. Not coz I chose to, but coz Dell thinks I'm not good enough for it. Can't blame tho, with my lack of experience in Global support, the reason that they hire me was coz they thought I could made it... and plus the support is really critical.

Not much calls actually in my current helpdesk, but once a call comes in for SaaS (Software as a Service), it will blow your mind off, well, if you are unlucky enough to get some really rare/explosive stuff.

And I admit, I am not good enough. I did bring it up... and I did say that given more time I definitely could prove myself. But that was not accepted, I was pressured, and thus, I had to make way for something new in my life. A change of job. I would like to reveal more, but Dell's policy of not allowing anything (posts, facebook etc) that is to undermined its name and brand is something to think of. They could bring you to court.

So.. I will state this. That I've learnt a lot from it. That I've not wasted all of my time. I did grew from it. Yet all i wish was not for me to leave in this way. What to do, sometimes things are just way out of our control. I will learn not to do the same mistakes that I did there (which I didn't realized they were mistakes till it came back at me like a boomerang).

A few key things I've learnt:
1. Never ever trust anyone at work, no matter how close you are (unless you know the person personally outside of work, preferably before you joined the company).

2. Dealing with Western Cultures (a training that I went, was taught by Andrew, a Canadian currently residing in Malaysia for 8 years already)... which shed light on the difference of Malaysia culture and cultures in the US and Europe. What we could do about it and how we could improved.

3. Effective Communication Skills (a course that I thought i knew darn well, due to previously working in Maxis and HP going through the same lesson before... but no.. this is way more deep and detailed and emphasizes on how you talk, your tone, facial expression, to the point of detecting lies and body language.) One important quote I learnt from the trainer: "You do not need to speak loud, but, do speak out, and speak UP... that is when people will listen to what you've said." (Tone, the way you speak, the way you emphasize on the words, is important.)

4. Passion Driven Mindset - this is where we were taught on how to ignite passion in everything that we do. So that we would not grow bored, and know how to manage things in order to succeed. One important story I've learn: "If you were force to eat a live toad, when will you eat it? You have to do it everyday, lest you will be killed by the village chef if you do not do so." Answer: "As early in the morning, once you woke up, you have to do it." Coz it's the best time to do something, that is this hard. When you finish the hardest part of the day, the other chores will seem easier, and it will not bug u down as much as not doing it and have that thought floating in your head. Always start with the toughest chores/tasks, and finishing it with easier things to do near the end of the day.

5. Say good things, and good things only, whenever you are in your company. Never whine, never complain. Coz those things can be used by your colleagues as a weapon to your manager/boss. No matter how you feel, when ppl ask you "How are you feeling working here?" say... "It's good, it's great, i'm proud to be here, this is THE BEST JOB EVAH" Yea, that is the best answer. Really...

6. Double check everything with your boss/manager if you are not sure. If you feel uneasy with a decision, escalate to get confirmation. Before you end up burning your own ass in the oven with your boss the next day.

7. Get the job started fast, swift, and perfect even in the beginning of the job. Never procrastinate, as this could become a reason for them not wanting to confirm you later on. "So far I am not convince with your performance" After the 3rd month is the last thing you wanna hear when you are "begging" for that confirmation.

8. Do not, EVER, sign for a job unless you really UNDERSTAND what the job REQUIRES of you. ASK, ASK plenty about how the job is gonna be, what are they expecting of you, what they want out of you, how's the environment like, how's your own team gonna be like and how they treat newbies, how the US team reacts to working with us Asians. (those salary, bonus, benefits questions are secondary if you can't even survive in it once you start???)

That's all for this post. Guess I've shared a lot of valuable experience here. Use it, coz it's usable anywhere you work. That is what I plan to do, all the lessons I've learnt here, will never be wasted.

Lastly, a short comic to ask yourself before you agree to that job offer:

TO WORK YOUR ASS OFF......

ARE YOU READY FOR THE JOB??

thanks..

2010-06-06T16:33:00.002+08:00

Thanks for all that have celebrated and remembered my birthday (ok tho i know FB has that b'day reminder thing.. yet being this close and wishing me, I really appreciate it)

Thanks to mum for getting me a new spec, lovin' it! been using the previous for 3 years already..

Thanks to Didie, Alex, Mahen and their GFs for going out yest for that movie and awesome dinner! (tho i admit i picked the wrong movie la.. Nanny McPhee was for kids! xD )

I was shocked to see that huge choc cake coming when the TGI Fridays crew came and sing the bday song... a secret recipe choc fudge cake... awesomely big and we only manage to finish half of it xD Super full b'day dinner. The medium-rare steak (best cooking way I feel to eat a steak) was very good, the rest had steaks too or some burger/caesar salad.

Enjoyed it alot with you guys... can actually sit down once more, chat and bincang like some old time friends. Hard to find such colleagues that can click with you so much!

Went to clubbing at Laundry after that. Dinesh joined us (another close ex BAT colleague) and we had parteh!! DJ Fuss was good.. but i sorta felt drowsy and had to excuse myself after that.. (we really ordered a lot of classic cocktails like Long Island and Borneo Knock Out) The music near the end was really too much for me to take (we were sitting near the stage and it was REAL LOUD. Went out twice just to sit by myself to get some peace...

If I weren't working on that day things would be more enjoyable.. half the energy went to work adi.. but still thanks alot buddies! hope for a next outing soon...

And thanks all for the wish at FB and SMS... Hope to keep in touch and may we be friends till the end! :D

boy girl relationship

2010-05-30T12:40:00.003+08:00

Ok here goes.. my so called "analysis" and "hypothesis" on the whole dating landscape in the new century...

I might be wrong.. or right.. in this end it's the readers' call too.. but here are my findings after observing and going through so many...

Dating or a relationship is no longer simple. The definition of simple is when you ask about your parents, auntie, uncle's relationship and found out that, it was just asking one out, getting to know each other, and soon enough they tie the knot.

But these days, many other factors come into play.

First, you have to understand that woman know has access to education as well, one that was considered rare and expensive for either gender, thus man always had more opportunity to go for it. And those times even men are lowly educated. Thus explains why most people just jumped into the mud and get employed without much...

These days, for those after those born after the year 1960s, most have a degree. It was emphasized starting that time that a degree is needed to secure a job and to increase one's value. The difference? totally different for those after that time, very apparent after the 1970s born people...

The affect spiraled to the dating/relationship scene, and as it continues to ripple the effects... u can see now how complicated the "scene" has become.

Another fact is internet explosion... never look down at what this small giant can do... coz it seems so harmless that it's accessible via the pc and mobile.. yet with it knowledge and wisdom and all other human sharing can be found in it. Woman can leverage on what guys know simply by searching and reading. Thus closing the difference in both where nowadays both genders are called to be "equal".

Woman no longer care bout how rich a guy is, how stable he is, how much of material things he has. Yet it is still important, but only to a point. The main thing now is personality/character. Why I said so? Notice why there are guys that still can't find someone while on the other hand, someone with lower achievements yet with a strong "woman-pleasing" character, usually gets the upper hand. (this might offend some ppl for being generalizing, yet know that things are debatable... be open to what I write or don't read at all.) So what's woman-pleasing? It is when a guy is said to be able to understand a woman well, and able to show characteristics that pleases a woman..so much so he doesn't need to do much to get them to like him. Wanna know more.. the only way is to bump into such a guy.. hear 10 girls agree to it, and see for urself why he's special.

Man can no longer just employ his hunting skills as to what he practices eons ago... now they need to focus on sharpening the most important asset... communications & actions. This will ultimately formed his character and personality too. Thoughts will play a role too as with thoughts comes the rest. Habits will make him become who is he if he continues to dwell in them too long. The final product is the "packaged" product of what makes the guy a guy...

So guys, think that you have your wallets full? A credit card, a house? will suffice? No more... This is the new era. The era where women is confident about themselves, have a stable job, a degree and they can stand with their two feet even when they have no men around them... coz all they need is their bunch of friends to help them out and pull them together again. Or they can simply bring their wallets out and go shopping till they drop. (woman now has larger savings than guys too, yet they'd nvr tell a guy how much they have)

So you ask, so how? i'm single now and I can't seem to find anybody, is like it keeps failing and nothing works... There comes another factor which is the age too. As long u have that skill-sets filled to a certain point, you can rest assure with that "not giving up" attitude one day u'll find the right someone. You will understand it when you talk to 2 different age groups of girls, one at 20s-25s and those that are 27s-30s. One age group are not anticipating marriage while the other knows that they need to be there soon...

Girls might get offended by the whole writing, yet I am only typing what I observe, as everyone notices different thing and has a different viewpoint, and above is mine.

For guys, buck up and start honing all the good stuffs u can about urself.. or be prepared to live it out alone and not having anyone at your side.

For ladies, sigh... Is hard to change them.. let them choose to be who they are.. We as men can only advise, yet the ultimate part is when they decided enough is enough and to do the right thing.

That's all from my end.. feel free to blast me and i'll see what I can do to reply..

~end~

back to serious updating

2010-05-27T22:00:00.007+08:00

feeling that my blog is kinda left out... so i'm gonna start update whatever i feel like it without caring what the world thinks.. had enuff of trying to please ppl.

this is MY PERSONAL SPACE and others will not have a chance to say whatever they feel like it as YOU CAN READ IT but WATEVER COMMENTS THAT IS NOT NEEDED i might just as well SHOVE it back to your face, thank u very much.

sorry lost it thr.. just ranting to feel better :)

it's May 2010, so damn fast... mid of the year and I'm stuck here, at this moment in life where many things are happening.

new company, new environment, new job, new people, new friends, everything has just started from ground Zero the day I came here. And I hope all will goes well and for me to keep proving myself here. My capabilities, strengths and any that I can offer to the team and organization.

as back to personal life, I sort of feel drained recently by stuffs that has been going on, some that has left deep impacts in my life. Will not hold too high hopes in things anymore as you might just fall greater from a taller height. Gonna do things in low profile and silent mode, till it is the absolute safe and secure time to reveal it. People can just be destructive with words and comments even when at times they think they are helping. So better rely on self and go through those alone... Stand up and work things out like a man.

Gonna be 25 soon officially... Feeling so old.. like 25? omg when did I reach such an age.. =.=""

Miss many of my friends back in BAT... yet I know I have to hold on and do my best in this job, till the final moment.

A poem

2010-05-11T19:17:00.003+08:00

Dunno why I suddenly had the inspiration to write this.. but here goes:

Life isn't about judging one another, about comparing who's greater.
It ain't about fighting, wars and killing each other...
It's the little things in life people forget about,
The love, the kindness, the sharing, the friendship.

Most ppl think about these days, rather..
Are money, job, reputation and self.

How long more would you wanna live that life?
Or rather would you have the satisfaction out of the life which you live in..
The life where you would feel happy and joyful,
Where even if you have less than others you would still be happy?

The life where people would look up to you,
Respect you, and admire you for who you are..
They thank you for being around them, even as a friend..
They thank you for helping them...
For making their lives more meaningful,
For making yourself meaningful to them,
...when all around them are many that choose to be ignorant, selfish, and proud.

And now, I choose to be that person,
to be daring to be different...
Coz I know there's only one life,
And there's no turning back once it's used up.

I choose the best in life..
And now the question is,
Would you?

Posted it under my profile's bio in Facebook... :)

Wanna write this down here as a remembrance.. it just sounds perfect! :D

Desiderata - A poem for all of us

2010-04-23T17:17:00.004+08:00

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann, Desiderata

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Glossary (in case u need to know & too lazy to search the words):
(ctrl+f to lookup the words easier)

desiderata: Something desired as a necessity
vexations: The act of annoying, irritating
feign: Make a pretence of
cynical: Believing the worst of human nature and motives
aridity: The quality of yielding nothing of value
disenchantment: Freeing from false belief or illusions
perennial: Recurring again and again
imaginings: Things that are imagined; thoughts or dreams
sham: Something that is a counterfeit; not what it seems to be
drudgery: A labourer who is obliged to do menial work

A poem for everyone out there :)

Bleach 266 opening - Arrancar Arc is back!! woohoo!

2010-04-19T23:07:00.004+08:00

Damn good opening, really brings back the Bleach feeel:

Enjoy Bleach fans!! Non bleach fans u shud watch it too will blow ur mind off! XD

Helpdesk Stuffs for dummies

2010-04-19T09:34:00.009+08:00

Good for those working in the help desk line:

part 1:
http://www.intranetjournal.com/articles/200609/ij_09_25_06c.html

part 2:
http://www.intranetjournal.com/articles/200610/ij_10_17_06a.html

part 3:
http://www.intranetjournal.com/articles/200610/ij_10_24_06a.html

more about the writer:
http://www.paulchinonline.com/portfolio/portfolio.shtml

Paul Chin is an IT consultant and a freelance writer. Previously, Paul worked as an intranet and content management specialist in the aerospace and competitive intelligence industries.

The end of one, the beginning of another

2010-04-15T00:06:00.005+08:00

she decide to call it off, the whole thing.

ask me to walk my way and stop contacting her, that there is no more chance for us.

sad...

well have to face the fact and walk a new beginning.

"Dear Lord, I don't know what's gonna happen in future, when everything seems so vague. That there is no clear picture for me to look forward to.

Sometimes I don't know what's real anymore. It's like I got hit by a car and couldn't understand why it hit me.

I just ask for the grace that I will continue to do your will, and not give up with life. Even if the toughest challenges were to happen I am happy that you are always there with me.

You are the person I trust most, through thick and thin you have been with me, and to you this incident is so tiny it is insignificant, and that I should not lose heart because of it.

Yes Lord, plenty of fishes in the seas, as men said, and you've already determined who is the person I'm to spend my life with, thus I do not need to worry bout it. To let you handle such a matter and to make best use of my life is what you will for me.

You've always taught me to be strong, to continue living the faith, and to be a good person. Yet sometimes I failed and my focus went elsewhere due to the loneliness that is creeping in, the stress in the world, and the human weaknesses of mine. I ask for pardon and strength to continue this journey.

Spending eternal life with you, dear God, which is where my ultimate focus should be. Rather than trivial matters on earth that I should stop bothering so much about. As you've said in the Word that life on earth is just a drop of water compared to eternal life which is the Ocean.

Help me be free of bondage, of things that are clinging deep in my heart now, so that I can start anew, to turn over a new leaf.

Help me to go more often to church, and to CG, as I'm losing sight of you more and more due to not attending so often as I did in the past.

Thank you Jesus, thank you God.

Amen."

Be strong and preservere

2010-04-14T11:20:00.004+08:00

I have to be strong and persevere...
I've made my share of mistakes,
I've said the wrong things when I ain't suppose to,
I am confused, yet I have to stay clear.
Forgive, and move forward.
Don't rush, and don't force.
Let the person decide for herself,
as it is not my business to interfere.
I shall try,
and keep trying...
As I know if I don't,
I shall regret for the rest of my life.
Don't give up,
when you know it's not right to do so.
Life is a lesson,
We all learn as we go through.
All I wanna say right now,
is that I'm sorry for the mistakes I've done,
and to tell you,
that I still love you.
Please don't push me away,
till it is till the very last,
and that the answers have been revealed.
As now we are still in the Pandora's Box,
answers have to be unlocked,
questions need to be answered,
and the future needs to be seen.
The storm is still here,
but be calm,
and think sanely,
rationally, and maturely.
And things will pass smoothly.
As it is said,
"This too shall pass."
Newer and better things are ahead of us...
Things that shall be proven and lasts.

The Journey

2010-04-12T13:57:00.001+08:00

The time we spent together,
The laughter we had,
The things we shared and spoke to each other,
Were like yesterday...
I only hope this goodbye won't be the last,
or better still it isn't a real goodbye.
The hopes, dreams, ambitions that we shared with each other,
I still long for them to come true.
You've said that you couldn't continue,
that you wanted to give up,
yet I told you I am willing to continue on alone,
even if it means carrying you till you are able to walk.
I know the storms have weathered you,
but give me a chance to bring you up again,
and that in time you will recover.
I believe this is just a test,
a test you needed to overcome yourself,
yet believe that you can,
and that I will help in every way I can,
till that suffering and torment ends.

You've said you want to be alone,
that you could not commit,
that you could not love.
But deep inside I know you needed love,
as no person can live deprived of love for so long.
You said you needed time,
and time I shall give you,
as I know it won't be long.
You asked me to find someone else,
but have you ever asked why I chose you?
Is because I believe in you,
that others do not matter.
I chose you over and over again,
if not I would have let go this very moment or earlier.

We both had such a chemistry,
a chemistry I defined as the opposites of a magnet attracted to one another,
a combination of hydrogen and oxygen to make water,
of water vapors and sunlight to make the most beautiful rainbow ever.
I wish you have the same hope as mine,
as till today I had not give up,
even after going through the things that have happened.

I love you,
and I admit I still do.
You can say a million times you do not love me,
but deep inside you know you are fooling yourself.
As you could not hide the deepest feelings that I know you had,
even till today,
even till this very moment.
Thus I shall pray,
that one day you shall understand this great love,
that we had for each other...
To overcome all obstacles,
to rebuff all doubts,
to travel again on this journey.

at Kuantan for Ching Ming 清明节

2010-03-27T20:12:00.008+08:00

Currently at home, Kuantan.

Missed the slow pace and relaxing life here... Distance between two places being not more than 5-10 minutes apart. Cheap and good food, and less crowded anywhere you go to... miss the opportunity of visiting the beach (Teluk Chempedak) as I assisted my mum settling her bills and chores this time.

Visited my dad's mortuary, did the Ching Ming 清明节 of prayers for him. Went with mum and 3rd sis and spent the morning there today. Although I'm a Catholic, yet it is okay to perform the rite if needed to (have consulted the priest on this). Hold the joss sticks, burn hell money etc... 2nd sis was not around as she has given birth to a daughter and is under maternity leave.

We do this every year since my grandparents time, but it's only the 5th year for honoring dad.

Dad passed away at age 54, and I still remembered I was completing final year at college at 2004 that time. The experience was a great change to our family, affected mum, all my sisters and me. It shook us as we didn't expect him to leave us so soon. He has did his fill of mistakes, but yet we still appreciate him for taking care and bringing us up.

Mum then had to take the position of dad and assist us to continue on our lives. Yet without dad's presence it's a big difference to us. Thus I have told others to love and appreciate their loved ones when they are still around (no matter how bad they are), rather than wait till the moment that they leave us, then it's too late.

Going back to KL tomorrow...

Thoughts - how it affect us?

2010-03-25T01:02:00.005+08:00

have you ever thought, what is the right manner of speaking your thoughts?

is there a right or wrong? Or very precise yes, no, um-ahh?

Answer is, we have guidelines in our lives, just that with different backgrounds that we went through we became who we are. Or sometimes, we just choose to be like that, because we chose to... such explains why they are so many gangsters, robbers, killers, prostitutes etc.. becoz they have chosen such a path, no one was able to stop them, or it could be that we tried but failed to bring them to the light.

Thoughts, once provoke, will slowly shape itself into 2 things, words and actions. It is said that thoughts is the foundation to all things that we do... and thus it is important to take care of that part in our lives, as bad thoughts = bad words and actions. Negative thoughts, silly thoughts, nonsense thoughts, lustful thoughts, ignorant thoughts, etc will each shape itself to become a reality somehow or rather. It will be apparent on what others see in us, or simply when our actions prove what it is we're actually thinking inside.

2 parts taken from the bible:

Colossians 3:1-2

^¹ If then you were raised with Christ, seek what is above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God.

Think of what is above, not of what is on earth.

Romans 12:1-3

^¹ ^² I urge you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God, your spiritual worship.

Do not conform yourselves to this age but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and pleasing and perfect.

For by the grace given to me I tell everyone among you not to think of himself more highly than one ought to think, but to think soberly, each according to the measure of faith that God has apportioned

For even the bible states what we ought to be thinking as it will ultimately affect us as a whole in the end. Fix your thoughts right, then everything will move its place as it should.

A quote:

"Change your thoughts and you change your world."

Norman Vincent Peale
US clergyman (1898 - 1993)

The book "Secret" also teaches bout how powerful the human thought process is till it can make the seemingly impossible thing happen, to actually happen.... by first having a thought, repeating it all the time in your head and working on it, till it happens one day as how you see it...

I highly recommend the book/movie if you are able to get it:

http://www.thesecret.tv/

Thus, ask yourself as to why an interviewer would want certain candidates, yet reject some although they have exceptional skills? Is because of who they chose to be, their character-wise and personality will just make things difficult... That is why tough questions are thrown during an interview to see who you really are inside. For for a company, skills can be trained, but human character is hard to mold and change. But truly, if you have the belief that you can, you can be an entirely different person in due time. It could take a long time to change, but it's worth it, if you are able to improve yourself for the better.

People around you who'd want to see you be a better person, would definitely advice you on areas you can work on. Trust your own judgement on where you can improve on based on their feedback, and keep moving forward till you improve. There is no looking back... for life is only so short, not to be wasted in the past.

countdown to receiving new monitor - 9 days

2010-03-22T18:09:00.005+08:00

placed the order, paid, and now all I can do is wait...

expected time to reach home: 9 days, 31st March 2010.

*wishing it can be earlier... once get will take lots of pics of the whole rig and let u peeps see see*

*planning to fix neon lights inside, imma afraid it would be a little too dull without lights @@*

~patience mode on... + extra patience ~

http://www1.ap.dell.com/my/en/home/monitors/monitor-dell-st2410wfp/pd.aspx?refid=monitor-dell-st2410wfp&s=dhs&cs=mydhs1

Drink till KO-ed

2010-03-20T12:17:00.006+08:00

Organized an event for my team's team building for the quarter... It was at Redbox IOI Mall. The place was cool, new location barely a year, buffet was the best among all Redbox I've been so far, nice staff service.

Had lots of singing and got tapao-ed once again for drinking over my limit. Let me count what I had: few cups of whisky+coke, tequila shots, beer @@

Haih dunno why I can so easily KO-ed in any drinking sessions... I actually vomited 5 times during this one. Last one I went through this was last year during a supervisor's exit from my previous company, it was during a farewell at a club. Haha... my ex colleagues all know my limit after some time and even take the cups off me when they see my condition reaching my limit.

Went and did some search and found this @@

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alcohol_flush_reaction

Got so serious?? well anyway I rarely drink...even if I do I have to control myself. Yet, I can't imagine a life without any alcohol :S That would be weird.

Signs when I should stop drinking:

-start to feel my inside getting filled up.. like lots of gas after drinking alot of Soda.

-face getting too red for too long (yes I will be so red till nicknamed as "Tomatoman" lol... followed my mum's genes I guess, all my 3 sisters, mum and me have that symptom, we get real red even after a bit of alcohol.)

-lacking focus

-getting uncomfortable

-final warning sign is when I feel like wanna puke.. I should really stop after that.

The singing part for yest event was good tho... haha first time I sang till I did not wanna sing anymore... got tired!! due to the fact that the whole thing was from 6pm till 3am?! LOL...

Kudos to everyone for making it happen yesterday! Cheers~~

sad, tired, and depressed.

2010-03-18T21:48:00.006+08:00

It's not easy to confess these feelings... but deep inside I know I can feel them.

It's not due to my current job or anything. I admit it's better than my previous, and yes like any other jobs, things always have its own pros and cons. Another thing is, when you're new, there's always a learning curve. Learning everything from scratch again. Thus explains why people hate changing jobs, it just sucks especially when they are almost similar.

Other recent happenings have made me feel that way, somewhere deep inside of me, I know I can't ignore it.

But I have to live on each day, and not give up the walk of life.

As in scripture Philippians 3:12-14 (taken from: http://www.vatican.va/archive/ENG0839/__P10H.HTM)

^⁸ It is not that I have already taken hold of it or have already attained perfect maturity, ^⁹ but I continue my pursuit in hope that I may possess it, since I have indeed been taken possession of by Christ (Jesus).

Brothers, I for my part do not consider myself to have taken possession. Just one thing: forgetting what lies behind but straining forward to what lies ahead,

I continue my pursuit toward the goal, the prize of God's upward calling, in Christ Jesus.

Yes, press on and do not give up. We're all sure there are better things ahead, is just the pressure, the sadness, and the bad experiences of life holding us back.

I have to keep running the good race till I've attain my goal, the race till the end.

Adam Lambert - Whatdaya want from me

2010-03-13T12:29:00.005+08:00

Whatdaya want from me
by Adam Lambert

Hey,
Slow it down.
Whataya want from me,
Whataya want from me?
Yeah,
Im afraid.
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me?
There might have been a time when I would give myself away
Oh, once upon a time I didnt give a damn
But now,
Here we are
So, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just dont give up
Im working it out
Please dont give in
I wont let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, its plain to see
That baby youre beautiful
And theres nothing wrong with you
Its me
Im a freak
But thanks for loving me
Cause youre doing it perfectly
Yeah there might have been a time when I would let you slip away
I wouldnt even try but I think you could save my life

Just dont give up
Im working it out
Please dont give in
I wont let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

(Just dont give up on me)
(I wont let you down)
No, I wont let you down
So, just dont give up
Im working it out
Please dont give in
I wont let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, Whataya want from me
Just dont give up
Im working it out
Please dont give in
I wont let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

=========================

How I'm feeling recently... time to let go...even if it means friendship.

Why wanna worry so much? =)

2010-03-10T22:16:00.010+08:00

Have you ever wonder why we worry? why we keep thinking stuffs over and over again... why can't we just let things be at times?

Recently a friend of mine is going through that... I tried all my effort and strength to help her but it seems not to be working... I wonder what else can I do? Answer: nothing, I can only continue to console her till she wakes up and be strong. (prayer also needs the receiver to help themselves, if not God won't help them).

Worries, is something that we put the burden on ourselves. Let's say we worry how are the results gonna be? how is that car loan gonna get settled? Am I gonna get that increment or not? Is the job I really wanting coming my way?

Ans for 1: you've already sat for the exam, it is too late now but to await the results.

Ans for 2: It's all about the management babeh... no $$ management then sorry, u need to ask help from someone. Live according to how you earn.

Ans for 3: Work smart and hard and proof yourself, nothing else to say =D (if company sucks here, move on)

Ans for 4: Sometimes the job you want, is really like destiny. As long you try your best applying for the jobs you are keen on, the rest is really up to God to decide what's best for you =) That's how my eldest sis advice me before: "if it's really yours, it will be yours." (applies to your life partner and such things as a job)

See.. all the above don't need to worry. But people still insist want to worry, want to think? Why wanna make things so complicated? why wanna burden those who care and love for you? Just because you worry for things that are actually simple, and coz you don't know the outcome of it?

Taken from the Bible, Matthew 6:24-34, as below:

²⁴ 'No one can be the slave of two masters: he will either hate the first and love the second, or be attached to the first and despise the second. You cannot be the slave both of God and of money.
²⁵ 'That is why I am telling you not to worry about your life and what you are to eat, nor about your body and what you are to wear. Surely life is more than food, and the body more than clothing!
²⁶ Look at the birds in the sky. They do not sow or reap or gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they are?
²⁷ Can any of you, however much you worry, add one single cubit to your span of life?
²⁸ And why worry about clothing? Think of the flowers growing in the fields; they never have to work or spin;
²⁹ yet I assure you that not even Solomon in all his royal robes was clothed like one of these.
³⁰ Now if that is how God clothes the wild flowers growing in the field which are there today and thrown into the furnace tomorrow, will he not much more look after you, you who have so little faith?
³¹ So do not worry; do not say, "What are we to eat? What are we to drink? What are we to wear?"
³² It is the gentiles who set their hearts on all these things. Your heavenly Father knows you need them all.
³³ Set your hearts on his kingdom first, and on God's saving justice, and all these other things will be given you as well.
³⁴ So do not worry about tomorrow: tomorrow will take care of itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.'

(taken from: http://www.catholic.org/bible/book.php?id=47&bible_chapter=6)

The above has a significant meaning in my life, as there was once in my down time in life, I have worried a lot, till it affected my health. That was before I converted to Christianity. And yes I was stunned when I first read and meditate on it, as it is very significant and important in our lives: Jesus' commandment for us not to worry. As I'm sure the Son of God knows better about heaven, earth and life then anyone else if he has been with the Father since the beginning of creation.

So don't worry, chill, relax and live the one and only life you are having now. Make the best use of it, for God, and for the better of others and yourself too ;)

going out @ the weekends - 2 movies!!

2010-03-08T04:33:00.004+08:00

suddenly woke up.. decided to update my blog a bit.

was busy for the past 2 days spending time with roy... my ex roomate in college last time :) We had crazy memories together while at college and we used to go movies, eat lunch, shop at the malls with other roomates as well, and pitting each other while watching the football leagues (I was with Chealsea while he's a supporter of Arsenal). Was closely knitted till Roy went back to Malacca to work. Haha after the 2 days of traffic jam here and there sitting in my car... he is thinking twice about really migrating here to work XD will leave that up to him as there are pros and cons.... since he said working at Malacca is getting boring.... and he needs some life. LOL. He'll get lots of it if he really make up his mind migrating here =P and lots of TRAFFIC JAM too XD

went to malls, watch movies, chat at starbucks, update each other, gossips wahahaha...

met his fren Rachel on Sunday.. she had a cool tan o.O nice fren of Roy's. We watched a total of two movies altogether in 2 days time, Solomon Kane and Invictus.

My advice, avoid Solomon Kane if you are not a fan of Van-Helsing-like movies, as it is one of them focusing on the hero alot. Can get pretty boring fast... but he was a good actor and the story is so-so... above the usual B grade movie.

As for Invictus, it is a must watch. Very inspiring movie about the politician Nelson Mendela. Ex president for South Africa, it shows how he fought apartheid, racism, bringing up the nation, and uniting all of them via 1 game... Rugby. Matt Damon was a star in this movie too bringing it up with his superb act as the national Rugby team's captain. Clint Eastwood is the director here and I heard he's been making good movies... so far this is my first watching his directed film o.O It is based on a true story on events of 1995 when South Africa won the Rugby world cup against all odds including beating the top team All Blacks of New Zealand.

One trustable site that made me decide to go ahead with this movie:

http://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/invictus/

(it had a high score of fresh 77%, which is usually true)

At first I didn't want to watch it at all seeing that it had alot to do with politics, and I'm not interested in the game of Rugby?? lol lol... but Roy made me watch it saying it's nice and so on.. good critics... so at last I just went with him. He asked me in the end, "so, is it nice? I didn't lie rite?" and I answered, "Yea, it's damn good.". I felt it's really inspiring and has a deep moral storyline in it, applicable for all of us living our lives these days. =)

For those planning to watch... you'll enjoy it.

K back to bed now till 6.15am ahhaa... gnite buddies ;)

It's officially over

2010-03-02T10:54:00.003+08:00

I've tried my best... but couldn't save it from ruins...

http://bbhershey.wordpress.com/

just so disappointed with the whole thing.

She didn't give us a chance.

The things she said to me:
- you are a good guy, we have many things in common, but we aren't compatible
- there is alot to teach u bout relationships, and I can't go through that anymore
- some things you say and did unconsciously, coz it's u, I don't wanna change who you are.
- you are not the man I want, I want someone that's sociable, have many friends etc
- you are selfish at times, like when I wanted to go elsewhere, you've decided it... i've just followed and kept quiet to make u happy (she didn't mention them to me at that very moment, she said she gave me hints, so ok I did not take those "hints" seriously enough)
- you're self conscious, u always care how ppl look at you (sometimes I'm shy at places so I prefer to be some place else, is that wrong??)
- you always talk bout money and material stuffs, about ur achievements (I'm planning financially and not bout money!! I dont care bout them!! even if u have a million bucks doesnt mean I'll love u for it!! I spoke of my achievements and what I went thru becoz u are a fresh grad, I'm trying to help you by sharing my experiences and that u'll learn from it!!)
- I couldn't breathe when I'm with u... sometimes I wanted to talk but I end up letting u say it all... (my bad, then I told her I'm changing give me time, the next phone calls after that I did let her talk all she want first before I say something!!)

I'm speechless... guys and gals, tell me... is this all my fault?? She said it as if it's just me....

Things I have to say bout her:
- you always think you're right...
- you're stubborn at times, just refuse to listen!!
- you gave up so easily on us, when at first you say everything was well.
- we just know each other 1 week or more... give us time to know each other deeper!
- you just ignored me at times after that incident, u couldnt stand strong and face a new beginning... u still went back into that box of yours, refusing to break free and live free. Free of your thoughts, your nightmares, your worries.
- you say alot guys keep bugging you, friends advice u to break off and such... but do you know their real intentions? that they might be jealous of it and want it for themselves? that they might just want to advice to make u happy? cant u make ur own decisions on some things? You say friends and families helped u alot but will they be there forever till you're old??
- you said I didn't give u more space... too rush... fine we are taking things slow now and suddenly u wrote hurtly stuffs again and post it once more... just ending it abruptly again. What is wrong with you??

Done.. my rant is over... need this burden off my chest and hope you all get a clearer picture of what have happened. =.=

-End of a sad story of one that gave up too fast-

A poem to share:

When things go wrong
and sometimes they will
when the road you are struggling in
Is a twisted hill

When you need help
and the debts are high,
you want to smile
But you have to sigh

When care is pressing
you down a bit
rest if you must
But never quit

Life is hard
during its twists and turns
as everyone of us
Sometimes learns

And many a failure
will turn about
when we might have won
Had we stuck it out

Never give up
though the pace seems slow
you just may succeed
With another blow

You never can tell
how close you are
it may be near
and still seem so far

Stick to the fight
when at your hardest hit
its when things seem worse
That you must never quit

http://www.poems.md/inspirational-poems/never-quit-1726.html

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Fall for you - Secondhand Serenade

2010-03-01T22:35:00.002+08:00

For that someone special... =)

I know we've been through a lot these few days and I'm also sorry for some of the things I've said... hope we can let past be past and start a new beginning...

This song explains it all...

disappointed once more...

2010-02-27T21:19:00.004+08:00

I'm so tired of relationships... the one that had just started went into the ashes abruptly..

I wanted to keep this to myself but just couldn't contain it.

once more it makes me lost trust of love.. that such a thing might not even exist anymore.

I'm just so tired and disappointed and fed up of what had just happened recently.

Time to let go and renew my life once more. Saying is easier than done after going through all that hurt and disappointment in my heart.

I treasure the person that was with me, but always it happens no matter how much I gave and did for the relationship it just doesn't work. I've had enough of this.. it's just so hard to bear anymore...

21022010 - the day it started

2010-02-24T00:28:00.002+08:00

It is an important date, 21/02/2010

The day I started my relationship with Sara Yeap Theng Theng.

Hope it all goes well, as I'm truly in love with this girl. She is everything I hoped for, someone whom I can share my thoughts and feelings with, to talk with, to have things in common with, to meet each other and have the time of our lives together with...

I look forward to love her more each day, and I hope this relationship will lasts... even if it's meant to the very end I'll welcome it...

Love you dear... you are everything to me.

Sincerely,

Your dear, David.

CNY after reunion dinner episode

2010-02-15T12:23:00.002+08:00

After reunion dinner, saturday...

Felt pain at my adominal, somewhat like the muscles there pulling. It was a buffet style dinner western+chinese due to the fact we booked late and most chinese restaurants are full.

Activities that I did for for the day that could have caused that:

1. went to gym, did some sit ups that could have caused that (accidently burned my right hand with steam as well while in the sauna room)

2. Washed and waxed my car..

After which I was exhausted.

That night, I slept early (has some dizziness) and woke up to a bad fever. Had to put ice packs on my forehead and take two panadols to calm things down (don't ever make a habit to see a doc if you can self cure... antibiotics and those pills are no good for the body in the long run).

Woke up feeling better the next day. But that evening was called to another family dinner and the food, although not buffet style, was ALOT once more (was a typical chinese restaurant serving dishes). Did not call for extra rice, just finish up what I can but it was painful at the same spot. I was worried. Starting thinking it could be my stomach gonna burst or something, or having some internal injury inside.

But anyway, I didn't cough out blood or had any weird incidences when I visited the loo. Things were still normal just that pain each time I ate too much (god is trying to tell me to eat less here? lol)

CNY, can't help it, it's about the food too.. lots and lots of it. Well it's good too so that I wouldn't put on too much weight this festive season =P

I hope the pain subsides soon and my pitiful stomach returns to normal... ='(

Hope all of you don't go through the same "sick" episodes like me and have a blasting new year!! hint: don't do anything ridiculously tiring on chinese new year's eve.. not worth to get sick during CNY!!

Welcoming the Year of the Tiger 2010

2010-02-10T00:20:00.004+08:00

woohoo, got my 3 days leave approved on top of my monday and tuesday public holiday!! (good to be new :D )

Total 1 week absent from work, AWESOME!! I LOVE MY COMPANY!! XD

Anyway, some new posters to welcome the Year of the Tiger:

^Tiger Beer's new logo that was launch beginning of this year, nice....^

Enjoy your coming holidays and have a great time!! :D

to explain in advance and for the year 2010...

2010-02-07T21:13:00.002+08:00

for those of you who know where I am working now...

just a short note on why i'm not updating anything about it. Due to the fact that I'm not allowed to.

Will explain that further if we have the chance to meet one day :)

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So back to some real updates... been busy... busy with my new job, busy with life, busy with the new year? lol...

Soon it's gonna be Chinese New Year and the mood is already in the air. Cars after cars jamming up during off work hours, going to the mall for some serious shopping for CNY stuffs and grabbing whatever "new" things that they want as if they are free =P

The coming weeks are gonna be really busy and busy... till Chinese New Year is over, PHew!! Wishing for that but better to enjoy it first... :D

This year is gonna be the year of the Tiger, once the Chinese lunar year strikes at 1st Jan (Chinese lunar calendar). And already in January (western calendar) we can feel an air of improvement of things compared to last year (which I want to avoid talking about).... Hopefully it remains as strong as the Tiger character and continues to bring all the goodness along with it. ^_^

Made alot of new friends from all around me, from office, MSN, people's friends etc... and I feel alot of changes coming up pretty soon. Looking forward to the rest of the year ahead.

Oh, and yes, everyone needs to have their new year resolution, mine would be:

1. to lose more pounds (go to gym more often)

2. to talk wiser this year

3. self improvement, and be more mature.

4. to have more new friends ^^

5. to go out more often and meet people (and FB less)

6. to spend less, and to spend on only what's necessary, to save more, and hopefully learn how to roll and make more money out of what I have.

7. to drive less fast, to be more cautious at the roads (my close friends will know why XD )

8. to be continued? haha

Yup, that's all for my updates now. :D

Hope you have a great, great year ahead!! Happy 2010!!

Jason Derulo - Whatcha Say

2010-01-07T22:27:00.003+08:00

I don't usually fancy hip hop/rap-pop songs and post them to my blog... but this time this song caught me.. dunno why it kept playing in my head for no reason haha...

The girl's voice is really sexy, haha something new in a song I guess? Having the main singer's voice shaded by her's. I find it artistic. =)

Stardust - 2007 movie

2009-12-20T15:28:00.004+08:00

currently showing at Astro HBO.... do catch it if you have the time as it's a brilliant movie:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stardust_(2007_film)

Soundtrack (with spoiler):

Don't want to say much on it, just wanna let u know it's worth the watch... ;) will keep you hook till the movie ends :D

Zainal Abidin - Hijau

2009-12-07T01:17:00.004+08:00

Got this song playing in my head after listening it at my company's annual dinner :

Lyrics:

Bumi yang tiada rimba
Seumpama hamba
Dia dicemar manusia
Yang jahil ketawa

Bumi yang tiada udara
Bagai tiada nyawa
Pasti hilang suatu hari
Tanpa disedari

Bumi tanpa lautan
Akan kehausan
Pasti lambat laun hilang
Duniaku yang malang

Dewasa ini kita saling merayakan
Kejayaan yang akhirnya membinasakan
Apalah gunanya kematangan fikiran
Bila di jiwa kita masih lagi muda
Dan mentah
Ku lihat hijau

Bumiku yang kian pudar
Siapa yang melihat
Di kala kita tersedar
Mungkinkah terlewat

Korupsi,opresi,obsesi diri
Polusi,depressi,di bumi,kini

Oh..anok-anok (Oh..anak-anak)

tokleh meghaso mandi laok (tak leh merasa mandi lauk)

Besaing,maing ghama-ghama (bersaing, main ramai-ramai)

Ale lo ni tuo umurnyo bejuto (alah, kamu ni umurnya berjuta)

Kito usoho (kita usaha)

Jauhke dari malapetako (jauh daripada malapetaka)

Ozon lo ni koho nipih nak nak aghi (ozon ni nak nipis hampir nah habis)

Keno make asak (kena makan asap)

Hok biso wei,pasa maknusio (ia berbisa, pasal manusia)

Seghemo bendo-bendo di dunio (semua benda-benda di dunia)

Tokleh tehe (tak boleh tahan)

Sapa bilo-bilo (sampai bila-bila)

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couldn't find a translation of the above, so here it goes:

the earth which is without forest,

is like a slave,

being trampled by humans,

who glee with evil laughter...

the earth which is without air,

is like without life,

will be gone one day,

without being realized at...

the earth without the sea,

will thirst,

will surely but slowly,

dissapear...

My pitiful planet Earth...

As adults we celebrate together,

our success which will later destroy,

what's the use of maturity of thought?

when in ourselves is still a young man,

and immature,

i saw the green in him...

My earth which is slowly fading,

who actually realizes it?

When we actually wake up,

will it be too late?

Pollution, Corruption, and Obsession,

**in olden slang, Negeri Sembilan dialect:**

Oh, my children,

let's play and work together,

your age is a million (referring to earth i suppose),

We work together,

avoid causing the disasters..

The Ozon layer is not thin yet it's gonna finish,

Soon we'll have to eat smoke...

It is poisonous, because man is poisonous,

everything in this world,

cannot last forever,

till eternity...

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TM Streamyx vs P1 - state of Malaysia's Wired Broadband

2009-11-13T21:09:00.004+08:00

Posted this in Lowyat forum not long ago to vent my frustrations on the local Wired Broadband...

About TM Streamyx vs P1

Wireless has its own weaknesses... yet sometimes many people in Malaysia rather switched to it due to our TM Screamyx dunno-what-they-are-doing at times... such as long waiting time just to install internet, sudden downtimes, the dont-care-attitude when u log a case... things lidat that spoils the fixed line broadband industry...

It is monopolized by TM and the government till today is doing very little about it... read the latest news about fiber optics layout for Malaysia?

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=...2603&sec=nation

it is given to TM as well...

something this important also TM will get, why? becoz it owns all of the fixed wired broadband industry... notice how small Maxis owns the wired broadband industry, as below:

http://www.maxis.com.my/personal/broadband/default.asp

quote:

"Service availability is currently confined to selected residential areas such as Bandar Utama 11 & 12, Desa Sri Hartamas, Sierramas, Bistari Condo Kuala Lumpur, Pusat Bandar Puchong, Bandar Puchong Jaya, Bandar Puchong Utama, Taman Industri Pusat Bandar Puchong, Taman Puchong Permai, Menara KLH Condo, Istara Condo Petaling Jaya, Villa Scotts, Damai Sari, Endah Regal, Bandar Country Homes Rawang, Taman Rawang Perdana, Bandar Baru Nilai, Masalam Sect 9 Shah Alam, Bandar Sunway, Sri Wangsaria Bangsar, Prima Sixteen Petaling Jaya, Taman Tasik Semenyih Kajang, Taman Eng Ann Klang, Taman Bukit Kelisa Seremban, Taman Sutera Johor Bahru, Bandar Baru Permas Jaya Johor Bahru and Taman Scientex Johor Bahru and Taman Pakatan Jaya, Ipoh. Sign up today and experience the power of broadband in your home."

Maxis is wayy better than TMnet stoopid streamyx...(so much stable with a professional support) yet why is it not overtaking TM till this day? Simple, government owns part of TM, making it a semi-government corporation... (so u can confidently say Maxis does not get a permission to lay their own telephone wires, expanding their wired broadband services, alot of hanky panky stuffs that TM does to block other competitions?)

And notice this line:

quote:

"He said the Government will roll out an advanced national communications infrastructure soon by wiring up 1.2 million households and business premises with fibre-optics to boost Internet connection speeds to between 10Mbps (megabits per second) and 1Gbps (gigabit per second). Current speeds are up to 4Mbps."

Who is "the Government"?? TM of course, lol lmao

It even explains why P1 could do so well till it has gotten the attention of Wimax forum in the world... as below:

http://star-techcentral.com/tech/story.asp...&sec=technology

the government is still sleeping about our current wired broadband situation? helloooo wake up please...

**the things i speak are with credibility... as the course I majored at college was Business Information Systems (BSc. Hons), did lots of case studies about IT & businesses, analysis of IT systems etc... as well as having exposure to the real IT industry as i've had close to 3 years experience in it. Have even worked at a local telco for 7 months before as cust service...**

Air Asia Sucks!!

2009-11-10T08:22:00.002+08:00

Called up their call center twice, once waiting for 30 minutes last night from 8.30pm till 9pm, and another today morning for 15 minutes!!!

How can a such a reputable company be providing such a lousy service?

YOU THINK I WANNA F1@#@!$ING CALL THEM? IS BECOZ I NEED TO CANCEL A TICKET THAT'S WHY.. AND I CANT DO IT ONLINE!!!

First and last time taking this plane, I will rather choose JetStar or Firefly or some other low cost flights next time!!

quote from Tony's announcement to the world:

From: Tony Fernandes <airasia@fly.airasia.com>Date: Tue, Apr 28, 2009 at 7:33 PMSubject: Staying True to Our Promises
Dear AirAsia Guests,

AIRASIA AND SCICOM JOIN FORCES IN ESTABLISHING A WORLD CLASS CONTACT CENTRE-ASIAN CONTACT CENTRES SDN BHD
When I wrote to you a few months back, I shared your frustrations over our Call Centre service. I couldn't agree more - as the World's Best Low Cost Airline, AirAsia's Call Centre too should be world class.

Now I am pleased to present to you Asian Contact Centres Sdn Bhd, our integrated Call Centre for all our country operations - Malaysia, Thailand, Indonesia, Australia, Brunei, Cambodia, China, India, Laos, Myanmar, the Philippines, Singapore, Vietnam and the UK. Operations will soon expand to serve guests in Japan, Korea, the Philippines, the Middle East and India. I am sure you have experienced significant improvements in our Call Centre service since it started operations on 16 February 2009.

Asian Call Centres Sdn Bhd is a landmark collaboration between AirAsia and Scicom (MSC) Berhad, a regional industry leader in customer contact management services. With Scicom's multiple contact centres in Asia, serving customers and clients from over 40 countries and in over 40 languages, Asian Contact Centres Sdn Bhd is able to meet your expectations and ensure your booking needs, and enquiries are efficiently attended to.

We are very glad that with Asian Contact Centres Sdn Bhd we are now able to handle 5 million transactions a year in English, Bahasa Malaysia, Thai, Mandarin, Cantonese and Bahasa Indonesia.

Malaysia +603 2171 9333 (Booking)+603 2171 9222 (Inquiry)Operating Hours : 8am - 9pm (GMT+8)Thailand +66 2 515 9999Operating Hours : 8am - 9pm (GMT+7)Indonesia +62 21 50 50 50 88Operating Hours : 8am - 9pm (GMT+7)Singapore +65 630 77688Operating Hours : 8am - 9pm (GMT+8)China +95013 9000 0200Operating Hours : 8am - 9pm (GMT+8)United Kingdom +44 845 605 3333Operates 24 Hours, DailyAustralia 1300 760 330Operating Hours : 10am – 11pm (GMT+10)Others +603 2171 9333 (Booking)+603 2171 9222 (Inquiry)Operating Hours : 8am - 9pm (GMT+8)

On another note, we would like to encourage you to continue visiting our website http://www.airasia.com/ where you not only enjoy our low fares but also manage your bookings on your own and obtain vast information on our routes and destinations.
Thank you for flying AirAsia and for making us the 2009 World's Best Low Cost Airline*.
Best regards, Tony Fernandes

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Mr Tony,

You can burn the above letter and throw it in a thrash!!

My hopes of getting any refund for that one ticket is dashed after reading these:

http://www.alloexpat.com/malaysia_expat_forum/to-tony-fernandez-too-chief-executive-officer-of-air-asia-t22641.html

http://www.usj.com.my/bulletin/upload/showthread.php?t=25868

My gift for you AirAsia and ur stoopid service:

Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me

2009-10-31T15:05:00.002+08:00

I like this song...

I feel it's one of Taylor Swift's best video and song:

Expensive Tooth Treatment

2009-10-31T14:53:00.005+08:00

just pulled out my Molar tooth (beside the wisdom)...

and the pain is killing me again, softly...

blood all over the cotton in my mouth, YUUCKK!!

gosh i hate visiting the dentist, any of you feeling the same way?

All becoz earlier my wisdom bang it, till got a huge cavity there. The doc tried to patch it up 8 months back but the hold/damage was too big. Need to do some expensive Root Canal treatment which is not guranteed but costs a bomb.

Dentist nowadays...haih

compare the price below

Malaysia - root canal with Specialist, RM1800-2000

Singapore - SGD300 (x2 is 600+ RM)

My sis brought her maid there as she is going through the same thing as well, so cheap!!! =.="

meaning to say Malaysia likes to cut throat, when is the government gonna do something about it?

Sorry for always shooting the government, but i feel they are not being proactive in solving all these everyday Rakyat's problem. Instead they LOVE looking into ambitious projects, attracting investors, build this and that etc...

SIMPLE things like Inflation also they could not handle well, how are they gonna win support of the people with all this big bang things? When people are crying out everyday with overspending, low wages, being overworked etc?

BN BN... when are u gonna wake up from your slumber. You are being left behind compare to the developed nations of the world.

Moving in to new house - Nightmare 2

2009-10-30T18:28:00.002+08:00

1 day after the outbreak of the 1st incident, a 2nd madness occurred:

1. There is some plastic blocking the rooftop pipe drainage

2. Water started pouring in, mum wasn't aware (I was at office @ work)

3. Water FELL ON MY LAPTOP and SPEAKERS

4. LUCKY laptop didn't spoil... manage to dry it off... all 3 light bulbs fell down and break... electricity at that room cannot be on anymore in fear of short circuit, need ask people check first.

5. couldn't stay in the master room anymore (mum stayed downstair's room coz her knee pain)

6. need shift to a smaller room... Laptop never gonna be placed at that same spot ever again

ARGHH... 2 incidents straight, what's going on? WHY SO BAD LUCK WAN???

Reason for the earlier Power Disruption

2009-10-30T18:26:00.002+08:00

Found out the root cause for it:

1. water filer people drilling the hole (to connect some pipes) accidentally dropped the "Neutral" cable... did not inform anyone (his reason: I do not know wor...)

2. TNB and Gamuda did not check the fixing of the cables properly when building the houses

Still, TNB is somewhat at fault here so i'm not gonna apologize for the defamatory i've made =.=

Dying Inside to Hold you - Timmy Thomas

2009-10-30T18:25:00.002+08:00

this song suddenly played in my head, went search for it:

http://www.mp3raid.com/music/i_am_dying_inside_to_hold_you.html

*replaced with link as requested*

new house, new everything, and TNB caused destruction

2009-10-29T01:06:00.003+08:00

http://tinyurl.com/tnb-sucks

dont know how to explain it in words again... i'm horribly sad at this...

all because some engineer was careless in doing his job.

hope to get through this... words cant describe what i'm going through now...

imagine if u were in my feet...

The story goes like this

"On this fine morning, i woke up earlier than i should, wanted to go out to apply for P1 since Celcom was a total letdown with its coverage here...

Took bath, went down for lunch, forgot to switch off my PC (i've always switched it off together with the main plug, but it really crossed my mind this time).

Went out...

At work, was anticipating to come back to test my P1 modem, BUT.. the HORRIBLE STORY HAPPENED... mum called me around 3pm, told me about it. The ceiling fan exploded in her room, the Astro decoder came out with smoke, and a loud explosion in the house (we just moved in)...

I came back at once, saw what happened, everyone was here, my relative and bro in law... they have called up TNB, waiting for them to come check.

I called mum later, she confirmed that TNB did not FIX THE MAIN CABLE PROPERLY AT THE POWER SUPPLY, RESULTING IN OUR "MINI HOUSE EXPLOSION"... she keep telling me my laptop is fine dont worry... but that is not the point dammit!! our stuffs in under threat by some stupid engineer that configured the things wrongly when the build the house!! The TNB people admitted several houses here went through the same thing, triggered by our house!!! all the cables not tight!!!

I came back, fine, so much damage... (the electric gate no longer opened and closed as fast as it should... slow as a snail...)

i tested my ALTEC LANSING SPEAKERS, WHICH COST ME 230+... and I was stunned. I keep pressing ON AND OFF, but there was no light, no "thump" sound that it used to make when u switch it on, nothing... it was dead as a corpse.

I tested my Dell laptop charger, and the screen keep flickering, the charger is semi working, sometimes power comes in sometimes not.

I complained to mum, whine about it, came upstairs, devastated, and sat on my chair for 5 minutes stunned, with a blank face.... saddened, disappointed.

I feel like killing myself, feel like jump down from a 5 story building and have my bones broken... but no.. i tell myself, i have to get through this, get all the warranty replaced and try my best to get out of this shit hole...

best part is, TNB just came and fix, and say BYEBYE.. didn't payback a single cent or apologize, just as if everything is NORMAL."

I TELL U WHAT IS NORMAL, THE WHOLE SCENARIO IS NOT NORMAL!!! I'M NEVER GONNA VOTE FOR THIS PRESENT GOVERNMENT THAT HAD LASTED SEVERAL DECADES AND A BASIC AMENITY WAS NOT PROPERLY MANAGED!!! U ALL SEDANG TIDUR OR GOYANG KAKI AND MAKAN SUAP KAT OFFICE???!! WHAT IS THIS SORT OF MISMANAGEMENT U ARE DOING TO OUR COUNTRY!!!

*i'm already horribly disgusted when TM mentioned they could not pull a phone cable to the house, that my address is not in the system, ask me to provide my neighbor's fixed line number... FOR WHAT??? YOUR SYSTEM IS THAT SUCKY??*

screw them, I'm using P1 now and it beats their speed with 1.4mbps download speed and they could set it up for me in 1 hours time.

SEMI OWNED BY GOVERNMENT, THE 2 KONON GIANTS TM AND TNB... GIANT IN MONOPOLY AND SLEEP GOT LAR!!!

True Spa

2009-08-18T07:31:00.006+08:00

For those who thought of joining True Spa, or try their free massage, the below links will change how you think. It's a warning as those who have experienced it knows better...

complaints:
http://www.timeoutsingapore.com/wellandgood/venues/spa/true-spa

http://shimmers999.blogspot.com/2008/04/tru-spa-jaya33.html

http://www.malaysianbabes.net/forum/Do-not-join-TRUE-Spa-Jaya-33-PJ-t28931.html

http://www.pjnet.com.my/ftopict-19013.html

legal action!! :
http://mymind.escrito.info/2008/06/30/horrible-service-with-true-spa/

never in my life have I witness such a big failure by a service provider...

map:

(above map is not to be mistaken about True Fitness... it is a good gym and nothing bad to say about it.. As True Spa is at the top floor above the gym - both are of separate entities)

pics:

By looking at the above facilities, won't you agree with me that it is a waste?... coz the material inside of a business is just half of it, without proper management and service the whole business is equals ZERO...

I hope one day a much better managed company will take over the entire True Spa and run the operations as it should be, rather than dissapointing the everyday customers that walk in here...

Btw, what is the Malaysian government doing in handling such consumer complaints? I guess nothing, bah...

I hope the above post helps... as a friend I'll definately warn my friends on what's good and what's bad for them, do avoid the above... spend your money on something more worthwhile. :)

what chinese think about numbers...

2009-08-16T22:45:00.003+08:00

for those of you who are curious at what exactly the numbers mean for the chinese community:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Numbers_in_Chinese_culture

numbers to be used for handphones, houses, marriage etc... :)

enjoy.

credit card

2009-08-09T12:58:00.003+08:00

recently I got into some shit... all because of that convenience we call credit card...

a few things you have to know about credit cards:

1. the banks GAIN something from you each time you use it, where a 2% is charged to the shops/dealers/sellers of a service or product

2. the banks WANT you to apply as many credit cards as you can, to them is good income from the masses...

3. the banks DOESN'T CARE about how you manage your credit cards, if you get into a debt, EVEN BETTER, they get to charge you HIGH INTEREST RATES in order to pay back those debts

4. have you ever been approached on this new scheme call credit card installment plans? be careful as this is the one that's dangerous... how are you gonna calculate how much you can afford for the coming months? when u are forced to commit to something where the bank helps you pay it first, and you paying back to the bank? Are you so sure the money you are earning now will be enough?

5. installment plans charge their total to your credit limit, yes the whole thing, e.g. a 3k total payment equals to 3k of credit limit, till you pay it all...

6. do you know that credit cards make you spend more? uh-huh it doesn't help u save up more, it does the opposite... healthy for the economy? wait till you cry each month paying back those commitments where it exceeds what you can afford.

7. a few small totals, add them up and they become a bomb in your credit card transaction history

8. learn to say NO to charging credit cards, especially for monthly payments. Or huge purchases. You never know how is the month's total spending gonna be like... remember the 4% inflation every year as well? things doesn't become cheaper, they tend to inflate... the nasi lemak you buy today might go up 30 cents, without you realizing.

9. YES WE NEED CREDIT CARDS... those who don't need, I SALUTE YOU... you are spending way less then we are. Yes CONTROL is the key word here... well ask yourself how good are you at controlling stuffs that everyone say is easy to control? That's a thought... still we better ought to control before we start begging... my advice, keep your credit cards and only use it when it is WORTH using it, when you look at that charge in your bill and agree, "yes this is worth it", ok use it... and those that will give you a "why the heck I charge that for?", better avoid them...

10. Think about the future, about your loved ones, about your family... before you swap that next purchase... think about the lots more commitments for your children's education, house, car etc to come... don't hear the bullshit that people say, SPENDING IS GOOD FOR THE ECONOMY.... to me it's a conmen's piece of bullcrap.

new blog template

2009-08-01T23:36:00.002+08:00

hope you all liked it... it's my new blog template :)

will be updating when I have stuffs to talk about...

wanna keep some privacy too sorry ya... ^^

Love is the Greatest

2009-07-23T00:19:00.002+08:00

“Love is patient; love is kind

and envies no one.

Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;

never selfish, not quick to take offense.

There is nothing love cannot face;

there is no limit to its faith,

its hope, and endurance.

In a word, there are three things

that last forever: faith, hope, and love;

but the greatest of them all is love.”

1 Corinthians 13:4

too many people forget about the verse above... if only we love more...

random update

2009-07-10T00:16:00.009+08:00

some random update

1. watched Transformers 2 and I despised it, more and more after weeks passed... if you were to reflect deep into the story u will find many flaws, and some scenes not even supposed to be there!! but somehow it's there... not funny =.=

2. regreted buying the latest TF2 figurines, now i'm broke, need to really save for this month. Lesson: don't buy them anymore... TF1 got fullset enough!! one day display at my museum k?!!

3. been active in gym, not satisfied still with latest progress... long way more to go... discipline is everything.

4. work is as usual, i feel i have mastered all that i need to know in my department... occasionally will still pick up new knowledge, some that i didn't even knew was there... but overall, things are so much easier then when i first started.

5. need to move on with life, stop looking back...

6. meeting more people now, and looking to meet more...

7. getting into the whole understanding of business... might be getting into 1 soon, when i'm there will let u know what issit =P wont resign from what i'm doing now lar, just part time first and to try things out.

8. life is full of jokers, just let them be ba bro...

9. driving, oh gosh... have malaysians got from bad to worse in driving skillss? there is literally none these days! but still, don't bang them... it's awful to be at the police station and waiting your car to be fixed at the garage, regardless whose fault.

10. $$$$... always looking to make more... no more being content with what I have... till i'm satisfied.

11. spending, time to quit throwing money around... those installment plans better watch out, they'll rip your credit limit apart!! and your monthly financial planning as well!! dont be fooled by those small monthly payments!! add up and u get a "bukit"... =.=

12. car.. looking forward to change car.. it is the next big thing for me to change. Once i am able to...

13. Friends and colleagues.. learning how to treat them better, avoid hurting them, and learn more social skillsss.. (i really need to know much much more, this i figure is the top skill you'll need to be really successful).

14. News... always read what's happening, especially with the current H1N1 and economy turmoils...

15. MJ passed away... may he rest in peace, I figure what ppl are doing now is too late... they shud have appreaciated him while he's still alive.

16. Appreciating life... learn to appreaciate it more after cousin passed away. I realised how unexpected one's life can end... it is time to being serious and take care of what we have now.

17. Movies... why so many good movies at the cinema one?? Harryyy Potterrr next!! weee....Terminator was good, TF2 was ridiculous...

18. updates to my blog... aim: to make an effort to update it more... it's been on and off here and there... not consistent pun =.=""

19. FB games... to let go of it and not being hook to it... play less.. they bring u no difference in life to play them or not... it's just killing time. (playing PS2 is more worthwhile, PS3 not so soon larrr no money all ori games, and one big plasma TV!! zzz) Still... learn to let go of games... it's like when a boy grows up he discards his toys.. time for me to do so as well... admit it!! computer/PS/etc games are all GAMES!!! Learning to let go is a good thing!!

20. to keep in touch with family members more.. i know at times i neglected them... it is time to put more effort in mending those relationships. Dad went and I feel we are getting further apart at times... how long more till we realise one day they are no longer there and that we didn't do enough?

Ok... that's all for now... A sudden want to post these up and to make resolutions out of it :)

Below is an important verse I bumped into today:

In lay man's terms, it means:

¹⁴Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a

little while and then vanishes. (NIV version)

RIP cousin

2009-06-30T23:25:00.003+08:00

Abit late in posting this, but I know I had to write this down....

My cousin, being only 35 years old, passed away...

I was shocked.

It was largely attributed to his lifestyle, not exercising, drinking with business friends, smoking (since secondary school now less), too much of work.

He passed away due to overwork... around middle of June, he just collapse while walking with his friends.

Earlier he complained to my aunt of heart pain at times, yet he did not go do a through checkup, instead just saw some sinsei and rely on Chinese medicine.

He just had a BMW not long, a new bungalow, and a wife he just married few years back. His wife care and supported for him much when he started the business... yet now he is no longer there to enjoy his hard earned toil..

I know about the 3 brother's life, the lives of my mum's sister (one of the many aunts), and she had worked at a nightclub before, and met this man who gave her the three children. Yet sadly, he wasn't serious and left her soon after. She had to struggle with an unsupportive grandma and finally moved out...even remarried later on only to have her 2nd hubby died in a car accident due to drunk and hitting the divider...

All 3 finished high school, without any degree or higher qualification. They had to work odd jobs, struggle. They were very bad kids when younger, as I used to hear stories where they cheated their mum off her money, sold off their bikes, cheat money for tuition fee and such. Only the eldest brother was the most successful, as he fought hard to become successful after he woke up from being spoiled one day.

I am happy for him and his 2nd brother, whom worked under him. They both were doing well (only the 3rd brother is still stubborn and remain his own way, yet with a job just that he like to dress up too much like some rich man and talk like he knows alot)... yet suddenly the eldest passed away with conditions of a heart attack, and suspected conditions due to his smoking habit last time (he smoked like packets a day of 20s when he was young)... it is just saddening and a waste...

I am sad for them... the mother cried with tears, much tears of pain and suffering and love for him...

I just hoped he got a longer time to live... yet I know things happen for a reason, and only God knows why... I am truly sorry for his wife, his mother and brothers... hope they can see through it...

Take care of your health when you are young, exercise, eat well and avoid smoking (even if u do smoke take care of the amount u take, and try quit never give up), live a balance lifestyle, don't stress yourself, and take breaks, learn to relax (as life is short, I always tell ppl that too, and that life is only one, use it or lose it)

RIP cousin....

stupidity...

2009-05-22T23:23:00.005+08:00

Have you ever felt that you are being used?

Feeling the need that you needed to help someone? Being a friend? Yet end up being accused of things you never intended, being accused of harassing, of all the accusations out of that person you are helping?

Today I went through that scenario, one that I did not expect coming out from a friendship that lasted a year. I helped her, treated her, paid things for her, and end up? I was accused of taking advantage, forcing her to be my girlfriend? WTF, what did I do wrong? My good intentions were rotated 360 degree and pointed like a gun back at me...

I do not want to mention who she is, as she think she is that great for me to put her name all over my blog. Well tell you what gal, you are not that great, and please, knock off that pride of your shoulders, just because you were accepted as an air hostess in a world class airline... or shall I say... "malaysian class".

At your previous job you were different, you appreciated our friendship, we were friends. I didn't ask for more, although I admitted I liked you. Yet you turn around now, just because you got accepted into a new job training, and think you are "already there". Can't you be more humble? Look at the mirror? And see how many people out there that are more successful than you but do not boast, but appreciate the people in their lives, knowing how to differentiate their careers and separate it from friends?

You spoke like you knew a lot, just because of that few days of class. Have you passed the 3 months test? Are you already flying and proven that you are able to handle the job? Even for a year? Have you ever thought that you might fail? Dislike the job in the end?

You said I had bad intentions, you said I talked as if I wanted to win, as if I started the argument. You think you have all the say? Who are you? Have you any respect for me? Have you considered what I've got to say? Have you grasped hold of my viewpoints, my feelings, my thoughts? You think all I said was wrong? Was uttered from a primary school kid?

I felt stupid, stupid enough to trust you, to wanting to bring you up further, make you better. But instead this is all I get in repayment from our friendship. You hurt me, threw me down, and splattered all that nonsense at my face. I will not take it lightly, and I will mean it this time shall be the last time we meet. It shall be the end of our friendship. If we were to meet on the road one day, I shall not say hi, and we shall be strangers on separate ways. You wanted it that way, as if you demanded it, now you got it, I guess you are happy. Well tell you what, I'm happy that I knew who you really are inside now, and I'm happy I got over it.

Look at yourself, look deep and analyze what have you become.

I am speechless, during the time in the car I do not want to say a word anymore... Tired, fed up, and felt like a fool...

You think you are all that pretty, thinking : "oh I have got my dream job being train for the best"...

Please, it is just the beginning. Looks and knowledge doesn't mean all, it is character, and attitude, and how you handle people that makes you go up.

So what if you are a PHD, and your whole office hates you. Think.

The end of me being stupid, no more shall I go through this shit with another girl... for guys out there, beware of being used. Learn to put a full stop once you knew you are in that shit hole.

Don't be like me, it's a waste. Save that money and time for your children in future and for better things to do.

Peace out.

fell and hit the right side of my head

2009-05-19T22:30:00.006+08:00

Today was a tragedy, I accidently fell and hit the right side of my head. Of all places, the bathroom. (due to the fact that I forgot to brush the floor every now and then, causing leftovers of soap thus making it slippery)

At first all was OK, I thought. I did not passed out, just pain. Drove to work as usual. Did my job as usual...

Till I felt a throbbing pain now and then again during work. A pain so irritating and deep on the right side of my head till it pisses me off. I couldn't concentrate on work, till I went googled brain injury all over the place:

http://www.emedicinehealth.com/head_injury/article_em.htm

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Head_injury

The terms scared me, as for the first time in my life after banging my head the pain lasted almost 6 hours. It was almost 12pm noon that time, and the time the incident happened was at 6am.

I told my colleagues, whom they told me to consult the doctor at the company's clinic. So ok, I thought, better check than to be sorry later.

I went down stairs, met the nurse (quite pretty actually haha), she diagnosed me: asked me to rest for 10 minutes before taking blood pressure, checked my eyes movement with a torchlight, gave me a pill before asking me to rest... (she did questioned me too why I didn't went straight to a doc for checkup? Reason: I thought it was a normal bang on the head)

Wow scary, how come so complicated?? And the worst part is after all that, she said that the only way to really confirm the diagnose is to do a scan at the clinic or hospital. (as the doc was not in the company clinic that time)

So I went, with my supervisor (thanks Lim and Allyssa) and we went to this stupid Mendivironclinic at PJ (sorry not all Mendiviron clinic are stupid just this particular one) which delayed our time by half an hour just for a referral to Assunta Hospital. The doc was pretty crap there too without really checking and saying my head did not swell too (the previous nurse said it swelled).

Checked with ING, didn't have coverage... insured plan was v low only for general clinic usage and hospitilisation, checking no.... My superior was pissed, I wasn't as I thought fine just use my personal medical card then (Great Eastern).

Went with Calvin to Assunta Hospital (the person who helped me purchase my GE insurance earlier) and did a checkup (thanks pal appreciate it) with the GP (general practitioner). He mentioned that I have to do a CAT scan before he can confirm anything (owh so how die die also have to scan... head injuries are so complicated x.x )

Once scanned, the tough part was the fact that I needed to wait another 2 hours for the results to be known. I asked Calvin to drove me back to office first, just show me the way and I will come back to collect it myself. I promised that I will inform him and the rest when I get the results.

So I managed to come back although with some slight dizziness (since 10am) and parked my car. Saw the doc and got the scan, he said everything was all right, no internal injuries, no blood clot, no fracture etc. He gave me a few pills and painkillers to take for later.

I was RELIEF... as I really thought it was gonna be serious till I need to be warded, go through surgery and stuff. Even thought of death in all that...

So touch wood, I'm ok now. What a day right? Went through all that shit. I reach home at 6 + pm, after bath and all that I took a nap, and almost couldn't wake up till 9pm. (I think the injury cause that) After which I went for dinner and now I'm back updating the whole incident.

A lot of my colleagues SMS me and asked how am I, how was the scan?...Replied all of them that I'm ok and that I'm still alive =D I've posted the title in Facebook as well and got loads of reply back. Thanks for all you guys and gals' concern, you've touched me =)

Below is the CAT scan image:

Another weird thing to blog about. But definitely a "must-blog".

I thank God it's not my time yet, as I still have so many things to do and see in life. During the time I thought of death today, I saw how my life sped by, how many things I could have done better, utilized my time better, treating others better, and how much is there in the world to do, to see...

It sort of changed me, to actually think you are that close to the fact of dying, and yet survived to live another day. How will you live your life from then on?

I guess everything happens for a reason, and this taught me quite much... =)

killing a cat...

2009-05-17T10:43:00.004+08:00

I've killed a cat accidentally yesterday.

I was on my usual way home after having dinner nearby, which out of nowhere the cat came running from the right side. As I stepped on my break (well maybe not hard enough), it stared at me with a stunned face, and next thing I knew, I ran over it.....

It shriek, with a high pitched cat scream, as I heard thumps under my car while it sped across it...

I was stunned, as this was my first time hitting a cat.

I murdered another living being, of all things: A cute, furry, domestic animal. If it was a mouse, or a fly, or an ant, I wouldn't mind killing it as they are a pest if they do come in contact with me and bothering me.

But this was a cat...

And, it was cute.

How would you feel if you hit and killed a cute cat?

A similiar pic (a white cat with black spots, actually mine was a half kitten >.<) :

I just took a life away, and I hope God will have a place for it in heaven.

Hope this sort of bizarre incident won't happen again.. o.O

Imagine if that was a human life by accident... >.<"""""

sorethroat

2009-05-05T00:26:00.006+08:00

sorethroat till you lost your voice...

remember how that feels? when suddenly you turned to a squeaky 80 year old.

Got it today, had to apologize to my customers for losing my voice. All because I didn't want to take the MC... if I did I would have rest and recovered fully the next day.

"hold on david, it's tough times now and u know it."

And I wrote a prayer:

"Dear God, may you give me the strenght to continue on my journey. As it is still long, with many unpredictables on the way. Show me your light so that I won't be blinded, that I'll be able to make it home safely with you one day...

Give me the grace to live a soldier in Christ, as when troubles and testing comes, that I may learn to face them with courage, truth and preserverance. Bless those around me, my friends, my collegues, my family. That I'll learnt to love them like how you taught us to love.

Grant that I may not give up, but to continue living with hope, knowing that you are there beside me each day, and that I have nothing to fear. Even in the darkest hours, you will be with me, holding me, encouraging me. As you understand my every suffering on earth, in this world...

And yes I am a sinner, and I pray you will make me a better person as each day pass. As I grow older and weaker, I lean on to you, my rock. Without you, I would be a different person as I am today.... your percepts and words taught me about life, made me realize how much men have failed you, yet you continued to love them and did not gave up on them. To give yourself on the cross, so that we may have life.

I thank you all for your blessings, your help, and your kindness. Without you I would be much poorer in spirit and soul. Without you many of my sufferings would be many folds worse. Without you I would have wander, lost and alone.

Thank you God.

Amen."

weekends

2009-05-03T23:29:00.002+08:00

Saturday and Sunday was great.

Saturday - had a full sleep and woke up at 11.30am. Fren came at 3.30pm and we played PS2 till dinner time. Went Auntie Juliete (Kota Kemuning) to eat dinner. Had sphegetti while fren had Chicken Mariland. Next, came back and PS2 till 6am before slept... haha.

Games we played:

1. Armored Core 4 (he couldn't get his hands off the VS mode, had to entertain him fight one on one... which earlier I pawned him easily. Near 4am he did the opposite after I helped him made a "hebat" punya mecha.

2. Marvel Ultimate Alliance (First time a fren play and said that it was boring... zzzz)

3. Star Wars Force Unleashed (went nuts with the force but later stopped as it was one player)

Sunday - stopped by at Eve's house to help her out with her powerpoint. Ended up she didn't need my help as it was too complicated. So she scrapped the whole idea and went for something else to surprise her colleagues.

Had dinner with her at Chilis. Too much food! haha... should have ordered less. The bill was staggering, as usual for Chilis.

Now back home, doing my laundry and preparing to sleep early. It was a VERY busy weekend and tiring too...

Nites!! :)

sleepy...

2009-04-14T20:35:00.003+08:00

Just woke up from a nap starting at 7pm... for more than an hour as I could not take my body's withdrawal from sleep anymore.

I've even learn to calculate how much sleep my body needs after working on my job's crazy shift which is 7am to 4pm (not that crazy if compared with a 24 by 7 days helpdesk). Calculating how much lack of sleep more I can tolerate to the next much needed "extra sleep".

We had badminton today just beside my office, but refused, coz like I've mentioned, I've learnt to calculate how much "requirement" of sleep that my body needs before it breaks.... and when it breaks, even driving home from work the next day is gonna be a challenge (having my eyelids dropping by itself)... as well as having my concentration reduced to a mere 30%...

So what I do these days is during my 7-4 shifts, I come home looking forward to taking a nap.... As during the nights sometimes I might be washing and ironing my clothes, browsing the web, chatting, etc.... ( I am not a person capable of sleeping before 11.30pm haha)

Anyway, it works... just that might dissapoint some people at office skipping badminton... lol.

Health comes first... sleep is very important... long term lack of sleep can really drive the body haywire, like a bunch of tied up strings in a basket. And soon you might end up falling sick due to the simple fact that you lack sleep.

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Anyway, sorry for not updating so long... sorry if I dissapointed you by wasting your time coming here to checkout the page... I really didn't had the mood to type anything, even when this blogger "create post" page is right in front of me.... I would stare at it blankly, turned to another tab and later forget about it. I really don't have the idea to write!! till now....

mission failed

2009-03-06T00:21:00.002+08:00

failed to quit smoking due to the recent turn of events at work...

pressure cooking, bad times coming... felt crazy.

so enough... will leave my goal to quit it at a later time.

just hope the situation won't worsen and things improve.

time to update my blog i know it's dead

2009-02-28T23:56:00.005+08:00

time to update my blog... as someone told me "it's better to close your blog if you don't update it"... =.=""""" Nyway sorry for making u guys waste your loading time each time coming here to find nothing... just being lazy to update it as I am not so a "happening guy" with much thing to write.

Ok, first thing to announce... I'm hook to this game called Mousehunt in Facebook. Currently a Master level and going strong. It's the first facebook game that I'm ever hook to:

Plan to get Zugzwang's Last Move trap next... full definition of the trap's name:

In the game of chess, Zugzwang is when a player must move into a disadvantaging position

For more info on the game, you can visit the official wiki:

http://mousehunt.hitgrab.com/wiki/index.php/Main_Page

A facebook game that has its own wiki.... how awesome can that be? :O way way advance and deep and I don't think it should just be labeled as a "facebook game" as it is much more than that.

Ok... enough of the game. I know you're not interested in me babbling the whole page about it. Best is you tried it yourself enuff said....

Another confession to make:

I have officially quit smoking.

Ok you may not even know I started it, but I did... since joining BAT last year. So hooray on my well kept secret. Been smoking like 2-3 Dunhill lights. Although it doesn't seem a lot but try do that everyday and see how your lungs feel, how smelly you are, and how your health and energy deteoriates.

Decided to quit for health reasons. I know it is effecting my health at a big cost. So I decided enough is enough.

Latest pics that will be on display on every cigarrete pack out there in Malaysia:

Eerie....

A friend of mine who have caught the pictures up close:

It made me think... really. To those who smoke or have friends who smoke (you should show them these).... what do you feel after seeing the pics above? The first time I saw them I was stunned. Lol... imagine if those were your organs...

If you smoke, quit. If you don't smoke... don't try it.

That's all for now. Off to bed for work at 7am. Nites and ciao.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

2009-02-14T14:35:00.002+08:00

May the day bring u and ur love one a great meaning of being together...

for me, i will be celebrating this day as a single... nyway i will think positive, and not dwell in the negative-ness of being single... :D

this is for all the couples out there jamming the streets, holding hands, and cramming the shops and outlets with sheer numbers, hehe:

honestly, i've never got the chance to celebrate valentine's day with a loved one... maybe one day i will....

happy for those who have found their true love =)

-end-

I am back after a long hiatus

2009-02-11T01:17:00.003+08:00

Yes, I am back to blogging... one of my long hiatus after CNY...

didn't feel like updating anything, don't have the mood to.

I don't know if i'm feeling depressed or being negative, but recently my mood is really bad...

Things did happen as well (not a relationship, I don't have such luck).

Sometimes I felt what are we living this life for? What is it all about? How come am I feeling so meaningless in it? Too much of work?

4 more days to Valentine's... and seems like it's gonna be a lonely Valentine's.

Ppl tell me I'm being complicated, am I? I don't know... maybe I'm just thinking too much.

I still feel happy at times, like happy being at work, being with friends... But I sort of felt my whole self is changing... being more mature?

So many questions... maybe it's being part of growing up. I don't know.

Pray for me... as it seems I'm on rocky seas now... where I'm going I don't know... I'm lost... in the middle of the wide ocean...

going back to my home...

2009-01-24T22:56:00.003+08:00

i don't really call kl my home...

first start, the people, many of them just sucks...

2nd, my family is staying for 20 years in kuantan...

3rd, i came to kl for the reason that i need to work and earn a living, as there are virtually zero IT jobs in kuantan...

4th, kl is full of pollution, the very air we breathe, the water we drink... everything smells and taste diffrent, ESPECIALLY the FRESHNESS OF THE FOODS...

5th, i am brought up for 20 years in kuantan, i know every corner, turn and road in it... (except those outside my area of exploration but somehow i manage to find the way even if first time...)

6th, there are many other things in kl i hate... not just people...

7th, there is always plenty of time in kuantan as everything is so near!

8th, my true friends are in kuantan... we've been together for around 8 years and still sticking out for each other.

9th, my mum is in kuantan (ok u are asking why i put this the 9th? haha i love her man, the number doesn't count)

10th, during cny kuantan is da place... not kl. i know no shit about celebrating cny in kl, dunno wat to do!!

11th, there is much history of me in kuantan... so much + and - that have happen... which helped shaped who i am today....

12th, the beach rules... Teluk Chempedak pawns all other beaches in Penang, KL, Port Dickson, you name it every beach on the west coast (except Langkawi and the other islands)

13th, kuantan culture is so much more different then kl... ppl dont treat each other like enemies or competition... they are friendly... they dont have that "kl look" or dress like a "typical kl-ian", they don't give u more stress simply by talking to them... they value friendship... work culture is treating each other nice and not scolding and throw bamboo (seldom unless explode)...

14th, kuantan has almost everything, u name it malls, cybercafes, 7-11, every major fastfood including the less major such as starbucks, dunkin donuts.... gsc cinemas....

15th, u will love and understand the beauty of kuantan once u live there for a few years. A malay guy once told me when i was working as customer care in Maxis kuantan, that he went the whole malaysia (other states) to survey, only to find kuantan the place he love most. As he migrated from kl with his whole family to settle in a less "crazy" place (that is KL). Whoa! this made me proud when i first heard him say that about kuantan!

nyway, tomorrow i'm heading back to kuantan. pray for my safe journey and i wish all of you a very very happy chinese new year! =)

movies....

2009-01-18T12:14:00.006+08:00

Sunday and in the office...

dunno what to update in my blog. Sigh.

Few things in my mind now:

1. watch IP man... it's a damn good movie. Really. Best kung fu show since bruce lee acted...

More pics taken from http://www.ipman-movie.com/main_en.html

(you can use the above as wallpaper as they are 1280x1080 in size... ^^ )

2. waiting for the next installment of Red Cliff 2 (one of the best movies about romance of the 3 kingdoms in ancient China last time):

Red Cliff 2 ....... o.O

Red Cliff 1 was kinda mind blowing... I bet 2nd will be even better...

**Gonna post my remaining transformers pics in facebook soon... stay tune XD **

off day...

2009-01-15T10:43:00.002+08:00

Off day today...

yest was bad news... total 165 cases logged... -.-

had to reach 400 by end of tis month... possible? *yawn*

every month is same old story, need to log till 400 then you get spared from "lecture" in the board room aka meeting...

will try my best lah... can't promise anything. This month's call volume was crazy anyway... non stop in the morning and evening followup all the big cases.

Helpdesk.... sigh. No wonder so many ppl look down on it.

What to do... you ought to start somewhere... IT is lidat... (unless you lucky and start at a good position... these days rare... too many of them >.< )

Tony Roma's Sunway Pyramid

2009-01-13T23:23:00.003+08:00

Had dinner with a friend to celebrate her belated birthday at Tony Roma today....

The food was pretty expensive but it was good... the menu they had:

I had rib eye steak... it was good, but just barely enough. The management says that the supplier for the beef has slack as it was a new supplier and that the previous had given more portion for raw beef... The waitress talked alot... like ALOT... till it made me uncomfortable =.=... well at least she likes her enthusiasm... yet for me i find the waitress abit too overboard. (c'mon i'm eating here... i don't need a waitress to keep coming to me to keep me entertained... zzz)

Anyhow, I am happy that she had a great dinner. =) As I did not had the time to get her presents and it was already pretty last minute...

Gonna send her to work near Times Square tomorrow... she do not have transport and I don't want her to get the risk of anything happening by taking public transportation THE FIRST TIME.. >.<>

She is a great friend... and I guess for best is to keep that going... (won't explain how I feel inside of me... )

Happy belated Birthday...

-end-

(the reason why i keep ppl's name in disclosure is due to privacy and confidentiality concerns... just playing safe here... ^^ )

forgiving...

2009-01-11T10:24:00.002+08:00

i reconciled myself with her yesterday...

i figure i was in a bad mood, and she forgave me...

i believe one should always seek for reconciliation.. rather then vangeance or unforgiveness. It will only bear much fruit of suffering, and pain.

helping a friend...

2009-01-10T07:27:00.003+08:00

I went to evelyn's condo yesterday night, to assist her in finishing her exam paper template for the resit students. One of the lecturer in her company left (due to low pay) and she had to fill the void. So in a short notice the principle there gave her the task to redo the exam paper for the failed students (the lecturer that left is the teacher).

She didn't had a laptop, thus I went there and helped her out. Typed for her the whole exam paper (which involves beautician machines etc, steaming, facial paradic etc duno wth am I typing @@ )... we manage to wrap it up at 12 am. Suggested some questions that can be created for the subjective and we took some questions from past papers as well.

She is a beautician at Clara. Got to know her sometime from Roy (which ditched me for some stupid reason and due to jealousy with me going out with her...which is absolutely stupid coz we had been friends for 3 years and he just end it up like that in the name of ego).

She can only quit from the company this August (quitting earlier would involve a high penalty). And she is underpaid. Sigh, companies nowadays, trying to save cost? Thus explains the lack of manpower and she needing to fill in the other person's role.

Hope she can get a good job soon.. will be praying for her.

So people, value the good jobs you have. And those looking for jobs, don't simply sign for one without studying whether is it worth it? as once you are down the floor there is only more commitment... is the pay worth it? The environment? The politics? The people there? The things you learn and do?

You'll only regret much once you get the wrong job. Don't let companies fooled you, they are damn smart asses, especially those that are not making a huge profit in the market. They'll only slice more of what they can from you yet adding you more work.

Life... is never easy once you start working. Zzz...

Letting go fully...

2009-01-08T07:30:00.003+08:00

Finally, I have made up my mind to let it go fully...

I feel that there is no point being one sided, loving someone and having the other person ignores you. For me, to experience such a treatment will leave me to ignore the person, once I reached my limit. I have did that few times recently, after knowing a girl, tried my best to ask her out and got ignored. Or in some ways she treated and talked to me like shit... I will proceed to do the same. I have preferences, and will always stick to it.

I have always remembered myself as being a guy, and a guy doesn't need to worry of whether half of the girls in this world rejects him, as there will always be those that will accept him. I believe when the time is right to meet that special someone, there is no need to search... as it will come naturally.

I had enough of being treated like as if I'm not important, being a spare tire, or being ignored. I dislike being treated this way. Girls that take things for granted to continually hurt a guy's feeling (as they thought we are like men of steel, one that doesn't get hurt). I would appreaciate if they could be considerate of our feelings, rather then keep throwing things at us.

Thus, I would be leaving this one behind, as I have mentioned, I will go far away and just dissapear...

Once more... I am single. And will be happy with it. =)

Hope...

2009-01-07T22:38:00.006+08:00

my latest facebook status:

David is hopeful... had a great day today... thanks to futsal, food and my colleagues!! xD

wow.. facebook is bcoming an absolute must in our everyday lives.. i guess the creator is happily going to the bank everyday ahahha...

I'd say.. it revolutionized what a social portal is... =)

I was sad... and I guess most of my colleagues and close friends knew about it... my blog and facebook explained it much...

But, we have to move on in life... to me life is too short to waste one time being stucked at the word "unhappy"... i believe we ought to be happy, to live to the full and to make use of every time we have...

Such as with the one I "liked"... I know I did mistakes... and I'm sorry. Yet I learnt from it, and there is no point dwelling in the negative past for long. (I confess i still have feelings for her and I sense she does too... ). And now to treat each other like friends... to be with her as a friend and supporting her is most important...

Time to move on with hope... hope for days that is to come, the year 2009 brings aplenty I feel... and many good things will happen in this year it seems...

Thanks ppl... you know who you are... for supporting me, for being good friends. My heart is filled with gratitude and thanks alot for all the advice and encouragement. You all helped me and built me up... =)

Girls being young...

2009-01-06T14:57:00.002+08:00

I never understand how the younger girls think... what they perceived they are... their ideals... I feel like giving up on them. Had enough... I am done trying to understand them anymore...

Crushed... broken...

I let myself hurt without even knowing what am I hurt by...

The thoughts that swayed from one extreme to the other...

The change that comes to them swiftly...

The immaturity of thinking.

A poem to them:

Young girls think alot...

About themselves,

Their dreams...

The hansome men they wished to have...

Are they able to reach that goal?

Each of them will try,

To find that perfect guy...

Not knowing that many,

Have fallen to the wrong ones,

Cheated, used and manipulated.

As age grows in them...

They start to see the truth,

Or will they ever see the truth?

The movies, the dramas,

That influenced the way they perceived love,

relationships, and life.

All mixed up with reality like a blender mixing all the juice...

They do not know that when it strikes them one day...

As they age and lost their beauty,

As they slowly get older and when there are less choices...

Finally will they see?

They go along their way...

Hurting the men around them...

Trying out and dumping them like used items.

Is that what love is supposed to be?

Love was once sincere,

pure, honest, and straight from the heart.

There was no need to look at the outer appearance into the most discreet details...

the hair, the looks, the body all must be perfect?

It all started from our age,

and things continued to get more wrong...

people start giving up hope on love,

settling down at a later age...

What is wrong with our society?

Can't they see the truth?

The reality of things...

That looks and all that charm is all deceiving...

Can't they look at a person at their inner most?

Their character? what makes them them?

I surrender.. surrender myself once more to the abyss of loneliness...

of singlehood...

of being left without a relationship...

as I pray that the world will change...

that people will change their ways...

their whole outlook on life...

A sad ending. An ending that wasn't meant to be.

-End-

Ming Wan grown up...(pics taken 11/10/08)

2009-01-04T21:18:00.002+08:00

abit late to post this...

a fren ask and i sort of remembered about this...

Ming Wan is bigger now... so cute... ^_^

it's been a long time

2009-01-04T15:05:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time since i've updated my blog... sorry dear readers >.<

and it's been a long time since i can say that i fell in love...

love is something that comes when you know it is, it's not when u know a girl and say "oh i love her...". It goes deeper then that... when you know her and continues to keep wanting to know her. It's about two person sharing the common ground and the chemistry that builds up both.

and you couldn't love someone who doesn't love you back...

yet... it came so fast suddenly... this feeling that i almost thought would not come back.

It's been 2 years since i was last in a relationship... and that one traumatized me the most. (sorry if the reader is the person, just felt i need to write wat's inside of me). After which I went on a solo mission, living my single life till today...

I love her.. and I hope she'll accept me too.

A poem:

Life is too short to live without love,

one should keep trying till he finds her...

don't give up...

Remind yourself that that someone special is waiting for you,

give it a try...

and if you failed,

Learn to get up.

Find out what's wrong about you,

and improve yourself further.

If you aren't the problem,

never stop finding...

The searching is worth it in the end.

God have placed one for each of us...

As long we don't give up,

one day we'll find the person we love.

updateesss

2008-12-15T21:31:00.003+08:00

Updates since my last update in da blog:

1. car is fixed... finally. Took me a week. From then on I made up my mind firmly to drive slower and safer... resolution came true after a traumatized experience at the police station, insurance and worst of all, the super slow speed of the workshop... (even when it's not my fault and I don't have to pay a cent, I was not able to use my car for that time and it just sucks and time wasting + mum wasn't willing to borrow me her Toyota Vios except once coz it was a late night meeting...zzz)

2. mum was here for a few weeks since came back from Singapore (to visit my eldest sis and niece there). I had plenty of home cooked food...plus the home was neater too since she is a neat freak and can't stand even the slightest mess or dirt.

3. camera phone SE C902. Happy with it, explored most of the phone features and the camera is just awesome for it's tiny size. Lightweight and durable with an extended battery life

4. work... main app FOM was down from Sunday till today Monday. It was madness for 2 days at work with non stop calls. Had to liase with this and that person and it was nuts. Lucky we got it fixed today! woohoo! what an achievement. Many thanks to the team lead Alex who stood by at conference for hours with GSD...

5. Stucked at home. Since the car was being repaired I was forcefully stucked-at-home (you can calculate the date where I posted the car photo in the previous post till now). I have not went out alone/or with anyone to shop or watch a movie. >.<)

6. Bukit Antarabangsa landslide... One of my colleagues was staying there.... @@. Lucky Theven's house was allright and he is safe. Evacuated from that place and stayed with his relatives (his whole family). His description of it was havoc... everyone evacuating from a dirt road... climbing down slippery steps, unable to drive out from that disaster area... Dirt piled up 200m from his house... thank god for his safety.

Yea that's all for the updates...

This year seems like it's not a very good year... the opposite actually, with so many weird and unexpected thing happening at the very corner. I look forward to a better year (at least less misfortune happening to me >.<) and building up my career further...

Thanks for all my friends' support and for being there... you guys and gals meant a lot to me.

freak car accident at the front...

2008-11-29T22:51:00.006+08:00

I can't believe it...

Why is this happening again? I just sprayed the whole car, repaired it just 2 months back and it is dejavu all over again...

This time it's not my fault, some P licence driver swung out from the junction, took over 2 lanes, and caused me to bang him. I wasn't prepared for it at all, plus the roads were slippery as it was raining heavily that night.

Waited at the police station, till 2am. Went back and slept at 3am. Woke up at 5.50am to go to work at 7am. At work I was frustrated, sick, and laiden with a bad mood.

How can this happen again? I've tried my best to avoid such a shit... and now it came back to hunt me. Why can't this stop why......

Nevertheless, I have to repair my car. Next week. Mum will be back from Singapore (after visiting my nephew there) tomorrow. Will need her to fetch me through and flow from work during the repairs. 3 days estimated time needed to fix it. And after looking at the damaged shit, I realised it is more serious than what I first could spot on... As the LIGHTS ARE NOW FOUND TO BE BROKEN, THE BUMPER CRACKED, THE AIR FILTER WENT IN... AND THE LEFT BUMPER (INSIDE) IS SLIGHTLY TOUCHING MY LEFT TYRE...

All because of a naive 19 year old college kid not driving properly on the road. Why can't he just gave way and SEE FIRST before turning? So reckless!!

And he didn't want to pay me on the spot... AND HIS DAD WAS DRIVING A FREAKING NEW BMW AND STILL HIS DAD DIDN'T WANT TO PAY ME!! His dad was cooly saying: "let's go make a police report..." (admit it you are just blardy kiamsiap and rather pay the insurance and police fine later on, stupid you...)

WHAT IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE LAR? WALAO!!! BEH TAHAN!!!

SE C902

2008-11-25T14:45:00.003+08:00

The phone that I bought after trading in N79...

Sony Ericsson C902:

Sleek, stylish, and with a good camera...

Comes with 3G and A-GPS... weighing less then 90 grams...

Sound quality is good...

I'm happy with my phone =)

anti nokia sentiments

2008-11-25T14:22:00.005+08:00

I've sold my phone.. got enough of the N79 that i bought...

the things that i was not satisfied:

1. simple thing as receiving a call... maxis sent me missed call messages even when my phone is on all the time...

2. the camera wasn't close to my 3.2 megapixels k810i that i've used previously... (you can actually see pixels after uploading to PC)

3. expensive, yet it dissapointed me due to the price i paid

4. GPS, Wifi yada yada that were used in promoting it... in the end is it that important ? eg. when u drive do u have time looking at the small GPS screen on the phone? i can't even read the words and the car is jerking! Wifi... when u eat at a wifi area... The food comes fast, and you are with your friends... do you have time to browse it? Why not go home when you are really free to do so?

5. Nokia rep promised me that the resell value is much higher then SE... bullcrap... when I went back to the same store they gave me RM1000 only... and i bought it for a RM1900? hey don't be a hypocrite if you don't plan to practice it... tell customers the truth...

6. Slow symbian... everybody knows it lags... any N series...

7. The N gage game... for 1 cost like RM40 and above... =.=

8. The design looks really uncle-ish...

9. Due to the above points it make me can't sleep at times thinking what should i do about it...

10. Thus explains why I'm very anti nokia now...

I'm not doing this not just to jeopardize their image... but for them to realize their mistakes and shortfalls and change... if not it's better for them to pack up and close shop... (you will never appeal to the younger generation... sooner or later no one will choose Nokia coz you are still way behind in the stone age when ppl are already in bronze age)

SE is the way where mobile phones should go... Even Samsung is changing and following their sales strategy... yet Samsung still lacks one thing due to their past history... the phone being not durable.. slides coming apart... phone issues etc...

One thing all mobile phones should be... make sure it lasts and the basic thing of call in call out and sms can be done 100% without defect...

Then u can focus on other extra specs... If not like Nokia... what is the specs for if even receiving calls are so difficult?

And seriously... Nokia... don't be so stubborn headed... if u can't make a camera out of your phone (even using Carl Zeiss lens alone won't help)... go and merge with a camera producing company... your cameras seriously suck...

And your hefty price tag? Zzz...

I won't ever buy a Nokia again... and shall advice my friends not to do so...

See what you did although it's only one phone?

Back after a month...

2008-11-16T02:15:00.005+08:00

Back to my blog after a month? close to a month already huh... how fast time flies and how busy I was...

latest updates is going to genting with my colleagues (that was memorable), as below:

(^pictures courtesy of Alex, thx broo...^)

And catching up with my remaining transformers movie toy collection:

Transformers Collection

As well as my new phone that I bought with a hefty price tag of RM1900:

And finally... everything is back to ok with my job... *relief*. Doing my usual work and on my way to self improvement (team as well but self is whr u start first before looking at the rest, as the chinese saying goes: "if u cant take care of urself, how are u gonna take care of others?")

Things have move on to a better month...

Thank you God for helping me make through it all... You have been there guiding me through, and I can never say enough "thank you" for all that you've done for me...

Back to work the next day (noon shift)... going to sleep now... nite buddies... :)

insecurity....

2008-10-27T10:15:00.003+08:00

I've did my best, but my best ain't good enough...

I received complains... and users are 100% right and I am the wrong...

6-7 complaints for a duration of 6 months is alot... I am the person in the team doing the worst...

BAT users complaining about me, although ED users didn't... I am still at fault...

Is as if they are all right... and I have no place to defend myself... All my work, all I have built for, means nothing...

I am being treated as nothing...

Ppl's complaint are more important then the whole picture that I have contributed... All my contribution is nothing as well....

I'm blamed for pulling down the team, asking to leave earlier if I'm not happy, asking to leave if this is not the right place for me...

What have I got to say? Pushing me out of here... And I don't need a job who doesn't need me...

I will be going soon... it seems...

Being pointed at, being laid the burden, being pushed out of the door... I am not valued... And I shall walk out with honor and without regrets rather than being treated this way...

I am a human, not some slave... I have standards, and I set them, and I tried to fulfill them... I push myself till I almost break...

But it's no point... non is appreaciated... In the end I get stabbed to pieces.... becoz of a few customers ditch their complaints at me...

Will your customers work at the service desk for u? Are they always right or they are humans as well having emotions and having bad days? Do they know all the technical stuffs and how it runs and needed to be solved? Lacking of staff not picking up their calls later won't they complaint furthermore?

what is there to hurt?

2008-10-21T23:12:00.004+08:00

An emo poem...

Life sucks,
when people around u treat others like shit,
when you see cars driving like shit,
and when ppl say things that hurt u like shit...
What is shit?
Shit is waste,
Worthless,
Polluting,
And destroys the appetite...
That is shit.
But what is there to hurt?
Why shit?
Why not gun?
Gun hurts... knife hurts... a bomb hurts...
Then why shit?
Coz shit can stain your face...
Leave a smell long enough till you take 2 showers...
Leave a trauma long enough till you freak out touching it...
That is why shit sucks...
And when ppl start acting like shit,
And treat you like shit...
It's time to know your self worth...
To know you aren't deserving of that shit hurt inside of you...
Will you stand there and let ppl throw shit at you?
Or will you throw shit back?
Or just ignore and get off it's track?
Throw it back and u might end up getting more shit....
Standing there is ain't goood enough coz u get more shit...
So best is u walk away...
Even if it means saying goodbye...

I had enough of ppl's shit...
Shit in office is ok coz it's work...
You get money off the shit...
It's like Indah Water you clear ppl's shit and u get paid...
But not with frens...
With the one you're chasing...
It just sucks to feel like that...

Over here at the capital,
Many shit ppl exists...
On the road,
With your friends...
Or simply at the public...

Why?

Coz they think over here KL is everything...
Try see the world...
get a hint?
Or just look urself at the mirror and see what ppl see at u inside...
Don't just let ppl influence u coz u think it's a flow...
You determine urself...
How u wanna be...
How u wanna act...
So behave like u shud be...
Be responsible and stop throwing shit all around...
Coz watever goes around comes back around and will hit u pretty hard...
It might be like storm... an AK47 or worst it just kills you and knocks u real hard...
Till ur whole self shakes like sand....

Selfishness... Arrogance...
Lack of self-control...
I'm sick looking at all of the above...
All that makes ppl a sickening piece of character...
Learn to see urself in the other person's shoe, what does he feel?
Don't u care?
Don't u see?
Are u that blind and insensitive?
Think...
Go through your big brain and ur big heart...
And see the whole picture b4 u utter that word...

STOP BEING A SHIT AND BE A PERSON... ENOUGH.

-The End-

emo post

2008-10-07T21:19:00.002+08:00

in office now, doing night shift for these 2 weeks.

time has speed by blardy fast... and now it's been 5 mths + at office.

things have changed, some things got better and some things worse...

working life is so busy till I had little time updating my blog. It's been 2 weeks since my last update...

roy is coming down on thursday, for his graduation... but I can't make it due to work.

so sorry...

friends are slowing fading away... giving in to their own lives and ways... settling down. Changing...

I have changed too... for better for worse... i'm just living it now... been single for 2 years.

An emo post.... sigh...

looking forward to going home........

baby ming-wan

2008-09-18T13:47:00.004+08:00

Hi Boy,

Attached are three photos of baby Min-Wan taken 2 days ago at home in her new baby cot. Show mom! :)

You take care!

love,
Sis

My eldest sis baby just discharged out of the hospital, due to premature birth at 7 mths.

Started out at 1+ kg and now a healthy 2.5kg...

Our prayers are answered, and I will continue to pray for her till she is a healthy young kid.

Isn't she adorable? =)

tiredd....

2008-09-17T11:42:00.002+08:00

working morning shift for quite some time now... (feel like a long week)...

physically tired and mentally exhausted.. having a 3 days off now...

all i wanna do now is rejuvenate...

system upgrades can make a toll on support... each system change just add problems and questions to the users, which they will call just to ask us out to answer and solve...

i should have studied programming, but i guess it's too late now. Stucked with IT support till god knows when....

Time to rest...

14 days of mia from my blog @@

2008-09-14T09:05:00.003+08:00

sorry sorry... now only noticed that i have been missing here for 14 days...

been so busy these days with work, that by the time i come back i just feel like lazing around, ps2 or watch some dvd...

i also bought transformers toys coz felt too sien... zzz free time will transform them robot to vehicle and vice versa... (the movie toys are exceptionally cool mwahha) , u can see my collection here:
http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=29329&id=832764180

i miss the time having a gf, somone to hug and spent time with, to talk to on the phone... seems so far a memory... but till now no luck of finding whomsoever...

life sucks when you are alone, and i'm living alone as well in the whole big apartment, which makes it suckier... :(

nvm, i shall continue to console myself with all the things that could make me busy with... toys, games, outdoors and friends. Someday i guess this loneliness will fade away....

back to work... in office now although it's a sunday (as i'm on rotational shift)...

see ya...

down mode...

2008-08-31T11:18:00.002+08:00

don't feel really good.... been feeling down these days after getting sick.

can't really go anywhr too as i'm not completely recovered, still coughing. All the merdeka outings has to be skipped.... sigh :(

i wish i had someone to be with right now....

quitting smoking - the decision

2008-08-27T14:23:00.002+08:00

Fell sick yesterday, with high fever and my throat inflame. It's the first time i felt like as if my brains are gonna melt and my whole body like as cold as ice...

Last night was horrible, I could not sleep well, suddenly waking up feeling cold throughout, could be the weather as well, but my body never felt this weak.

My phlegm was green, keep going to toilet to spit. When morning came, it took me longer just to wake up from bed, I was shaking and I did really think, I am gonna die if I don't see a doc...

After seeing the doctor, he explained I had fever and inflame throat... So I proceed to ask him, did smoking caused this? He was reluctant to answer and say it might have been.

I decided, to turn over and quit it. This was my first time feeling this ill... and if smoking is the reason, I want to quit.

Pray for me that I don't touch it anymore.

My advice to those who don't smoke, don't even try it. Live life cigarette free.

transformers figurine - blackout

2008-08-25T23:05:00.002+08:00

bought blackout... coz was too irresistable looking at the movie toy figurines, was too curious.

bought it at 130 bucks. but need to touch it like once a day, damm fun....

haha it's still a waste of money lol xD

THE DARK KNIGHT

2008-08-09T20:03:00.004+08:00

Sorry to write this review after so long.... but was reli busy so here goes... :

This movie is damm damm damm syok. Any alive person must watch it. The best Batman eva... like seriously blow the mind of the audience to smithereens...

The genius Heath Ledger pwnsss all... everyone including Batman falls short of his glorious acting, like a pro casting his masterpiece into the movie...

It was mind blowing... the first movie to overwhelmed me like a tsunami... after the movie ended I was speechlesss.... I just sat at the seat dumbfounded. Like . . . . . . .

After a few days, I digested the movie and felt like watching it again! It beats the heck out of every superhero films out there and just stood like a holy grail.

YOU MUST WATCH THIS MOVIE. TRUST ME. OR ELSE IT'S A WASTE TO WATCH IT ON THE TINNY SCREEN!

Ok that's all on my rant for Batman. Outstanding 11 stars out of 10.

Worth your every penny peanut you ever earn to watch a movie. =D

Enjoyyy:

office birthday celebration....

2008-08-07T14:02:00.004+08:00

office birthday celebration for our new boss Lim and also newcomer CY:

it's good that they celebrate ppl's birthday in office... helps to motivate the team :)

CY said that she is very touched... and lim thanked everybody for making it happen...

birthdays although ppl might say it's not important, it actually is. You wake up on your birthday expecting it to be different, to celebrate the days your parents give birth to you to this world. A day you can thank for being born and recalling life's gift...

Happy birthday...

bebee's rabbits and kurma ayam =D

2008-08-07T13:45:00.004+08:00

went to bebee's house on tuesday... she said wanted to cook for us hehe. Then there was the rabbits, lots of them! lol...

the awesome preparations for the kurma ayam...

while preparing... lee shows his muscular power on the vege...

the big pot with lotss of kurma ayam... =D

the end product... 8 drumsticks + scrambled eggs + vege

bebee was a proo in the kitchen...

lee lying on the couch... the rabbit laying on his tummy pillow =D

chris showing off the rabbit... one of the 3rd generation..

And finally, the awesome documentary of the rabbit invasionnnn:

been mia

2008-08-03T00:17:00.002+08:00

mia... stands for Missing in Action.

and I'm mia once again... after so long.

hard to find time to blog and to update my routine-d life = work + things to settle

sigh... <--- v common word associated with my company.

free <-- seldom associated

on the brink of losing my sanity... but thanks to some cigs i've manage to remain sane... high stress at times (and them keep coming back to hit u) just melts you off when you don't need it...

missed pauline... kinda feel it now. Lim's administration has a totally different style.

Life goes on... and i'm still hopelessly single... till god knows when. Seems like i'm chasing after the wind...

that's all... my updates on my small dot of life. How insignificant it is.

Hope things would get better for me... at a personal level.

office pics...

2008-07-24T20:17:00.006+08:00

the cubicle area i work in...

alice and her pc....

alex pretending not to see.. beside him is my place.

*smile smile*

me and shahreyman...

pauline and alexer...

pauline smiling wide... me beside...

james smiling with style...

didie cool posee...

me and alex... *the team lead look...*

thinking of something... probably reading some email...analyzing the solution...

didie and alex modeling...

pauline peace sign... :D

wah rubbish here thr.. make sure clean up! force to take tis pic due to me being cleanliness for the week...lol

pauline wanna take revenge.. uh-oh...

my work station...v small beside alex.. coz he wan monitor me @@

the exit to it all... liberation...phew.

stair to heaven.. (i think it's opposite >.<)

one cup being left alone... aww... (some1 will kena cheng cheng next day...RM1 penalty)

office video... busy busy...

2008-07-24T20:14:00.001+08:00

a day at the office... XD

clubbing pictures...

2008-07-15T10:28:00.005+08:00

I know they may be a bit outdated... its from the pauline's farewell last time:

The long seats... can sleep 1

Pauline resting on the "bed"... haha

Louis and me...

The DJ...

dancinggg...

drink and talk talk... still just starting...

pauline scolding james? haha no la...

all together...

this one a bit high adi...

the drinks...whiskys...

the lighting...

alex and the girl...

2008-07-06T23:16:00.002+08:00

I got this phone by chance, from alex...

gosh i cant get my hands off it ahahaha...

he sold me for 700 bucks... i still think it's a good buy considering that his gf used it since last year december. It's still in good quality.

don't ask me fork out 1.2k for an original brand new. economy crisis weh now.....

will upload photos from the phone soon =D

sorry...

2008-07-06T21:49:00.002+08:00

sorry for not updating... been super bz with work...

hell i need more break time...

and pauline's leaving.... v sad. Duno what will happen when she does... this week onwards she's on unofficial work to our office, just visiting...

haih...

and rumors that our department might wanna cut down head counts, damm depressing. Cutting to 4 is unrealistic decision by the top ppl..

we'll see how it goes. praying that the IT manager will get his head right... and not just based on calls logged on the system...